Thyroid Musings and Psychiatric Manifestations..

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Hi all,

Apologies in advance for this long ranting post..

Well,I lost my head again today and decided to attend an appointment to see a

psychiatrist(at least I think that's what she was).

I had been experiencing extreme depression again like you do with this

tormenting and unrelenting condition.Having tried most approaches I haven,t

really improved clinically at all in 8 years.

I wanted to use the appointment in a way to get something out of it which was

hopefully to get her to write to the Jobcentre and get them off my back as I,m

due one of their farcical 'New deal' back to work interviews next month..Would

she do that? Well,in a word NO.

What did she want to do? Give me an antidepressant of course.Ahh that one

again.I told her I could not afford to become more PHYSICALLY unwell than I do

at present.It didn,t go down too well. " What can we do to help you if you don,t

help yourself " came the reply.I said, " But Ive tried them all and they don,t

actually make me feel any better.If anything they render me more

unfunctionable. "

She then suggested that the Citalopram would actually 'enable me to function'

and get back to work.I wanted to lunge at her at this point.

This ditzy blonde 30ish,no skirt that I could visibly see,sparkly gold

stilettoes and sixties dark eye make up aka dusty springfield et al tells me

based on NO scientific data,just anecdotal crap that most of her other patients

are doing fine on it.Well have they been suffering for a******* decade with

autoimmune Hypothyroidism?Probably not.

She then explained after me telling her that my autoimmune thyroid condition was

the root of my depression and ill health that " my brain was sending wrong

messages to my body in a way, fooling it into thinking it was unwell. " (gotta

love that one!)

At this point,I leaned forward and said " I don,t mean to be rude but YOU CANT

HELP ME.I wanna be like you..working....busy...living..but if thyroid hormone

isn,t circulating properly in my brain it means I can,t be like you.You wouldn,t

be able to work or do anything either regardless of what psychotropic drug you

throw at it. " I don,t think she quite knew what to make of that...

I knew before I attended the appointment it was likely to be a waste of

time.However,if she acknowledges that I am indeed depressed(which I admit I am

because I,m chronically ill)then why the hell can,t she write a letter in

support of this which I can present to the jobcentre staff when they start

hounding me again next month to get a job?

When I got home I acually felt more depressed than ever.As a side note I looked

this woman up as I was unsure if she was a psychiatrist or psychologist and came

across an article on her in The Times. Apparently on the side, she is a rising

pop star,fronts a retro sixties band,has a record deal and left University with

no debts(lucky her) because the band were doing so well.In her own words she

says she gets'bored easily' but her friends are amazed she is a bonafide

Psychatrist during the day.Bet she gets a kick out of that eh?

The irony...I wanted to be a singer once.God it hurts.