[The Little Bowl] Get Ready, Get Set…GO!

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Bracing myself against I know not what. *nervous laugh* There is a comfort zone that comes in dieting, especially when one has been dieting a long time. One gets use to the amount of food eaten, use to the routine, the flow of it all. Only two things can upset the balance, bingeing or changing the diet. It’s weird how I am fine with anything that is status quo. If I am in a prolonged period of bingeing, I am in a comfort zone with it. It gives me something to hang onto. When I am dieting for a long period, I feel a comfort zone with that. I am really into routine and known outcomes of the day. Whenever I start working on changing my diet, I get a slight case of anxiety. “Now†I think, “I will have to get use to THISâ€. It’s as if I am starting all over again and all the old fears start knocking on the door. Can I do it? Will I fail? What if I am setting up a binge episode from sheer starvation? It’s funny how my mind plays off of eating less but never worries about eating too much. What’s even stranger is that if I weighed the two out things (bingeing or dieting) I actually LIKE how I feel when not saturated with food. I HATE how I feel when stuffed to the gills. So why would I get a case of anxiety over eating in a way that will make me feel better? I just don’t get it. I can reason it out, but it doesn’t come naturally. I guess that is the difference between a person who never has a weight problem and one who does. It doesn’t come naturally. I made a few more tweaks to the menu I posted yesterday, looking to make it as easy as possible to stick to. The anxiety has mostly passed, I am ready to give it a go and feeling good that there will be a positive outcome. Yesterday’s Meals: B- 6 oz coffee, 2 tsp creamer, 2 cheese sticks, 2 T flaxseed meal, 1/2 T peanut butter (283) L- 4 oz salmon, 1 T mayonnaise, 5gr dried onions, water (315) D- 2 chicken sausages, 2 cups green beans, 1/2 cup cream of mushroom soup, 1T coconut milk, 1 can diet Pepsi (465) 1062 calories, 62gr fat, 42gr carbs, 17gr fiber, 78gr protein I decided to use up the last of the coconut milk and soup. I combined them with the green beans, baked for an hour and wow, was that a wonderful savoury taste! --

Posted By elisaannh to The Little Bowl at 6/09/2010 06:09:00 AM