Am I going mad?

[Guest guest]

I have just been to my doctor yet again. I am 47 years old, no

period for 2 years and I am so fatigued and weak that I can hardly

walk. I fought to get tests done but my blood test needs to be

repeated because it clotted. Next Monday to get blood taken again

and another week for results...I couldn't wait. I went to doctor's

and was helped in because I almost collapsed with the effort of

walking. He said it was a panic attack, that I am having 24/7 panic

attacks and that is why I am like this - he gave me epam 2mg 3x

daily. My hair is falling out on my head, all over my body, my

eyebrows especially outer part, and I have very little pubic hair

left. I have put on 3stone in a year even though I have no appetite

and it is most obvious in the abdominal region. I can't swallow

properly because I feel as though I am choking, have itching all over

and a rash on my hands. My eyesight is blurry and I can't focus

properly, constipation, pain in my toes and fingers as well as

tingling there and all over, joint pain in my wrists and elsewhere. I

had insomnia for a couple of months but now am sleeping most of the

time. I need to lie down after a few minutes doing anything and if I

try to walk upstairs I need to stop several times - it is very

difficult to do. I can't think straight...and forget things all the

time. I have a white patch on my eyelid which I was told may be high

cholesterol. My doctor has agreed to test for thyroid but said that

it will be normal so I don't expect any help there. He thinks it is

all in my mind - put me on fluoxetine a couple of months ago and

insists I am doing this to myself or imagining it. Am I going mad? I

am certainly considering taking all the damn diazepam and putting

myself out of this misery...this is not living unless it is hell on

earth. What can I do?