Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Yes, you hit it right on, time seems to have slowed right down after the half way mark! No, nothing in the world could make me quit now after all I've been through so yeah, I just have to trudge on through. Thanks for the encouragement and I hope you start feeling better soon. Ally On 2/23/07, Lee <leecuate@...> wrote: Ally,I know what you mean. I didn't have to treat as long as you, but it seemed that once I reached the halfway point time slowed considerably. I was just sick of feeling bad. I finished two weeks ago and still don't feel normal, yet. I know you are not going to quit and I know how frustrating it can be, especially as you get closer to the finish line.I wanted to let you know that while I was doing treatment your posts helped me through some difficult times that I had.This is a hard thing to do but you will get there.Lee >> Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how> I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with > one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks.> Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired> of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am> normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more> then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend> the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV.> That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for> nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on> treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really,> I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all> the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with> this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know> that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle> and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes.> > Thanks for listening... Ally > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Yes, you hit it right on, time seems to have slowed right down after the half way mark! No, nothing in the world could make me quit now after all I've been through so yeah, I just have to trudge on through. Thanks for the encouragement and I hope you start feeling better soon. Ally On 2/23/07, Lee <leecuate@...> wrote: Ally,I know what you mean. I didn't have to treat as long as you, but it seemed that once I reached the halfway point time slowed considerably. I was just sick of feeling bad. I finished two weeks ago and still don't feel normal, yet. I know you are not going to quit and I know how frustrating it can be, especially as you get closer to the finish line.I wanted to let you know that while I was doing treatment your posts helped me through some difficult times that I had.This is a hard thing to do but you will get there.Lee >> Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how> I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with > one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks.> Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired> of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am> normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more> then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend> the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV.> That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for> nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on> treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really,> I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all> the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with> this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know> that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle> and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes.> > Thanks for listening... Ally > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 23, 2007 Report Share Posted February 23, 2007 Ally, I know how you are feeling hon,, when I was at week 48, I still have 12 more to go,, I made it to week 54 and then I had to quit,, but its doable and just remember, YOU ARE DOING THIS so that you wont have to treat again hopefully! If you only did 48, you might have to re-treat! AND it's NOT FOREVER, altho it feels like it,, you are doing great hon,, and you will make it to the finish line! you will! <4thMoon@...> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Right and I certainly DO NOT want to go through this all over again. I just keep reminding myself that I am clear and that might not be the case if I quit early. I'm by nature a fighter so I will get through this. I so appreciate the encouragement, it has made me feel much better and much less alone. Ally On 2/23/07, Jackie on <redjaxjm@...> wrote: Ally, I know how you are feeling hon,, when I was at week 48, I still have 12 more to go,, I made it to week 54 and then I had to quit,, but its doable and just remember, YOU ARE DOING THIS so that you wont have to treat again hopefully! If you only did 48, you might have to re-treat! AND it's NOT FOREVER, altho it feels like it,, you are doing great hon,, and you will make it to the finish line! you will! <4thMoon@...> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Believe me, I have been there. I was so darn sick of being sick that I was just grateful for the end of the treatment. But you know when I got out and exercised I did feel better. So girl know that I am with you and when it gets warmer there go on your bike enjoy the sunshine, and know that you have a little mouse in your pocket named Janet. Love Janet <4thMoon@...> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Take the ordinary things of life, and make them your own. Do the impossible with a smile Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Ally, I am very new to this group, and haven't started treatment yet, probably in Apirl, anyway . . . Just remeber how great you have done, and keep on going! You have done a great job so far, just a little more to go! <4thMoon@...> wrote: Right and I certainly DO NOT want to go through this all over again. I just keep reminding myself that I am clear and that might not be the case if I quit early. I'm by nature a fighter so I will get through this. I so appreciate the encouragement, it has made me feel much better and much less alone. Ally On 2/23/07, Jackie on <redjaxjm > wrote: Ally, I know how you are feeling hon,, when I was at week 48, I still have 12 more to go,, I made it to week 54 and then I had to quit,, but its doable and just remember, YOU ARE DOING THIS so that you wont have to treat again hopefully! If you only did 48, you might have to re-treat! AND it's NOT FOREVER, altho it feels like it,, you are doing great hon,, and you will make it to the finish line! you will! <4thMoongmail> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Jackie Hugs from ME Don't be flakey. Get for Mobile and always stay connected to friends. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Thank you Janet. I just want to say that this group is so warm and wonderful. I don't know what I would have done without it. I felt so alone when I first started treatment then I found this group and wasn't alone anymore. Everyone here is so terrific. It really is a special place to be. Ally On 2/24/07, Janet <doc_jade@...> wrote: Believe me, I have been there. I was so darn sick of being sick that I was just grateful for the end of the treatment. But you know when I got out and exercised I did feel better. So girl know that I am with you and when it gets warmer there go on your bike enjoy the sunshine, and know that you have a little mouse in your pocket named Janet. Love Janet <4thMoon@...> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Take the ordinary things of life, and make them your own. Do the impossible with a smile Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Hi , Yes, I keep in mind that I've made it thus far so 4 more months shouldn't be too hard. Good luck on treating. I'm glad you made it to this group, it's a great source of support in both the good times and the bad. Ally On 2/24/07, DeWitt <trees911@...> wrote: Ally, I am very new to this group, and haven't started treatment yet, probably in Apirl, anyway . . . Just remeber how great you have done, and keep on going! You have done a great job so far, just a little more to go! <4thMoon@...> wrote: Right and I certainly DO NOT want to go through this all over again. I just keep reminding myself that I am clear and that might not be the case if I quit early. I'm by nature a fighter so I will get through this. I so appreciate the encouragement, it has made me feel much better and much less alone. Ally On 2/23/07, Jackie on <redjaxjm@... > wrote: Ally, I know how you are feeling hon,, when I was at week 48, I still have 12 more to go,, I made it to week 54 and then I had to quit,, but its doable and just remember, YOU ARE DOING THIS so that you wont have to treat again hopefully! If you only did 48, you might have to re-treat! AND it's NOT FOREVER, altho it feels like it,, you are doing great hon,, and you will make it to the finish line! you will! < 4thMoon@...> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Jackie Hugs from ME Don't be flakey. Get for Mobile and always stay connected to friends. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 I second that, Ally! Well put - I was scared as could be when I started treatment, but the warmth of this group has made all the difference in the world. I know I'm not alone! karen > > > > Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post > > how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating > > with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more > > weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm > > tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I > > am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more > > then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend > > the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. > > That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for > > nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on > > treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, > > I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all > > the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with > > this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know > > that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle > > and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. > > > > Thanks for listening... Ally > > > > > > > > > > Take the ordinary things of life, and make them your own. Do the > > impossible with a smile > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 Thank you ,, its an amazing thing when a group of like minded folks get together and pay it forward!Checkers2001 <simplicity53@...> wrote: I second that, Ally! Well put - I was scared as could be when I started treatment, but the warmth of this group has made all the difference in the world. I know I'm not alone! karen> >> > Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post> > how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating> > with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more> > weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm> > tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I> > am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more> > then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend> > the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV.> > That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for> > nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on> > treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really,> > I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all> > the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with> > this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know> > that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle> > and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes.> >> > Thanks for listening... Ally> >> >> >> >> > Take the ordinary things of life, and make them your own. Do the> > impossible with a smile> >> > > >>Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 24, 2007 Report Share Posted February 24, 2007 yep,, so just take it one day at a time or one week at a time, whatever works for you! YOU WILL make it hon, you will,, and we will be here for you! <4thMoon@...> wrote: Right and I certainly DO NOT want to go through this all over again. I just keep reminding myself that I am clear and that might not be the case if I quit early. I'm by nature a fighter so I will get through this. I so appreciate the encouragement, it has made me feel much better and much less alone. Ally On 2/23/07, Jackie on <redjaxjm > wrote: Ally, I know how you are feeling hon,, when I was at week 48, I still have 12 more to go,, I made it to week 54 and then I had to quit,, but its doable and just remember, YOU ARE DOING THIS so that you wont have to treat again hopefully! If you only did 48, you might have to re-treat! AND it's NOT FOREVER, altho it feels like it,, you are doing great hon,, and you will make it to the finish line! you will! <4thMoongmail> wrote: Hi all... I know I don't post much but really have no where else to post how I am feeling today. I just did my 47th shot. I should be celebrating with one week to go but I am doing the full 72 weeks so still have 25 more weeks. Maybe that doesn't sound like a lot but I'm tired of doing this. I'm tired of the 3 shots a week. I'm tired of feeling tired and unmotivated. I am normally a very, very active person and granted, I am probably doing more then most on treatment with going to the gym all the time but I still spend the majority of my time sitting on the couch doing nothing but watching TV. That is SO unlike me but it is becoming all I know. After doing this for nearly a year, I no longer remember what life was like when I wasn't on treatment and I hate that. I'll be done with all this in August and really, I guess that isn't too far away but looking out my window right now at all the snow on the ground, it seems like forever. I just want to be done with this, I want it all to be over with so I can get on with my life. I know that I will start feeling better in the Spring when I get back on my bicycle and get some sun so I am just holding on for whenever that day comes. Thanks for listening... Ally Jackie Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2009 Report Share Posted November 2, 2009 The more I find out about my daughter's cancer, the more glum the outcome looks. We'll be lucky if she lasts two years. I can't tell you how unutterably sad, no, despondent, that makes me feel. I gained back two pounds in two weeks. I wrote down everything I ate and tried to be good, but late at night, when all the scary thoughts close in like demons, I ate out of sorrow, looking for some solace. Part of me is thinking, what's the difference? If she dies, I'm as good as dead, myself. She is my whole world. Without her I have nothing. She's the reason I work on getting out of my depression, the reason I get up in the morning. Sorry I'm being so dramatic. My heart is breaking at the thought of losing my little girl. I'll keep trying. It's one thing I can control, in this world where I'm helpless to help my daughter. Thanks for being here for me. I'll continue to write down what I eat. Kay Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 2, 2009 Report Share Posted November 2, 2009 Hey Kay my thoughts and prayers are with you. I have been MIA lately. What kind of cancer does she have? Dont you give up. Positive thinking has been known to help people out last there drs. estimation of time left on this earth. Does she have kids? Prayers Prayers Prayers... N.H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 Thank you, . She has a medulloblastoma on her spine. Nearly two years ago she had a brain tumor removed and now it's recurred in her spine. Lyra is 7 now, and is in second grade. We got bad news from the doctor yesterday. Lyra has cancer cells in her spinal fluid, which means tumors can pop up anywhere on her spine or in her brain. This means that some kind of chemo is her only chance at recovery, and statistics aren't good. I get your point about being positive. I'll try, but it's difficult. It's so much easier when she's near me. I miss her when she goes to school and goes to her daddy's for the week-end. Thank you for your prayers. They are much appreciated. Hugs, Kay Jase4567@... wrote: Hey Kay my thoughts and prayers are with you. I have been MIA lately. What kind of cancer does she have? Dont you give up. Positive thinking has been known to help people out last there drs. estimation of time left on this earth. Does she have kids? Prayers Prayers Prayers... N.H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 OH MY LORD Kay. I thought you were referring to a adult child. Wonder you are besides yourself. Vent here anytime you need. POOR baby. How do you explain to a 7 yr old? Blessings to you. N.H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 3, 2009 Report Share Posted November 3, 2009 Thank you, . I have a small idea how we'll explain it to Lyra. The doctor told her she had a bump on her back and we need to take care of it just like when she had a bump on her brain. She pretty much lives in the moment (a trait I should practice) and she's doing well right now, so we can postpone the talk about heaven. Lyra believes in Jesus and Heaven, so we'll probably explain death to her that way. Meanwhile, we wait. My program is pretty well in the toilet, though I'm not overeating when I eat inappropriate food. I have definitely changed my eating habits. So there's some hope for me. Thanks for your reply. It means a lot to me. Hugs, Kay Jase4567@... wrote: OH MY LORD Kay. I thought you were referring to a adult child. Wonder you are besides yourself. Vent here anytime you need. POOR baby. How do you explain to a 7 yr old? Blessings to you. N.H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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