Why Sabotaging?

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Hi there friends, Well, I woke up in the middle of the night last night and I got to thinking about why I might be sabotaging myself on my weightloss. I am so close to my first goal. It was like I was journaling, but doing it in my head instead of on paper. It was a long process and I won't get into all of it, but I think what it boils down to is "Responsibility". If I get better then people are going to give me more responsibility and I am afraid I won't be able to handle that. If I lose weight and I get healthier mentally they are going to say that I can get a job. I have a fear that I won't be able to handle a job. It is all about the word "Fear". I fear so much!!!! I want to get over my fears and start living a life. The other day I asked my mom why she wasn't afraid of the future. She is simi-retiring. Only going to work a few days a week. Her job is questionable. She said because the Lord always provided for her in the past no matter what happened He took care of her. Now she knows that no matter what happens in the future that He will take care of her. I want to be like that. I want to be Fear-free. I want to know that no matter what life throws at me God will take care of me. It is a habit of mine to be fearful. I need to some how break that habit. I am going to go ahead and work hard on losing this weight. When it comes time for me to get a job then God will help me do it right? I don't need to be afraid of the future. God is in control!!! I might need someone to tell me when I am being afraid that I don't need to be. It is a habit and I need help breaking that habit.340/300.1/299