my fibromyglia fight

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it was a friday evening, i look at rodney.

he asked me what was wrong, my crying said it all.

I told him, I was completely drained. he asked me again

i told him that the doctor and i had a heated converstation.

he held my hand. told me that he loved me.

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew i had to pray to a higher power.

Without this help I knew i couldnt get through it

As I looked at rodney he knew I had no more

fight left.

I knew this fight was mine, I was walking down

this path alone. Always knowing that he wasnt far away.

Rodney is my protector, he is there in my darkest hour.

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew I had to pray to a higher power

Without this help I knew i couldnt get through it

The more I fight this the more scared I had become

and that just wasnt me.

Knowing that I couldnt have some there all the time,

my hand hasnt always been held. I have had to do this

on my own. Walking this path always has had its dead ends.

I have cried alot, asking my higher power " Why Me "

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew I had to pray to a higher power

Without this help I knew i couldnt get through it

As my family learned of my fight, they havent always

been there. there is alot of drama, stress, and heartache.

I try not to keep them in the loop, if its not my pain its not real

and that isnt fair to me to keep this stress and drama pent up

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew i had to pray to a higher power

Without this help i knew i couldnt get through it

As I have walked down this path, Rodney has been one

of the few people have to showen me what true love really is.

When I have been sick and tired, and wanting to give up, Rodney is

there and willing to pick up my mess and tell me its ok and i need to give it

more time.

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew i had to pray to a higher power

without this help i knew i couldnt get through it

As i look on the past, present and my future

I feel that they are all one big blur. I have so much

I still have to work on, letting go and learning to leave

things in the past, and make my future something of my

choosing. I have seen my past lives, I know that I can change it all

i finally learning I make my life what it is and not how bad it can be

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew i had to pray to a higher power

without this help i knew i couldnt get through it

I had idea what this path held,

I had always thought that i was an imperfrect person

With all of my flaws and faults out there for the

world to see. As i have learn i am perfect in my own

way I still have alot learn. I have a great teacher.

I knew i was fighting a lost cause

I knew i had to put it in someone elses hands

I knew i had to pray to a higher power

without this help i knew i couldnt get through it

i wrote this one night when i was sad and i had lost all hope