[The Little Bowl] June 2010 Month End Reports

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Of course, these reports are only interesting to me, but they help me understand how I am doing. June was a major breakthrough for me. It was my 10th month of dieting. I had been fluctuating wildly in my weight since last November. I decided on June 8th to reduce my carbs to less than 30 and my calories to under 1000 and I began to lose weight again. My total loss for June was 10 pounds! My ankles are swollen, so I know for sure that I am actually at 239 and I am calling it as 239 even though it appears borderline. I can feel it too! I looked in the mirror and saw that my stomach is incredibly reduced in size, it is soft, pliable, nearly flat compared to the hard apple round shape it has been for over 9 years. I didn’t take any photo’s of my belly this time, because I want to do a full photo shoot at the half way mark which WILL happen in July. A new low, a new number range…and ever so close to the halfway mark. Ok, reports. Click to enlarge any report. Here you can see the wild rollercoaster ride until I took it all down a notch on June 8th. My weigh in’s for June. My calorie and carb after for the whole month, which includes the higher calories and carbs between Jun 1 and Jun 7. The weight loss began after the 7th, so here is my average since then: It had been just under 1000 calories, but the last two evenings we had a regular beef sausage instead of the chicken sausage which upped my calories. This report shows how I did with my goals. Again, because I was higher in carbs the first week and I changed my goals on the 8th, this report shows me over on carbs, which is not quite accurate, so here is the one after the 8th, showing me only over by 3 carbs for my goal (not bad at all). I am still having trouble getting enough fat and protein, something I will have to work on. Finally, my cute BMI chart which I love because I can see when I cross over a dotted line into new territory. I still have such a long way to go, which makes me sigh, but keeps me in a reality check. It’s so easy to think, “hey I feel great, I can ease up a bit on the diet†but charts like this say “who are you kidding?â€. lol We are delivery our last load as I am writing this, and then we head home. I sat in the early morning darkness thinking about the home time and what it will mean for me. I am heading into dangerous territory. Husband will be home for 5 days and then he goes back on the truck, and I stay home. I will be alone and will have to deal with my eating in a different environment than the truck. It’s easy to say right now that I can continue to work hard on my diet, but I will have to stay focused and concentrate on one day at a time. There will be lots of positive incentives, like trying on my wedding dress, buying new clothes for Hawaii, wanting to feel my best on that trip. The old beast that has been lurking in the shadows has been trying to lure me with lies of “just one day, take a break from the diet just one day….†But I know so very well that one day of uncontrolled eating leads to a hellish existence. I will write in my journal every day to keep my path open to my goal. Concern # 1 – BOOZE. The very first thing I need to deal with is my beloved drinks. I like to have a nice Spanish rioja wine with dinner. That is 2 glasses. Then after dinner, I like a brandy or two….this is where the calories build up and when I am this low in calories, it doesn’t make sense to lose calories to booze. On the other hand, it is a great pleasure to me and home time means pleasure. I have always measured every drop while on home time, so I will continue to do that. This will be very critical to my success for the month, so I am very aware of this danger zone. Concern # 2 – ALONE. A former catalyst for overeating, being alone where no one can see me eat. I dread it. I will be very careful not to have any food in the house that is not on my diet, but there are all those whimsical moments that can change my inclination in a heart beat. BIG DANGER ZONE for me. Couple this with concern # 1 and being alone….sheesh,…look out! Awareness, awareness…..is my mantra for July. --

Posted By elisaannh to The Little Bowl at 7/01/2010 06:37:00 AM