's Daily Message - THE TWO FACES OF FAT

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's Daily Message

Thursday

March 23, 2006

THE TWO FACES OF FAT

When I was fat, I always carried around 2 faces. Oh, and I knew them well,

because I used them often, depending on my mood. The first face I used to

wear was my happy, laughing face. When I went to see family or went out with

friends, this mask always fit the bill. I would enter the room like a light

bulb, so bright and bigger than life. I would start telling jokes and

laughing louder than anyone else in the room. I always had something cute

and whimsical to say to everyone. Most of all, I wanted them to laugh,

because maybe… just maybe, they could just forget how fat I looked. They

wouldn`t think, " Oh, he`s a blob! " They would think, " Oh, he`s a funny guy! "

As long as I kept them in stitches, doubled in half, I, too, could forget

what I weighed and how I looked. Even when I just walked down the street,

I`d wear that face. I wanted everyone to think I was the most happy fellow.

The other face was the face I wore the most – the sad, pitiful mask that I

wore when I was all by myself. There was no one around me to make laugh. I

had no audience, and I could tell myself what I really thought about me.

" You are such a failure. You promised everyone you were going to shape up

and get that weight off. You even promised yourself, and look, you

disappointed everyone… AGAIN! I guess you don`t deserve it. I guess you did

some terrible things in your life, and this is your punishment. You should

just give up and not try anymore. " And the more I wore that mask, the more I

believed I was not worth it.

And then one day, I threw out the happy face that I`d been hiding under and

the sad face that made me feel like garbage. I just started wearing my real

face and began working on a better relationship with myself.

Do you still own these masks, and are you still using them? Time to put your

best face forward, and that`s the face that God gave you!

Love,