[Mindful i Mouse] Weigh In Day

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Weigh in day. I have been drinking too much diet pepsi, up from 1 or 2 cans a day to 3 or 4. I could tell because my wedding ring is tight. I almost delayed the weigh in for a couple of days to see if I could flush out the fluid retention, but then I thought, this is one of those things I need to always stay aware of, to stay on top of the consequences of my choices. If I choose to drink too much diet soda pop, I retain fluids. Today I will opted for my beloved tea during the day and save the soda for the evening. Another quick note, I just realized that I tend to push away the very foods and drinks I truly love if I can have something I know isn't good for me. As I said before, when on an eating rampage, it's not my beloved foods, the ones that help me feel great that I indulge in, it's the crappy stuff. It's such a weird thing I do. I figured out it was a punishment to hurt myself, but not everything is about hurting, I do really like the taste of diet pepsi but it is something both my husband and I will have to give up when we return to Denmark as it is very expensive there and we will be living on savings. So I need to check my intake, need to be aware of the addictive behaviors I get about these non-nutritive indulgences. Ok, on to weigh in. I weighed in at 236. I feel as though perhaps there is a pound or so of fluid retention. I want to keep that in mind for the next weigh in to see if I am getting better as judging these things. This is my normal rate of loss. So I am very happy with it. Still feel anxious until I break the 232 though. As a check, I took photo's of my body, I did indeed throw away my favourite t-shirt this morning, the one that was too big. I put on a more fitting T, and I felt better when not drowning in a shirt. I liked the side view, anything that shows that huge belly deflating pleases me. I was such an apple shape! My belly was the hugest part of my body. I don't like the back view, I still look block shaped, but maybe someday I will have some hint of a waist definition. BG was 85 this morning, ketones at a steady moderate 40. My eating was completely on target all week, yet I do feel that I ate too much on occasion, or past a pleasant full signal. The meal I had the most sensation of fullness was dinner on the nights I cooked in the skillet, therefor had extra veggies. I prefer to eat more at lunch or breakfast than at dinner. This week, I plan on paying more attention to this. I have also tried to incorporate an afternoon snack, but I always feel a need for a snack midmorning, not afternoon. Why I continue to ignore what I really like and need, I don't know. While I understand the concepts of intuitive eating and mindfulness, I find I still feel way too many " shoulds and should nots " instead of feeling it is simply ok to eat and embrace that. i will lower the amounts I eat slightly, just enough to be sure and feel hunger before a meal. I like that feeling too, it make me feel like I am connecting to my body after being disconnected for so long. I continue to feel I am on the right path. --

Posted By i Mouse to Mindful i Mouse at 1/15/2011 06:28:00 AM