[Mindful i Mouse] Mid-Week Weigh-In and a GAIN.

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Can a bad mood make one gain weight? Grrrr.. Or how about watching someone else eat? We should hopefully be off of all night driving, we are sitting in NJ waiting for a dispatch. Slept all night for a change and it sure was a deep sleep. I wanted to check my weight today (mid point of the week) to see if the loss was more than the dismal half pound last Saturday. I was in for a shock to see a GAIN. Click to enlarge any photo or report. Damn it. Ketones this morning were 40 (moderate) and BG was 95, increase over the 70’s I have been in for 2 days in a row. Still a good reading though. So, I went dutifully to my nutritional program, entered/corrected the meals I have eaten the last week, which haven't changed from the allotted daily amounts except that I have added 2 oz of raw nuts during the night drives to get me from meal to meal when the hours of eating got so long in-between. I also had two days where I had an extra 2 T of peanut butter to lick to stave off hunger. Well these two nutty items brought me to a whopping increased average: Yes, I am being sarcastic. 1334 calorie average is only about 300 more than I need to lose weight. Reality check time once again! We have only been night driving since Saturday, so here I go, gaining weight on thin air. I have not yet lost the weight I gained in December, I need to get under 232 to show a net loss again. I have had success with mindful eating here in January as I wanted to experiment with and I like the joy I get out of it, but I have to face the challenge before me. Plan of action: I will go back to strict calorie counting, weighing my foods and being as accurate as I can be on the counts. I will mindfully savour what I eat, but save the full immersion to my maintenance phase. I cannot " see " where the problem lies when I don't know if calories or carbs are sneaking up on me. Although it tends to be a moot point as I eat exactly the same amount and the same foods every day on the truck. Still, it’s important to know. I can’t make adjustments if I don’t know where to adjust it. Since I have down well by staying in ketosis, it has to be the calories. I will bump the calories down to 800 for the rest of the month to see if I can get to a loss mode again. It's just temporary to break the stall. I took my measurements, they are exactly the same as they were on October 23, 2010. 44-45-53. Damn that too, I FELT as though I were getting smaller. No matter how I perceive what is happening, the numbers don't lie. I am not doing as well as I could be. Damn it though, because I have sat here, on the truck eating my allotted meals, portioning out my little portions, eating no goodies, nothing off plan (see carb average above) have gotten my BG numbers right where they should be and I cannot even get the 5 pounds I gained in December off this old body! Topping it off, my husband has been treating himself right and left with fast food and candy bars and me, nada. Talk about my resentful attitude building up! After dinner....not more than an hour later, where he ate 3 times what I eat for dinner, he goes and gets burgers and fries! I laid on my bunk near tears smelling that food and wondering why he gets to have all the fun and I gain the weight. Well, I have my plan of action in place and I will work it. Just to have the record, here is my January averages so far: Compared to December: In January I significantly reduced the carbs, upped the fat and decreased the protein. So far that hasn't helped weight loss, but did dramatically improve the blood glucose numbers. This leaves me with the conclusion that ketosis does nothing to help me lose weight. It seems to be completely in the number of calories I eat. Conclusion #2, I love eating intuitively/mindfully when I stay within my best food selections, but to lose weight, again, I will have to watch the numbers. Damn it. --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 1/26/2011 07:44:00 AM