OK I am here and I am new

[Guest guest]

Well here I am.

To be a perfect weight I should lose 150 pounds but I will be happy if

I can lose 100 pounds. That is my goal to lose it by Fall

of 2007.

I will try to keep this short. I grew up skinny. Then

I had four kids in four years. Then realized that their Dad was a

jerk and a womanizer. So I set off to raise the kids by

myself. I got myself through college and everyone potty trained

at the same time. But I knew the only way I could raise them by

myself was to have a really good job. So I got that job. So

life should have been good, but I was lonely and too tired to do

anything about it but eat. Then the job did not help, as a

social worker for a program for kids with disablities I never had time

for lunch, so going through fast food drive throughs became a way of

life. Needless to say after 17 years of Mc's etc the weight

has been put on heavy duty. About 4 years ago I got real

motivated because a cause that I really believed in needed me to

be a spokesperson and I realized that I could not go on TV and in front

of people looking like this, so I lost about 70 pounds in about 3

months. So life was good, and then it got better because I

met a wonderful man and we got married. About a year after that I

found out I had brain tumors called mengiomas, which are benign but had

to come out. My brain swelled and I was losing the use of my

right side, the drugs that they gave me to control that then perforated

a hole in my colon, so 21 days after brain surgery I had an emergency

colostomy. Then about 2 weeks after that I got blood clots in my

legs and lungs. So I was life flighted and told I would probably

die. But I fooled everyone and did not. Needless to say between

all the medication including heavy doses of steriods, the weight is

back and then some. A few months ago I hit 306. Some day

when I get up the nerve I would like to have the colostomy reversed but

the doc would like me to be under 200 which would make things go much

smoother. I have given up Mountain Dew, fast food, and bear clow

pastries. I have lost about 16 pounds so far. I know I need

to get out and exercise more, I am a champion at finding excuses for

not doing it. I know I am very lucky right now because

despite the weight I am fairly healthy, recent bloodwork came

back perfect, even my A1C was great. I do have High Blood

pressure but not too bad, but doc says that my organs can only hang in

there so long. Of course my back is killing me !

OK that is not short, but that is me,