's Daily Message - Friday 2/10/2006 THE TALK

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's Daily Message FridayFebruary 10, 2006THE TALKFriday 2/10/2006 THE TALK

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Well, that`s it! Tonight was the last night that I`m eating like a pig. I mean, I really enjoyed dinner tonight – shrimp scampi appetizer, Caesar salad with extra croutons, prime rib, baked potato with all the trimmings, beer battered onion rings, monkey bread, and chocolate decadence cake. And here I stand staring at myself in the mirror feeling totally disgusting. But like I just said, my gluttony days are over! Oh, how I hate that word, but that`s what I`ve been – a glutton over food.

I always try to figure out why I love to eat so much. It tastes good, and I`m an emotional eater. I mean, I go for the food when I`m happy, sad, lonely, bored, or angry. I always eat breakfast in the morning, but by the time I get to the office, I can`t wait to have a donut. I bring my lunch to work, but if I hear the girls in the office are ordering pizza, I chip in so I can have a few slices. I`m always eating dinner too late, and I go out too much.

I want to lose weight in the worst way. When I think of how I looked and what I weighed a few years ago, it`s just so hard to believe I let myself get like this. I used to be more active. I remember going hiking and doing a walk for breast cancer research. I think about how I used to leave the house early on a Saturday morning and not get home till early evening. I think about the energy I used to have. I`m sick of looking and feeling like this.

Like I said, I love the taste of food, but it`s really horrible than I love it more than my freedom and my health. My breathing isn`t very good. My back and legs hurt. I don`t sleep that much, and I fall into depression so easily.

Tonight before I go to bed, I`m promising myself to clean up my act. I`m taking my FoodMover out and setting it on Blast Off week and starting fresh tomorrow morning. I`m cooking 3 healthy meals and having veggies and fruits for snacks. I`m going to walk during my lunch break and get home earlier to eat an earlier dinner. I am going to do it this time! Goodnight!

Have a talk with yourself today and try your very best to stay on program this weekend!

Love,