[Mindful i Mouse] Weigh In and Thoughts

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The verdict is in. My weight, I am calling 237.5 as I uploaded the photo and that is close enough. So, it is a true gain and I will accept that I overate in December, too much booze and chocolate, with a higher carb average hitting 80! Click to enlarge. BG was higher at 94 this morning, yesterday after the Chinese food the night before it was 91. I did test for ketones this morning as I was curious if a morning reading was less than an evening reading, it was 40 or moderate. Hmm. I showed NEG the day after the Chinese dinner, but already I am in MOD range. That is interesting. So there was enough carbs to briefly knock me out but not enough to reserve the carbs and therefore I am not starting over again? I will test that the next time I eat more carbs than normally. So, I am back in the pink. We are STILL at the Yard, waiting for a dispatch out. it is cold and raining here in TX. Hopefully we won't be sent to the east as a winter storm is coming through. It's always a toss of the dice. Yesterday, as we sat in the lounge, I noticed that husband bought a few sandwiches from the canteen. He saved one, but it was eaten before lunchtime. I was busy with stuff on the computer so time slipped by. At 2pm he asks " not hungry? " I hadn't even thought about eating. we went back to the truck and I ate while he waited. I felt rushed. I couldn't spend as much time with dinner as I would like, either. I am getting more comfortable with eating slow, but it is hard sometimes when my husband eats so fast and then waits for me to finish so I can clean up and he can lay down (I sit on his bunk to cook and eat). We have a well rehearsed dance in this tiny space, and he is tired and wants to lay down and I feel guilt because I want to eat slowly. This agitation and rush he continually feels is because he is dedicated to his job and his sense of duty. I admire that in him, he is prompt and on task. But it flows into our life sometimes to the point of irritation to me. I am all for rushing and getting things done, but when there is no time limit, I like to slow down. He is wired to the clock and schedules, so that even when we are home time, he is planning when we shop. We are both planners and list makers, but sometimes I like to just be a bit more spontaneous and free spirited and now I want to be slow with eating. I don't know how this is going to work, I may have to drive him crazy with it. we do talk about it, he knows this is in him and assumes when we retire in 3 years, he'll be able to slow down and relax. I know it will not be all that easy for him. It took me a whole year to calm down after my last job. Back to dinner.....I really wanted to eat slow and savour it. Since we have been able to settle down to dinner with some extra time, I cooked in the skillet which means more olive oil and onion and bell peppers when we have some. I also thinly slice carrots for the stir fry and wow, it is so wonderful. So simple, so good. I don't even use any seasoning on mine, I like the unique flavours of each kind of veggie and of course the chicken sausage is already seasoned. Both my husband and my father salt their food before taking the first bite. I have always wondered how they knew if it needed it. For awhile, I would like to experiment with tasting food as it is, without seasonings or salt. The foods I eat on the truck already have a high sodium content, the canned veggies, the sausages and cheese. I keep wondering about taste and simplicity in food is what really satisfies? I remember a co-worker who needed Dr Pepper and Doritos Extreme Tortilla chips every morning for breakfast. I could not comprehend that. But I know anything we choose to eat becomes familiar and things we stop eating seem so alien when eaten again. For instance, when I get use to eating raw nuts, salted and roasted taste so intense and salty, while the raw tastes so sweet. This past 17 months of dieting, I just ate what was allowed. When overeating, I just eat what's available. From now on, I want to eat what tastes good and whatever foods will keep my BG numbers in the normal range. I feel more peaceful this way. The fears of not counting calories = uncontrolled eating are slipping away. I did not feel this way in my struggle days, so why now, I have no idea. Perhaps ketosis is playing a role, perhaps I am just ready to move forward, who knows. I like it, I feel positive and ready to explore it. I am setting aside my Zen of Eating for now and picking up The Slow Down Diet. At least the title appeals to me! Yesterday's meals: Today's Meals: B- muenster cheese, coffee with whole milk powder. L- summer sausage, swiss cheese, diet pepsi S- salted roasted almonds, diet pepsi D- chicken sausage, bell pepper, onion, carrot, olive oil stir-fry Todays' Planned Meals: B- golden flaxseed meal, peanut butter, coffee with whole milk powder L- summer sausage, swiss cheese, cucumber S- salted roasted almonds, raw pecans (mixed together now because husband needed the almond container for his supply of mixed nuts) D- chicken sausages, tinned green beans --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 1/09/2011 07:58:00 AM