Month Countdown Starts Today!

[Guest guest]

It's June 10th and that means I'm a month away from my July 10th

scheduled lap band surgery. I just made a new livejournal that is

going to be all about my surgery and weight loss journey. I would love

to get some feedback from you guys and even better some comments on LJ

if any of you have a LiveJournal. Anyone else have problems with binge

eating before their surgery in a last-ditch effort to eat every food

they won't be able to with the band? Here is my entry ver batim:

(Yesterday)

So it's June 9th. I've gone to my seminar, so has my bf. Talked to my

mother and father about the costs (mom was supportive, dad evasive but

oh well I only need one consent to go for it!) I've been to my

psychiatric evaluation and been APPROVED (god that was such a relief.)

And in fact they think I'm such an ideal candidate that they scheduled

my: nurse's appt, surgeon's appt, pre-op appt AND surgery appt that

very day. I was ecstatic, spiked with a hit of adrenaline. July 10th!

I didn't think it would be so soon but it seems appropriate since it's

the first thing on my mind when I wake up and what I think about all

day long. I can't wait to start feeling like " me " again.

As far as I know now I weigh about 235, maybe more since I've been

binging like a MANIAC. My mind and body think this is the last chance

I'll get to gorge myself on all the most evil foods possible - but I

also know it'll just take me longer to lose all the weight I am

gaining, yet I don't stop eating. I recently have given up caffeine

and drinking (I still have one drink every now and then but nothing

compared to what I was drinking a year or two ago) and I know food has

definitely taken their place. I don't know how I'm going to cope when

my ability to binge eat is taken away by the lap band. I hope I don't

sabotage myself, I NEED THIS.

In more positive events, I have taken my Foreman grill by the

balls and cooked up very healthful dinners the last week or two. We've

had grilled chicken, steak and fish with hearty sides of vegetables. I

also have been buying fruit more lately and salad! I'm not all the way

there yet but I am definitely making an effort. I want this to work

for me and still taste good! Is it possible? Hell yes these dinners

have been delicious. I don't miss cheap pizzas and macaroni and cheese

that much at all really. I hope I can stick to it, I need to tap into

some culinary creativity (Top Chef Season 3 Start Already!)

So anyway, July 10th. That's my day. What do I do until then? I feel

like MY LIFE starts then. I want to know what it's going to be like. I

want to feel proud of myself. I'm going to attend a support group

meeting at the Everett Northwest Weightloss Surgery Office thing on

monday. That's the day after tomorrow so hopefully that will help me

get myself heard and some questions answered. Maybe even some new

friends! I wish I had some bandster friends in real life it'd be nice

to know someone my age going through a similar journey. Maybe I'll

meet someone. I am hopeful.

Tags: lap band

www.livejournal.com/users/thebandinme

Thanks!

Ash

goldfischegirl@...

[Guest guest]

To seattlebandsterkumquat:

re: binge eating pre op....

I really relate to this...it's like saying good bye to some really old and

very decadent friends who were fairweather friends at best (there for you

for just a moment)....and at worst showed up where/when you don't want them

(like stuck to your butt)...So pre-op is full of excitement and apprehension

(finally I'm dealing with this...oh no what am I getting myself into)....So

I'm wishing you the best dear seattlebandsterkumquat whoever you are...and

I'm getting banded June 28th..A.

[Guest guest]

I have my surgery scheduled for June 27. I have had

many surgeries, so this should be no biggie (it will

ceratinly be the shortest!), but I too am starting to

have some of the feelings. I made brownies the other

day for the first time in years. Just sounded good for

a last hurrah. I was glad they were not as good as I

remembered. They sat for days with out anyone in my

family touching them. I am looking forward to my new

better eating habits, but also of those of my husband

and sons to improve as well. We will all be eating

smaller portions. Baby steps, but I will get there.

Congratulations to and seattlebandsterkumquat

on your upcoming dates!! We are all in this

together!!!

Molli

--- " St. Onge " <annasaintonge@...> wrote:

> To seattlebandsterkumquat:

> re: binge eating pre op....

> I really relate to this...it's like saying good bye

> to some really old and

> very decadent friends who were fairweather friends

> at best (there for you

> for just a moment)....and at worst showed up

> where/when you don't want them

> (like stuck to your butt)...So pre-op is full of

> excitement and apprehension

> (finally I'm dealing with this...oh no what am I

> getting myself into)....So

> I'm wishing you the best dear seattlebandsterkumquat

> whoever you are...and

> I'm getting banded June 28th..A.

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