this is for you..

[Guest guest]

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First let me say that I am saying this out of love. There is NO malice in

anything I am about to say, and that being said here I go.

First of all only YOU can change your circumstance. Get off your fanny, get

off the dope, and do something. It doesn't matter what JUST DO IT! Go for a

walk, grab a trash bag and start cleaning up your neighborhood, do SOMETHING

that will get you out of your house. People say pot isn't addictive but I am

here to tell you it is.

If your mom is a bitch, get away from her. Don't sit and take shit off someone

and then beat yourself up and cry suicide. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT!

I have no idea how old you are, but I am guessing you are an adult. Act like

one. I am betting there is a phenominal person under all this self pity and I

would love to get to know that person.

We all have to struggle and we all have pain in our lives, are you going to be

a surviver? You are SCREAMING for help so I know you want to get through this.

Let me tell you something. I dated a guy years ago. He was the lead singer in

a local band. He had everything going for him. We kept in touch over the years

and I even became friends with his wife, and his kids came to my house to play

with my kids. In March his wife (of 12 years) went to bed and when she woke up

in the morning he wasn't there so she thought he had left the house early. She

got dressed and went downstairs. She saw his boots by the door and immidiately

knew something had happened. She found him in the basement. He had hung himself.

Her life is hell right now. And you know what makes it worse? The way he hung

himself he could have just straightened his legs and stopped it. She lives with

tremendous guilt and sorrow for not taking him seriously when he said he was

going to do it, and then for not knowing and stopping him when she was JUST

UPSTAIRS. Her children are hurting and there is nothing she can do for them. His

doing that has hurt so many people. He

was on antidepressants, but he was ALSO smoking pot and doing coke and had been

drinking heavily that night.

Your screwing with your own head. Stop with the pot, use that money to get the

meds YOU NEED. See someone, get on the phone and call someone close who can help

you. If you need someone to just vent at give me a call my number is

501-679-5422.

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