[The Little Bowl] Three Days and Hunger

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Two days back on the road. I have dropped my calories very low. Yesterday I really felt the hunger again, nothing bad or unmanageable, but at least twice the hunger pangs were there and I was reminded to eat. We are suppose to feel hunger. It is the cue that the body needs fuel. I felt sort of humbled by it, as I rarely let myself feel hunger unless I am dieting and expecting to feel that way. It makes me wonder about how much reliance I have on what I think I ought to eat and what I really need to eat. That’s the problem with dieting, thinking it, instead of listening. I know I have written about this before, but it still bothers me. I think back on the early part of my dieting and I felt such intense hunger and tried to work through it, learning to not fear it, but ease into it. It’s such a basic instinct and it is felt by millions of people every day. I can safely say that most of my life, I have not allowed myself to feel hunger, I ate plenty of food to prevent it. I have not felt this kind of hunger in a long time, even though I am dieting. My weight loss is not as consistent anymore. The two must e connected. I almost want to laugh at the whole thing. I mean think about it, if I feel hungry before a meal time, that is the signal it is time to refuel the body. I should feel this, and I should eat. Taking it to the next level, if I am hungry more frequently, then I am not taking in enough fuel to keep the body at the current needs…as in keeping my weight where it is. To lose weight, I need to eat less than I need and therefore feel hunger. My problem, is that I do not have the confidence that I know the moment to eat, to stop eating, to choose the right foods without using a guideline. and continue to lose weight. I have experimented with this many times. I can be somewhat successful, but not all of the time. Without controls, I flounder. And yet I yearn to eat more intuitively, more in-tune with my own body. In just a couple of days, eating 1/3 of what I was consuming on home-time, already the puffiness is gone, I feel thinner and have a better sense of wellbeing. I have set my basic diet for this trip: Click to enlarge. My averages so far. BG fasting readings. I am not testing any other time unless I eat something different or have a meal in a restaurant. My fasting BG is still above 100. This morning, it was 118. My husband’s has already dropped to 99, and he is eating potatoes, candy and bread. I am jealous. Sigh. --

Posted By elisaannh to The Little Bowl at 11/18/2010 06:45:00 AM