The Disconnect

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So, in trying to recoup from my recent woes, I of course, went on a soul searching expedition to try and figure out what went wrong. I have come to the conclusion that somewhere along the line I've become disconnected. I've become disconnected from my spirituality, disconnected from my fitness desires, disconnected from my writing goals, and disconnected from any advancement I could be accomplishing in any of those areas. It's not just weight loss that's failing me right now, it's life in general. If I've told myself once I've told myself a thousand times conquer the problems of today and tomorrow will work itself out. I forget that sometimes when I'm working nonstop, I have no free time over the weekend because I have to do something with Mother, or because when I DO have free time I'm so exhausted I don't want to move. I have to remind myself that some of that exhaustion is mental, and that if I would get up and

move around I'd feel better, get something accomplished, have something on the books for the day that I can be proud of, and maybe, just maybe, when weigh in time comes it won't be such a cryfest. I kept thinking my boss was going to ask me to take a two or three week leave of absence because they are going to Europe and he doesn't think I have enough to do, I was going to use that time, if he suggested it, to really get going back on program. However, that is in JUNE and I need to get going NOW, and also, he didn't make that suggestion, in fact, he asked me NOT to take vacation while he was out because I'm the only one he can count on to be here every day, so that, I guess is something. So, I'm going to reconnect with my life, and take everything a leisurely one day at a time and not take the whole thing so seriously. Things outside of weight loss will work out in time, and weight loss will only work if I work out so that much

I'm going to do. I'm excited for the week to begin. One thing though, I absolutely CANNOT weigh right now. If I do I'll just go ballistic and I really can't handle that now. I'll wait two weeks for my first weigh in and I should be happy with the results. I'm back working in my garden, I'm back with my meditations, and I'm slowly getting back to me. I am at peace.

*~*~*~*"You can deprive the body, but the soul needs chocolate" -Sapphyre*~*~*~*What Have You Done Today To Make You Feel Proud? - The Biggest Loser*~*~*~*"Meditate. Live purely. Be quiet. Do your work with mastery. Like the moon, come out from behind the clouds! Shine".-Buddha*~*~*~*"Giving Up Is NOT An Option." - Sapphyre*~*~*~*"Whoever Said 'Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels' Obviously Never Had A Jalapeno Double Cheeseburger ..." - Sapphyre*~*~*~*"Don't Dig Your Grave With Your Own Knife and Fork." - English

Proverb*~*~*~*"Don't borrow someone else's spectacles to view yourself with."-Simon Travaglia*~*~*~*"Sometimes These Little Setbacks Are Just What We Need To Take A Giant Step Forward ..." Knight/Real Genius*~*~*~*

"If I look down the road and see how far I have to go, I may get discouraged. If I overthink every aspect of what I need to do to succeed I may give up. If I focus on just today and make it as perfect as I can, I will succeed." -Sapphyre