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There isn't too much new going on over here. The weather is back to

nice again until this weekend, when we're supposed to have snow. I

haven't been on the scale since Saturday (or was it Sunday?), but my

jeans suddenly feel loose, so I'm hoping to see a loss this weekend.

Yesterday I went and got a perm--it was my 'reward' for getting to 50

pounds lost. It helped that I had a 50% off coupon. :-) Anyway, it

felt good to go do it. I had almost talked myself out of it for the

90th time (we're tight on money) and then my husband said, " You have

worked SO hard for this--so go do it! "

But now, I'm not supposed to get it wet until Thursday and I sweat so

much when I work out that I don't want to stink, so I guess I'm taking

a day or two off. *cringes* I feel a huge amount of guilt over this.

I'm so afraid that this will be the beginning of the end, so to

speak. I've walked a fine line for the last 6 months and I'm so

afraid to go so long without exercising--I feel like that's what has

been different for me this time around. It gets my energy up in the

morning and it gives me a great outlook for the day. I think I'll try

to go to water aerobics tonight (it's shallow water, so won't get my

hair wet) and then I can take tomorrow off relatively guilt free. I

know I'm being silly and obsessive, but I really, really don't want to

fall off the wagon again. I don't want to gain it back this time.

Anyway, sorry to babble!

-Bonnie