Doing it the right way

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I have a friend.  Our moms have been friends for a long time. They went to college together.  The friend and I only became close in the last 10 years or so.  Our lives are pretty different.  She's about 5 years younger than I am. She enjoys partying and having fun, clubs, etc.  She's a lawyer, bought her own house, nice care.  I am married and have 5 kids. I'm a stay home homeschooling mom living overseas. Our mos are close and so we've become close. The one thing we had in common was our weight. Both of us were overweight, considerably.  A few years ago she had lap band surgery.   I was happy for her, btu OI also felt jealous a bit. The weight was something we had in common. We could really relate on that issue despite our many differences. I suppose I felt a little jealous as well. She began losing weight and I was still fat!  She took the one thing we had in common, our bond.  She took control and made a change. And my mom loves her. Loves her like her own daughter. I once told my mom that, " Marcia can do no wrong in your eyes. "   But when we both had the weight, it made her seem more normal to me.  Now with her weight loss... I feel like we are different. Next to her, I feel like less. Very sad, I know.  I know my mom loves me and my family, but part of her wishes I had chose Marcia's path as well. That is hard sometimes.  Anyway after she had surgery and I saw how great she looked for the first time, I began considering it. She highly recommended it, of course. Somehow though, it felt like cheating. I felt like if I didn't have to work so hard to lose the weight, would I appreciate it?  How would I feel?  I imagine and pray that I lose this 100+ pounds one day. When I do (I gotta say when, not it) I want to be proud of all the hard work I did. I want to be able to say look what I did!!! Look what I made happen. And that has always been in the back of my mind and is what has made me keep the thoughts of the surgery at an arm's length (that and the cost).  Well, the other day I found out my friend was rushed to the hospital to have emergency surgery bc the band slipped. Wow!  I had never thought about that. It just goes to show that this way, the way we are doing it, naturally really is healthier.  I wish her no harm and she is doing fine now. It is just nice to know that I have made a good choice.

Thanks for reading.Stacey