[The Little Bowl] I Blew My Goals

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Ack. Yesterday could have been the crossover day….it would have been the third day on track (usually my point of getting past my issue) but nope, I spun off track and once again suffered. It started with having a couple of whiskeys. Then I had some rice crackers to go with it. Then some nuts. ack….my carbs shot sky high with the rice crackers, my calories soared with the nuts and I ended up sick again. I tried really hard last night while laying in bed and suffering gastric distress that what I need to do is relax. I am living through my daughter’s birth frustrations and feeling my husband’s work frustrations and just letting it all get to me. Breathe. I felt so bloated and fat last night. It was so tempting to get mad at myself for doing what I did, but that won’t solve the problem. I need to identify the problem and find a solution. I think I am getting too caught up in calorie counting and making way too much of an issue with it when I eat past my goal percentages. I am also wanting so bad to go completely on my little bowl as my guide and not have any percentages, numbers or food restrictions. There is something about food restrictions that cause me to obsess and fuss over it. I am causing my own friction with too much focus on the wrong things. I did so much better when what I chose to eat wasn’t as important as how I felt internally. Just for a few days, I am not going to count calories or carbs, I am going to pay attention to my body cues, what I put in my bowl and how I feel before, during and after I eat. Even if I go back to calorie counting, i just feel a need to take a break from it. My husband is now back on the road, but he told me that the matching dish set for the little sunshine bowl arrived. I will be home about a month before he arrives again, so my plan is to eat exclusively from this set, a child’s dinner set I believe, with a bowl that holds one cup, a small mug and an 8 inch plate. I will have two of the sunshine bowls, I can keep one on the truck and one at home. I don’t have time to type out my menu for yesterday, but here are the totals: Today…just the bowl and I will take photo’s. --

Posted By elisaannh to The Little Bowl at 8/24/2010 01:38:00 PM