Guest guest Posted September 20, 2006 Report Share Posted September 20, 2006 Hi there friends, Well, I went to my new OB/GYN yesterday. She thinks I might have PCOS. Which might be why I am so heavy and have diabetes. She wants me to take some blood tests (which I did this morning) and then she might see about putting me on some diabetes meds. She wants me to start watching my food again. She says "CHIPS" are completely out. I am not supposed to eat those at all, and I am supposed to exercise. She says that with most of the weight around my stomach that can lead to heart problems. She told me we got to get this under control or I could die an early death. I am struggling right now with the part about (dieing early). I would so love to be dead and not have any more problems. To finally be at peace. I know that is not how I am supposed to think. I am supposed to like life so much that I want to do anything to prolong it. I just don't know how to get to that point. So this one issue is going to be a struggle. I know that while I am a live not being so heavy and exercising will help me feel a lot better. So maybe I need to look at it from that point of view instead of prolonging my life. Right now I don't want to prolong something that is so miserable But I do want to feel better. Maybe if I start doing what I know to do as far as eating and exercising right then maybe I will come to feeling a lot better and maybe then I might get to a place where I might want to prolong my life. I just don't know until I am there. Just the thought of prolonging my life right now is not very appealing. from MO. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 20, 2006 Report Share Posted September 20, 2006 , I know how you are feeling but don't give up yet. If you are like me you don'[t really want to die but you just want life to be different. Life will be different if you can just hold on and carry on for a while longer. One things I've learned about this life is that :This too shall pass. Sometimes it helps to talk about what is going on to make you feel so bad. Please feel free to write to me anytime, privately if you want and maybe it will make you feel better. I hate to see you so sad. Hang in there. Blessings, O Chips Hi there friends, Well, I went to my new OB/GYN yesterday. She thinks I might have PCOS. Which might be why I am so heavy and have diabetes. She wants me to take some blood tests (which I did this morning) and then she might see about putting me on some diabetes meds. She wants me to start watching my food again. She says "CHIPS" are completely out. I am not supposed to eat those at all, and I am supposed to exercise. She says that with most of the weight around my stomach that can lead to heart problems. She told me we got to get this under control or I could die an early death. I am struggling right now with the part about (dieing early). I would so love to be dead and not have any more problems. To finally be at peace. I know that is not how I am supposed to think. I am supposed to like life so much that I want to do anything to prolong it. I just don't know how to get to that point. So this one issue is going to be a struggle. I know that while I am a live not being so heavy and exercising will help me feel a lot better. So maybe I need to look at it from that point of view instead of prolonging my life. Right now I don't want to prolong something that is so miserable But I do want to feel better. Maybe if I start doing what I know to do as far as eating and exercising right then maybe I will come to feeling a lot better and maybe then I might get to a place where I might want to prolong my life. I just don't know until I am there. Just the thought of prolonging my life right now is not very appealing. from MO. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 20, 2006 Report Share Posted September 20, 2006 , I know how you are feeling but don't give up yet. If you are like me you don'[t really want to die but you just want life to be different. Life will be different if you can just hold on and carry on for a while longer. One things I've learned about this life is that :This too shall pass. Sometimes it helps to talk about what is going on to make you feel so bad. Please feel free to write to me anytime, privately if you want and maybe it will make you feel better. I hate to see you so sad. Hang in there. Blessings, O Chips Hi there friends, Well, I went to my new OB/GYN yesterday. She thinks I might have PCOS. Which might be why I am so heavy and have diabetes. She wants me to take some blood tests (which I did this morning) and then she might see about putting me on some diabetes meds. She wants me to start watching my food again. She says "CHIPS" are completely out. I am not supposed to eat those at all, and I am supposed to exercise. She says that with most of the weight around my stomach that can lead to heart problems. She told me we got to get this under control or I could die an early death. I am struggling right now with the part about (dieing early). I would so love to be dead and not have any more problems. To finally be at peace. I know that is not how I am supposed to think. I am supposed to like life so much that I want to do anything to prolong it. I just don't know how to get to that point. So this one issue is going to be a struggle. I know that while I am a live not being so heavy and exercising will help me feel a lot better. So maybe I need to look at it from that point of view instead of prolonging my life. Right now I don't want to prolong something that is so miserable But I do want to feel better. Maybe if I start doing what I know to do as far as eating and exercising right then maybe I will come to feeling a lot better and maybe then I might get to a place where I might want to prolong my life. I just don't know until I am there. Just the thought of prolonging my life right now is not very appealing. from MO. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 20, 2006 Report Share Posted September 20, 2006 , I know how you are feeling but don't give up yet. If you are like me you don'[t really want to die but you just want life to be different. Life will be different if you can just hold on and carry on for a while longer. One things I've learned about this life is that :This too shall pass. Sometimes it helps to talk about what is going on to make you feel so bad. Please feel free to write to me anytime, privately if you want and maybe it will make you feel better. I hate to see you so sad. Hang in there. Blessings, O Chips Hi there friends, Well, I went to my new OB/GYN yesterday. She thinks I might have PCOS. Which might be why I am so heavy and have diabetes. She wants me to take some blood tests (which I did this morning) and then she might see about putting me on some diabetes meds. She wants me to start watching my food again. She says "CHIPS" are completely out. I am not supposed to eat those at all, and I am supposed to exercise. She says that with most of the weight around my stomach that can lead to heart problems. She told me we got to get this under control or I could die an early death. I am struggling right now with the part about (dieing early). I would so love to be dead and not have any more problems. To finally be at peace. I know that is not how I am supposed to think. I am supposed to like life so much that I want to do anything to prolong it. I just don't know how to get to that point. So this one issue is going to be a struggle. I know that while I am a live not being so heavy and exercising will help me feel a lot better. So maybe I need to look at it from that point of view instead of prolonging my life. Right now I don't want to prolong something that is so miserable But I do want to feel better. Maybe if I start doing what I know to do as far as eating and exercising right then maybe I will come to feeling a lot better and maybe then I might get to a place where I might want to prolong my life. I just don't know until I am there. Just the thought of prolonging my life right now is not very appealing. from MO. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 O, My mom always tells me the "this too shall pass" thing. from MO. Re: Chips,I know how you are feeling but don't give up yet. If you are like me you don'[t really want to die but you just want life to be different. Life will be different if you can just hold on and carry on for a while longer. One things I've learned about this life is that :This too shall pass. Sometimes it helps to talk about what is going on to make you feel so bad. Please feel free to write to me anytime, privately if you want and maybe it will make you feel better. I hate to see you so sad.Hang in there.Blessings, O Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Wow, I can't imagine life with not being afraid. I wonder if it is possible for me to become unafraid of living? How did you do that? from MO. Re: Chipswhat if i was as unafraid of living as I am of dying at times. How free would that be? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Hi , No I'm not seeing a therapist right now. I think you are right about maybe making a routine for my day though Maybe I should start making schedules for myself, but not so strict that I get upset by them. You know what I mean? I know that no one test says that I have PCOS. She was just looking at all the symptoms I have. I think the main thing she was taking my blood test for was to see if I need to be put on diabetes meds. from MO. Re: ChipsHey chin up sister. Are you seeing a therapist right now? If so maybe speak to them about coming up with a plan. A plan for everything. Like a routine for your day. PCOS can be a pain in the butt. It is one of those zebra diseases that usually go undiagnosed do to so many variables of the disease. No one test to say YES you have it. I have some of the PCOS syptoms BUT the big one that causes gals to be diagnosed is fertility. I never had a problem with that. So learning about it and dealing with it is key especially where your sugar is involved. Do not give up... ONE step at a time. NHMom to AbnEm... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 Tha't's a biggie. The best way I can think is do everything in your power to get regulated (same sleep schedule everyday, healthy foods and a bit of excercise) will really make life not seem so scary. Getting regulated will really help your brain and your moods. AND once you can get the moods a bit more regulated then you are home free.Blessed be, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 22, 2006 Report Share Posted September 22, 2006 check out flylady.net she has great ideas on how to make routines that are small enough to live with. My routines have literally saved my life!Blessed be, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 Hi ~ I know I have seen various responses to this throughout the week. I hope you are feeling better about things. I would definately recommend finding someone you can talk with. With or without your husband. Me thinks he should be involved, but maybe you feel better without him involved. Chips - or the lack of being able to eat them - isn't an end of the world thing. We know they aren't necessarily good for us. Fried, etc. And, we know that people that carry their weight around their middles (apple shapes) have more chance of heart attacks/disease than bottom heavy (pear shapes) folks.... so, she wasn't really pointing the finger at you about anything you didn't already know. You know how to do this, I know you do.... you were doing really great for awhile there with your eating, walking and everything. Then, you got in a slump. We all do. Slump, plateau, brick wall... whatever you want to call it, we all go through phases like this. Some worst than others. Don't let it get you down and keep you down, hon. Pick one thing each day that you are going to focus on cuz then you won't feel overwhelmed. Maybe it's water, eating right or exercising. Maybe it's just getting out of bed and cleaning the apartment for a little while. Just something. One thing that you can look at yourself at the end of the day and say "Hey, I did this and I am ok - I am not a bad person".... I would also definately keep a journal about what you did do during the day so that when you start feeling bad, you can look at it and go "oh yeah" and feel better. Make yourself little signs around the apartment to remind you of things you are good at and an ok person - it sounds cheesy, but they work. One of my weight group friends said cut out the letters - or make signs - for each of the letters S U C C E S S F U L and for each pound you lose tape one letter up on the bathroom mirror - when you get all the letters, you know it will be 10 lbs lost.... pick something similar, if not weight loss... maybe if you have a to do list with 10 things on it that day stick them up and you will know you got your list done that day. Lots of versions of this to use... Hugs, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 25, 2006 Report Share Posted September 25, 2006 Okay , I will check it out. Let you know what I think of it later. from MO. Re: Chips check out flylady.net she has great ideas on how to make routines that are small enough to live with. My routines have literally saved my life!Blessed be, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 25, 2006 Report Share Posted September 25, 2006 I can't wait to see what you think. I told my therepist about her and even HE said she sounds like a God send for people like us! Blessed be, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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