Re: Hi to all ! (sort of) new to Lexapro !

[Guest guest]

Tony, I started on 20 mg and am now, 15 months later am on 40 mg.

Sue

Hi to all ! (sort of) new to Lexapro !

Just joined the board.

Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three weeks, too short a

time for me to feel effects (at which point i switched to effexor)

(another story, for another post)!

Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications !

(Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid speaking anouncer

tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which warned one NOT to

mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver problems " .

So just yesterday I express my concern about not only Luvox/liver

problems , but recent bad memory problems to my shrink !

He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver damage, but can cause

slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by the

liver....increasing their effect, length of time in your system, etc.

My meds. ?

Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning off)Luvox.........

NOW...starting Lexapro !)

I'm on Disability for:

Manic-Depression

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

General Anxiety Disorder

ADHD (adult) (am 49)

Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the last three years.

Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for memory problems.

So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting Lexapro 5 mg. a day for

1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland take ?

Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell too.

But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday !!!...........tony.

[Guest guest]

--hi i was wondering what do you take for your ocd and also

anxiety. Im 24 but feel like i have ocd i think about certain

things a lot and been like this since i was liitle . Im on lex but

just for sleeping and anxiety what are your pils for and do they

work have side effects???- In Lexapro , " Tony

Dominguez " <tm0418222@...> wrote:

>

> Just joined the board.

>

> Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three weeks, too short a

> time for me to feel effects (at which point i switched to effexor)

> (another story, for another post)!

>

> Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications !

>

> (Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid speaking

anouncer

> tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

>

> Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which warned one NOT to

> mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver problems " .

>

> So just yesterday I express my concern about not only Luvox/liver

> problems , but recent bad memory problems to my shrink !

>

> He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver damage, but can cause

> slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by the

> liver....increasing their effect, length of time in your system,

etc.

>

> My meds. ?

>

> Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning off)Luvox.........

>

> NOW...starting Lexapro !)

>

> I'm on Disability for:

>

> Manic-Depression

> Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

> General Anxiety Disorder

> ADHD (adult) (am 49)

>

> Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the last three years.

>

> Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

>

> No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for memory problems.

>

> So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting Lexapro 5 mg. a day

for

> 1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

>

> Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

>

> How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland take ?

>

> Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

>

> Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell too.

> But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday !!!...........tony.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Tony,

According to the docs, 10-20 mgs is the average dose for Lexapro.

It's supposedly four times as concentrated as Celexa.. The

effectiveness of higher than 20 mgs hasn't been tested, and so even

though docs prescribe higher doses than that it's not considered

usual. (I'm applying for one of those programs that supplies your meds

and my doc is going to have to write a special note about my 30 mg

dosage in order to get approval.)

Yeah I'm kind of an info nut when it comes to my meds. Seen too many

people get drugged up with conflicting meds.

I don't know specifically about Luvox's interactions with other meds,

but I was just reading up on my two meds and I noticed how some

antidepressants can affect the metabolism of others like you just

talked about. As if it wasn't a hard enough process finding meds that

work! But it sounds like you and your doc are on top of it. I'm glad

you have a doc who listens to you.

I hope the Lexapro works out for you.

Jen

>

> Just joined the board.

>

> Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three weeks, too short a

> time for me to feel effects (at which point i switched to effexor)

> (another story, for another post)!

>

> Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications !

>

> (Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid speaking anouncer

> tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

>

> Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which warned one NOT to

> mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver problems " .

>

> So just yesterday I express my concern about not only Luvox/liver

> problems , but recent bad memory problems to my shrink !

>

> He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver damage, but can cause

> slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by the

> liver....increasing their effect, length of time in your system, etc.

>

> My meds. ?

>

> Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning off)Luvox.........

>

> NOW...starting Lexapro !)

>

> I'm on Disability for:

>

> Manic-Depression

> Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

> General Anxiety Disorder

> ADHD (adult) (am 49)

>

> Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the last three years.

>

> Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

>

> No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for memory problems.

>

> So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting Lexapro 5 mg. a day for

> 1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

>

> Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

>

> How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland take ?

>

> Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

>

> Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell too.

> But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday !!!...........tony.

>

[Guest guest]

Glad to have you on board Tony.

I've been on 10mg of Lex for over a year maybe two

years, i forget. anywho i'll go up a half dose if i'm

in a stressfull situation that may be long term and

then when i get past it it go down to the regular

dose. I don't know if there is an " average " dose but

it seems to me that many people are on that dose and

that many start out on that dose too.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> Just joined the board.

>

> Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three weeks,

> too short a

> time for me to feel effects (at which point i

> switched to effexor)

> (another story, for another post)!

>

> Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications !

>

> (Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid

> speaking anouncer

> tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

>

> Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which

> warned one NOT to

> mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver

> problems " .

>

> So just yesterday I express my concern about not

> only Luvox/liver

> problems , but recent bad memory problems to my

> shrink !

>

> He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver damage,

> but can cause

> slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by

> the

> liver....increasing their effect, length of time in

> your system, etc.

>

> My meds. ?

>

> Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning

> off)Luvox.........

>

> NOW...starting Lexapro !)

>

> I'm on Disability for:

>

> Manic-Depression

> Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

> General Anxiety Disorder

> ADHD (adult) (am 49)

>

> Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the

> last three years.

>

> Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

>

> No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for

> memory problems.

>

> So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting Lexapro

> 5 mg. a day for

> 1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

>

> Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

>

> How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland

> take ?

>

> Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

>

> Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell

> too.

> But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday

> !!!...........tony.

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

hope it works out for you to get on that program. wow!

30mg. good thing that you're on top of things yourself

so you don't get into some kind of medical problem

with the drugs.

ak

--- Jen <jenniferm32@...> wrote:

> Hi Tony,

>

> According to the docs, 10-20 mgs is the average dose

> for Lexapro.

> It's supposedly four times as concentrated as

> Celexa.. The

> effectiveness of higher than 20 mgs hasn't been

> tested, and so even

> though docs prescribe higher doses than that it's

> not considered

> usual. (I'm applying for one of those programs that

> supplies your meds

> and my doc is going to have to write a special note

> about my 30 mg

> dosage in order to get approval.)

>

> Yeah I'm kind of an info nut when it comes to my

> meds. Seen too many

> people get drugged up with conflicting meds.

>

> I don't know specifically about Luvox's interactions

> with other meds,

> but I was just reading up on my two meds and I

> noticed how some

> antidepressants can affect the metabolism of others

> like you just

> talked about. As if it wasn't a hard enough process

> finding meds that

> work! But it sounds like you and your doc are on

> top of it. I'm glad

> you have a doc who listens to you.

>

> I hope the Lexapro works out for you.

>

> Jen

>

>

> >

> > Just joined the board.

> >

> > Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three

> weeks, too short a

> > time for me to feel effects (at which point i

> switched to effexor)

> > (another story, for another post)!

> >

> > Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications

> !

> >

> > (Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid

> speaking anouncer

> > tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

> >

> > Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which

> warned one NOT to

> > mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver

> problems " .

> >

> > So just yesterday I express my concern about not

> only Luvox/liver

> > problems , but recent bad memory problems to my

> shrink !

> >

> > He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver

> damage, but can cause

> > slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by

> the

> > liver....increasing their effect, length of time

> in your system, etc.

> >

> > My meds. ?

> >

> > Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning

> off)Luvox.........

> >

> > NOW...starting Lexapro !)

> >

> > I'm on Disability for:

> >

> > Manic-Depression

> > Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

> > General Anxiety Disorder

> > ADHD (adult) (am 49)

> >

> > Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the

> last three years.

> >

> > Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

> >

> > No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for

> memory problems.

> >

> > So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting

> Lexapro 5 mg. a day for

> > 1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

> >

> > Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

> >

> > How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland

> take ?

> >

> > Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

> >

> > Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell

> too.

> > But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday

> !!!...........tony.

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi,

Started about 4 months ago on 10mg / day and bumped it to 20mg/day.

Still feel stuck with little drive to move things forward in my life but

I'm in the middle of a challenging family situation as well as trying to

resolve some sleep disorder challenges as well. My biggest complaint

of Lexapro is a tension headache that I notice more when I'm stressed.

It could have to do with sleep problems, as the less sleep I have the

stronger the headache.

Good Luck

dwl

Tony Dominguez wrote:

> Just joined the board.

>

> Have taken Lexapro in the past but only three weeks, too short a

> time for me to feel effects (at which point i switched to effexor)

> (another story, for another post)!

>

> Thank God for tv ads for prescription medications !

>

> (Though some are laughable at the end when a rapid speaking anouncer

> tells of all the usage risks involved !!!)

>

> Anyway I saw a sleep medication advertised which warned one NOT to

> mix it with Luvox....blah, blah, blah, .... " liver problems " .

>

> So just yesterday I express my concern about not only Luvox/liver

> problems , but recent bad memory problems to my shrink !

>

> He explains Luvox does not DIRECTLY do liver damage, but can cause

> slower delayed metabolism of OTHER medications by the

> liver....increasing their effect, length of time in your system, etc.

>

> My meds. ?

>

> Klonopin....Seroquel....Trileptal....(weaning off)Luvox.........

>

> NOW...starting Lexapro !)

>

> I'm on Disability for:

>

> Manic-Depression

> Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

> General Anxiety Disorder

> ADHD (adult) (am 49)

>

> Have had two severe nervous breakdowns within the last three years.

>

> Besides that (as the joke goes) I FEEL GREAT !!!

>

> No, seriously....I'm doing very well x-cept for memory problems.

>

> So ....am weaning off my Luvox and starting Lexapro 5 mg. a day for

> 1 week...............10 mg. from then on.

>

> Question ? Is 10 mg. the " average " daily dosage ?

>

> How much Lexapro do you all out there in cyberland take ?

>

> Gotta go! Am at a Cyber Cafe'. Time is Tight !!!

>

> Hang in there !!! I've been in Hell too.

> But I GUARANTEE YOU it WILL end someday !!!...........tony.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi...hope i am doing this right and replying to Jazmine. I have no

computer at home and have to use a cyber cafe'

It's HARD to pay for cyber time getting less than $100 a week

disability for my psychiatric problems.

Jasmine wrote:

" -hi i was wondering what do you take for your ocd and also

anxiety. Im 24 but feel like i have ocd i think about certain

things a lot and been like this since i was liitle. "

my meds ?

a) Two 100 mg.doses of Seroquel daytime/ 200 mg. to 400 mg. at night.

Trileptal 6oo mg. 2x a day

c) Now....(taking the place of Luvox) 10 mg per day Lexapro

d) Three mg. of Klonopin daily.

************************************************************

Ok the SEROQUEL is mainly for my manic depression (bi-polar) as ALSO

is Trileptal. They act mainly as MOOD STABILIZERS .

Klonopin is the best Benzodiapine (supposedly) for OCD.

" Benzos " are what most people think of as tranquilizers ( like

Xanex,Valium,etc.)

It (Klonopin) DOES help with my anxiety. It is also good for people

who have panic attacks.

The down side ?

As I found out (after taking them for over two years..............

THEY ARE PHYSICALLY ADDICTIVE !!!)

I foolishly decided to stop taking Klonopin once, cold

turkey.........and MAN !!!

I experienced severe flu-like symptoms and, of course anxiety a go-go

!........accompanied by hallucinations.

I went into a psychotic state ! I decided I couldn't handle it

anymore, and started poppin' my " Klonies: again "

Now Luvox AND Lexapro are both SSRI antidepressants.

But someone taking MULTIPLE MEDS. (like me) SHOULDN'T take Luvox becuz

it screws up the liver's abilty to metabolize OTHER drugs.

Lexapro, as my shrink said is a " cleaner drug " .

It affects the same receptor sites as Luvox so it SHOULD be helpful

for my OCD.

EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT THOUGH !!!

Zoloft is SUPPOSED to be good for Depression and OCD....but I

personally NEVER felt a thing taking Zoloft !!!

(and the Zoloft dose that i was taking would've killed an elephant !)

Get help, Jazmine, if you think you have OCD....both verbal and drug

therapy.

I'm 49 and spent YEARS suffering with my various problems.

Don't be like me and wait till you have a severe nervous breakdown to

FINALLY get HELP !!!......................tony.

[Guest guest]

" I hope the Lexapro works out for you.

Jen "

Thanks Jen..........too early to gauge the effect.........but BELIEVE

ME I will have no hesitation asking for a bigger dosage if i don't

start feeling effects in 6 to 8 weeks from my initial dose.

My doc is pretty cool when it comes to dosage increases !.....tony.

>

> Hi Tony,

>

> According to the docs, 10-20 mgs is the average dose for Lexapro.

> It's supposedly four times as concentrated as Celexa.. The

> effectiveness of higher than 20 mgs hasn't been tested, and so even

> though docs prescribe higher doses than that it's not considered

> usual. (I'm applying for one of those programs that supplies your meds

> and my doc is going to have to write a special note about my 30 mg

> dosage in order to get approval.)

>

> Yeah I'm kind of an info nut when it comes to my meds. Seen too many

> people get drugged up with conflicting meds.

>

> I don't know specifically about Luvox's interactions with other meds,

> but I was just reading up on my two meds and I noticed how some

> antidepressants can affect the metabolism of others like you just

> talked about. As if it wasn't a hard enough process finding meds that

> work! But it sounds like you and your doc are on top of it. I'm glad

> you have a doc who listens to you.

>

> I hope the Lexapro works out for you.

>

> Jen

>

>

[Guest guest]

Well....I'm showing my age to quote Sly Stone....but " different

strokes for different folks "

My memory is bad....but I'm pretty sure I eventually got up to 300mg.

a day on Zoloft.

I used to laugh (not cruelly, you understand) to read posts on a

Zoloft message board about the " strong effects " people felt taking

20 mg. a day............!!!

AND HERE I WAS TAKING 300 mg.a day, and DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING !!!

Right on Jen !!!....get your 30 mg.of Lexapro, and if THAT doesn't

work DEMAND something else !!!......................tony

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Audrey....glad to be on the board.

Like I stated in another post, i have a shrink who is pretty liberal

about " dosing " so if i say to him....after the appropriate amount of

time passes that the Lexapro isn;t working as well as the Luvox did,

.....I'm sure HE will suggest going up to 15 or 20 mg. (from my current

10 mg.)

I probably won't even have to ask !!!............tony.

****************************************************************

>

> Glad to have you on board Tony.

> I've been on 10mg of Lex for over a year maybe two

> years, i forget. anywho i'll go up a half dose if i'm

> in a stressfull situation that may be long term and

> then when i get past it it go down to the regular

> dose. I don't know if there is an " average " dose but

> it seems to me that many people are on that dose and

> that many start out on that dose too.

> ak

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks for responding, .

Well 4 months is plenty of time to see if a medication is gonna help

you (especially SSRI anti-depressants.)

You didn't say how long ago you bumped it up to 20 mg.(?)

Maybe you have to wait some more for the increased dose to " hit you " (?)

I believe a patient has a right to be an active participant in his

treatment.

Now you do have a LOT of Doctors out there with a " God-Complex " who

ONLY want to hear symptoms reports from you and GOD FORBID you bring

up any research you've done on the internet concerning your mental

ilness (illnesses PLURAL, in MY CASE ) and suggest a different

medication or adding another drug to your current treatment.

(If the " bump up " to 20 mg. Lexapro isn't doing the trick, maybe

that's what you need, .)

GOD !!! I used to have a doc like that !!! (With a God-Complex !)

It would INFURIATE HIM when his patients went on the internet and made

suggestions pertaining to their treatment !!!

At a certain point he " fired me " as his patient !!! ..........tony.

********************************************************************

>

> Hi,

>

> Started about 4 months ago on 10mg / day and bumped it to 20mg/day.

> Still feel stuck with little drive to move things forward in my life

but

> I'm in the middle of a challenging family situation as well as

trying to

> resolve some sleep disorder challenges as well. My biggest complaint

> of Lexapro is a tension headache that I notice more when I'm stressed.

> It could have to do with sleep problems, as the less sleep I have the

> stronger the headache.

>

> Good Luck

>

> dwl

>

>

[Guest guest]

Sue......thanks for your response !

you wrote:

" Tony, I started on 20 mg and am now, 15 months later am on 40 mg.

Sue "

> ---

I think that makes you the reigning " Dosage Champ " of this board !!!

I mean.........I DARE anyone to say they are taking 50 mg. a day !!!

(just kidding Sue !!!)...................tony.

[Guest guest]

wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know what

you do for a living but it should be in pharmacology

or even in a hospital or some place where you can go

over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

don't know how to check things out before they take

them and/or mix them up.

I hope all goes well for you kid.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> Thanks, Audrey....glad to be on the board.

>

> Like I stated in another post, i have a shrink who

> is pretty liberal

> about " dosing " so if i say to him....after the

> appropriate amount of

> time passes that the Lexapro isn;t working as well

> as the Luvox did,

> ....I'm sure HE will suggest going up to 15 or 20

> mg. (from my current

> 10 mg.)

>

> I probably won't even have to ask

> !!!............tony.

>

****************************************************************

>

> >

> > Glad to have you on board Tony.

> > I've been on 10mg of Lex for over a year maybe two

> > years, i forget. anywho i'll go up a half dose if

> i'm

> > in a stressfull situation that may be long term

> and

> > then when i get past it it go down to the regular

> > dose. I don't know if there is an " average " dose

> but

> > it seems to me that many people are on that dose

> and

> > that many start out on that dose too.

> > ak

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Tony, you should have fired him first. It is important

for us to be on top of things with our health and our

Drs. should be supportive of our interest in making

sure we are safe with our drugs as much as possible.

My Drs. are willing to talk things over with me and

sometimes my pcp will give me samples of something I

inquired about just to see if it will work better than

what I am taking. I think that if a Dr. is not willing

to work WITH you then you should find someone who

will.

They don't know everything.

I have a friend who is a pharmacist and even she has

trouble keeping up with all the new meds. Sometimes

she has to look it up in order to make sure there are

no problems for the patient as much as she can.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> Thanks for responding, .

>

> Well 4 months is plenty of time to see if a

> medication is gonna help

> you (especially SSRI anti-depressants.)

>

> You didn't say how long ago you bumped it up to 20

> mg.(?)

>

> Maybe you have to wait some more for the increased

> dose to " hit you " (?)

>

> I believe a patient has a right to be an active

> participant in his

> treatment.

>

> Now you do have a LOT of Doctors out there with a

> " God-Complex " who

> ONLY want to hear symptoms reports from you and GOD

> FORBID you bring

> up any research you've done on the internet

> concerning your mental

> ilness (illnesses PLURAL, in MY CASE ) and suggest a

> different

> medication or adding another drug to your current

> treatment.

>

> (If the " bump up " to 20 mg. Lexapro isn't doing the

> trick, maybe

> that's what you need, .)

>

> GOD !!! I used to have a doc like that !!! (With a

> God-Complex !)

>

> It would INFURIATE HIM when his patients went on the

> internet and made

> suggestions pertaining to their treatment !!!

>

> At a certain point he " fired me " as his patient !!!

> ..........tony.

>

>

>

********************************************************************

>

> >

> > Hi,

> >

> > Started about 4 months ago on 10mg / day and

> bumped it to 20mg/day.

> > Still feel stuck with little drive to move things

> forward in my life

> but

> > I'm in the middle of a challenging family

> situation as well as

> trying to

> > resolve some sleep disorder challenges as well.

> My biggest complaint

> > of Lexapro is a tension headache that I notice

> more when I'm stressed.

> > It could have to do with sleep problems, as the

> less sleep I have the

> > stronger the headache.

> >

> > Good Luck

> >

> > dwl

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

(Audrey wrote):

" wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know what

you do for a living but it should be in pharmacology "

I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist, but a

psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned 49).

And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1 percentile in the

National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i reached college age my

main interests were . pot, and music!!!

My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike messenger in downtown

Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went through !!!)

In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was reaching it's peak !

Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I began to have " close

calls " on my bike....but just in general my first breakdown made me

dysfunctional !!!

So I officially ended my bike messenger " career " on 5-27-'03. (And my

messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose , I swear

(And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

9-11-'89 !!!

Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I was SO

dysfunctional....

I would do things like try and pay bills.......

......so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit card bill......then

just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and then drink a half

gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More sometimes !)

So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me to my parent's

property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they had a vacant trailer

I could move in to.

At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I can't remember . (am

currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

Why ? I don't know !

It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on Effexor were the first

time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and I was in HEAVEN !!!

Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE than the first would

eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3 months !!!

Currently, thank God, I am doing very well....except for the memory

problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's) side of the family

there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and Alzheimers !!!

Well I've rambled long enough......

(Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you kid. "

THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid !!!)

YOU MADE MY DAY !!

p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

A film-music library has acquired three songs I composed. I'd be

happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo e-mail " but my

producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so the server they are

on is offline...for a month or so !!!

********************************************************

>

> wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know what

> you do for a living but it should be in pharmacology

> or even in a hospital or some place where you can go

> over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

> don't know how to check things out before they take

> them and/or mix them up.

> I hope all goes well for you kid.

> ak

>

>

[Guest guest]

time is up on the library computer...so just quickly..the doctor who

refused to treat me, anymore....there was a complex situation at the

time....too long and boring to post......!!!

but ...as of now the pychiatrist currently treating me, as well as my

psychotherapist (an LCD) are BOTH sympathetic and GOOD at what they

do!!

In fact my psychotherapist has ALSO become my friend.

*****************************************************************

> > >

> > > Hi,

> > >

> > > Started about 4 months ago on 10mg / day and

> > bumped it to 20mg/day.

> > > Still feel stuck with little drive to move things

> > forward in my life

> > but

> > > I'm in the middle of a challenging family

> > situation as well as

> > trying to

> > > resolve some sleep disorder challenges as well.

> > My biggest complaint

> > > of Lexapro is a tension headache that I notice

> > more when I'm stressed.

> > > It could have to do with sleep problems, as the

> > less sleep I have the

> > > stronger the headache.

> > >

> > > Good Luck

> > >

> > > dwl

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

glad i made your day. I'll be 51 on 9/19. Keep working

on the music. I think that it helps keep the mind

active and exercising the brain is a good thing.

I was in the hosp. earlier this year and I had a

roommate who had dimentia at night. Are there tests to

see if you are in danger of getting dimentia or Alz.?

With all the advancements in medicine maybe you might

beable to avoid getting either one. I hope so.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> (Audrey wrote):

> " wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology "

>

> I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist,

> but a

> psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned

> 49).

>

> And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1

> percentile in the

> National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i

> reached college age my

> main interests were . pot, and music!!!

>

> My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike messenger

> in downtown

> Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went through

> !!!)

>

> In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was

> reaching it's peak !

>

> Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I began

> to have " close

> calls " on my bike....but just in general my first

> breakdown made me

> dysfunctional !!!

>

> So I officially ended my bike messenger " career " on

> 5-27-'03. (And my

> messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose ,

> I swear

>

> (And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

>

> 9-11-'89 !!!

>

> Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I

> was SO

> dysfunctional....

> I would do things like try and pay bills.......

>

> .....so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit card

> bill......then

> just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and then

> drink a half

> gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More sometimes

> !)

>

> So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me

> to my parent's

> property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they had

> a vacant trailer

> I could move in to.

>

> At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I can't

> remember . (am

> currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

>

> Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

>

> Why ? I don't know !

>

> It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on Effexor

> were the first

> time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and I

> was in HEAVEN !!!

>

> Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE

> than the first would

> eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3 months

> !!!

>

> Currently, thank God, I am doing very

> well....except for the memory

> problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

>

> And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's)

> side of the family

> there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and

> Alzheimers !!!

>

> Well I've rambled long enough......

>

> (Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you kid. "

>

> THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid

> !!!)

>

> YOU MADE MY DAY !!

>

> p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

>

> A film-music library has acquired three songs I

> composed. I'd be

> happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo

> e-mail " but my

> producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so the

> server they are

> on is offline...for a month or so !!!

>

>

********************************************************

>

> >

> > wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> > you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology

> > or even in a hospital or some place where you can

> go

> > over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

> > don't know how to check things out before they

> take

> > them and/or mix them up.

> > I hope all goes well for you kid.

> > ak

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

good for you. glad things are going better for you.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> time is up on the library computer...so just

> quickly..the doctor who

> refused to treat me, anymore....there was a complex

> situation at the

> time....too long and boring to post......!!!

>

> but ...as of now the pychiatrist currently treating

> me, as well as my

> psychotherapist (an LCD) are BOTH sympathetic and

> GOOD at what they

> do!!

>

> In fact my psychotherapist has ALSO become my

> friend.

>

*****************************************************************

>

>

> > > >

> > > > Hi,

> > > >

> > > > Started about 4 months ago on 10mg / day and

> > > bumped it to 20mg/day.

> > > > Still feel stuck with little drive to move

> things

> > > forward in my life

> > > but

> > > > I'm in the middle of a challenging family

> > > situation as well as

> > > trying to

> > > > resolve some sleep disorder challenges as

> well.

> > > My biggest complaint

> > > > of Lexapro is a tension headache that I notice

> > > more when I'm stressed.

> > > > It could have to do with sleep problems, as

> the

> > > less sleep I have the

> > > > stronger the headache.

> > > >

> > > > Good Luck

> > > >

> > > > dwl

> > > >

> > > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> >

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Tony, why did you suffer the breakdowns if i may ask? I also live in Texas are

you still in Texas? I have been on 10mg of Lex since Oct of 2005 when i was put

in the hospital with chest pains. I lost my only son(18yrs old) in an automobile

accident in Dec of 2003 and i still can't believe it.....Sophie

Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote: (Audrey wrote):

" wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know what

you do for a living but it should be in pharmacology "

I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist, but a

psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned 49).

And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1 percentile in the

National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i reached college age my

main interests were . pot, and music!!!

My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike messenger in downtown

Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went through !!!)

In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was reaching it's peak !

Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I began to have " close

calls " on my bike....but just in general my first breakdown made me

dysfunctional !!!

So I officially ended my bike messenger " career " on 5-27-'03. (And my

messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose , I swear

(And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

9-11-'89 !!!

Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I was SO

dysfunctional....

I would do things like try and pay bills.......

......so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit card bill......then

just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and then drink a half

gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More sometimes !)

So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me to my parent's

property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they had a vacant trailer

I could move in to.

At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I can't remember . (am

currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

Why ? I don't know !

It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on Effexor were the first

time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and I was in HEAVEN !!!

Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE than the first would

eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3 months !!!

Currently, thank God, I am doing very well....except for the memory

problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's) side of the family

there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and Alzheimers !!!

Well I've rambled long enough......

(Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you kid. "

THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid !!!)

YOU MADE MY DAY !!

p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

A film-music library has acquired three songs I composed. I'd be

happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo e-mail " but my

producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so the server they are

on is offline...for a month or so !!!

********************************************************

>

> wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know what

> you do for a living but it should be in pharmacology

> or even in a hospital or some place where you can go

> over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

> don't know how to check things out before they take

> them and/or mix them up.

> I hope all goes well for you kid.

> ak

>

>

---------------------------------

Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com. Check it out.

[Guest guest]

my heart goes out to you sophia. I've never had

children but I do know the loss of a loved one.

ak

--- sophia solorio <sophiasolorio@...> wrote:

> Tony, why did you suffer the breakdowns if i may

> ask? I also live in Texas are you still in Texas? I

> have been on 10mg of Lex since Oct of 2005 when i

> was put in the hospital with chest pains. I lost my

> only son(18yrs old) in an automobile accident in Dec

> of 2003 and i still can't believe it.....Sophie

>

> Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> (Audrey wrote):

> " wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology "

>

> I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist,

> but a

> psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned 49).

>

> And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1

> percentile in the

> National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i

> reached college age my

> main interests were . pot, and music!!!

>

> My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike messenger

> in downtown

> Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went through

> !!!)

>

> In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was

> reaching it's peak !

>

> Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I began

> to have " close

> calls " on my bike....but just in general my first

> breakdown made me

> dysfunctional !!!

>

> So I officially ended my bike messenger " career " on

> 5-27-'03. (And my

> messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose ,

> I swear

>

> (And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

>

> 9-11-'89 !!!

>

> Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I

> was SO

> dysfunctional....

> I would do things like try and pay bills.......

>

> .....so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit card

> bill......then

> just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and then

> drink a half

> gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More sometimes

> !)

>

> So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me

> to my parent's

> property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they had

> a vacant trailer

> I could move in to.

>

> At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I can't

> remember . (am

> currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

>

> Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

>

> Why ? I don't know !

>

> It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on Effexor

> were the first

> time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and I

> was in HEAVEN !!!

>

> Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE

> than the first would

> eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3 months

> !!!

>

> Currently, thank God, I am doing very well....except

> for the memory

> problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

>

> And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's)

> side of the family

> there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and

> Alzheimers !!!

>

> Well I've rambled long enough......

>

> (Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you kid. "

>

> THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid

> !!!)

>

> YOU MADE MY DAY !!

>

> p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

>

> A film-music library has acquired three songs I

> composed. I'd be

> happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo

> e-mail " but my

> producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so the

> server they are

> on is offline...for a month or so !!!

>

>

********************************************************

>

> >

> > wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> > you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology

> > or even in a hospital or some place where you can

> go

> > over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

> > don't know how to check things out before they

> take

> > them and/or mix them up.

> > I hope all goes well for you kid.

> > ak

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com. Check

> it out.

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks Audrey, you know all i can say is you never know that God is all you need

until God is all you got. Sophie

AUDREY KOEPKE <audkoe@...> wrote: my heart goes out to you

sophia. I've never had

children but I do know the loss of a loved one.

ak

--- sophia solorio <sophiasolorio@...> wrote:

> Tony, why did you suffer the breakdowns if i may

> ask? I also live in Texas are you still in Texas? I

> have been on 10mg of Lex since Oct of 2005 when i

> was put in the hospital with chest pains. I lost my

> only son(18yrs old) in an automobile accident in Dec

> of 2003 and i still can't believe it.....Sophie

>

> Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> (Audrey wrote):

> " wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology "

>

> I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist,

> but a

> psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned 49).

>

> And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1

> percentile in the

> National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i

> reached college age my

> main interests were . pot, and music!!!

>

> My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike messenger

> in downtown

> Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went through

> !!!)

>

> In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was

> reaching it's peak !

>

> Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I began

> to have " close

> calls " on my bike....but just in general my first

> breakdown made me

> dysfunctional !!!

>

> So I officially ended my bike messenger " career " on

> 5-27-'03. (And my

> messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose ,

> I swear

>

> (And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

>

> 9-11-'89 !!!

>

> Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I

> was SO

> dysfunctional....

> I would do things like try and pay bills.......

>

> .....so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit card

> bill......then

> just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and then

> drink a half

> gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More sometimes

> !)

>

> So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me

> to my parent's

> property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they had

> a vacant trailer

> I could move in to.

>

> At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I can't

> remember . (am

> currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

>

> Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

>

> Why ? I don't know !

>

> It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on Effexor

> were the first

> time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and I

> was in HEAVEN !!!

>

> Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE

> than the first would

> eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3 months

> !!!

>

> Currently, thank God, I am doing very well....except

> for the memory

> problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

>

> And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's)

> side of the family

> there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and

> Alzheimers !!!

>

> Well I've rambled long enough......

>

> (Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you kid. "

>

> THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid

> !!!)

>

> YOU MADE MY DAY !!

>

> p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

>

> A film-music library has acquired three songs I

> composed. I'd be

> happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo

> e-mail " but my

> producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so the

> server they are

> on is offline...for a month or so !!!

>

>

********************************************************

>

> >

> > wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> what

> > you do for a living but it should be in

> pharmacology

> > or even in a hospital or some place where you can

> go

> > over meds. with people who take multiple ones and

> > don't know how to check things out before they

> take

> > them and/or mix them up.

> > I hope all goes well for you kid.

> > ak

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com. Check

> it out.

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

---------------------------------

Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com. Check it out.

[Guest guest]

First i want you (Sophia) and all other " board-ers " to know that my

access to the internet is sporadic , so if it takes a while to respond

to your posts, i apologize.

It also doesn't help that i find the way this board is formatted,

confusing.

(I might even MISS your post entirely !)

My email is tm0418222@... if anyone wants to contact me directly.

Sophia....I can't IMAGINE what you went through,losing your son !!!

It's like a lot of things, for example my second nervous breakdown.

Other people can IMAGINE what I went through. but never REALLY know

the three months of pure hell I experienced.

Only I know that.

In fact SINCE then, I've decided , (sort of a joke), that if anyone

ever asked me if I BELIEVED IN HELL (?)...........I'd say..........

" OF COURSE !!!....I LIVED THERE FOR THREE MONTHS, ONCE !!! "

(BTW, I believe in a LOVING GOD, so to me, the concept of HELL is

LUDICROUS !!!)

My FIRST breakdown in Chicago happened after the last of my three cats

died (after 17 and a half years of companionship.)

Being a loner , most of my life, of course. my cats, (I adopted my

first in '83)..... were an invaluable source of companionship.

When the last one died (June 2002) the sky fell on my head and the

earth swallowed me up.

I just could NOT let go of the grief and eventually turned from a

weekend drinker into a full time drinker. This made my OCD symptoms

become INTENSE !!!

For example, I became utturly convinced that I had cancer and obsessed

about it night and day.

I also was convinced I had contracted HIV on TWO occassions, through

cracks in my hands, (by shaking hands with two particular people)

(cracks caused by obsessive handwashing .)

(Obsessive handwashing, btw.....A CLASSIC OCD SYMPTOM !!!)

In fact AIDS had been an obsession since '84 when I got a false

positive result from an AIDS test !!!

The heavy drinking, sleep deprivation, the tortuous nonstop

obsessions,they all just BROKE ME APART in time, and after some close

calls (accidents) working as a bike messenger , I finally quit and

moved down to a trailer on a piece of land my parents own.

Where do I live Sophia ?

Ever hear of Eagle Pass ?

I live about 20 miles southeast in a tiny spot called El Indio.

This post is getting long, so long story short...........

My SECOND breakdown happened after moving down here to Texas, and was

brought on by an obsession that I had become an Identity Theft Victim.

After my first breakdown, I imagined NOTHING cold be worse.

But surprise ,surprise !!!

My second breakdon WAS worse !!!

MUCH WORSE !!!

In fact when I had an evaluation done at University Hospital in S.A.

a psychiatrist there , after hearing the symptoms experienced during

my SECOND breakdown, said I DEFINITELY SHOULD HAVE BEEN HOSPITALIZED !!!

Weirdly enuff all through my second breakdown, I never once thought of

turning back to booze for comfort !!!

So I take that as a sign that I am NOT an alcoholic...........even

though I turned to heavy drinking in grieving my cat's death, and

came very close to liver failure !!!...................tony.

[Guest guest]

Sophia........I just wrote a fairly long post concerning your questions.

UH-OH !!!..........where did it go ?

Just in case cyber-space swallowed it, I have time enuff to tell you

(am at a cyber cafe " ) that I currently reside in a tiny spot called El

Indio.

It is about 20 miles southeast of Eagle Pass.

(And QUITE a change from Chicago !!!)...............tony.

[Guest guest]

so true, so true.

ak

--- sophia solorio <sophiasolorio@...> wrote:

> Thanks Audrey, you know all i can say is you never

> know that God is all you need until God is all you

> got. Sophie

>

> AUDREY KOEPKE <audkoe@...> wrote:

> my heart goes out to you sophia. I've never had

> children but I do know the loss of a loved one.

> ak

>

> --- sophia solorio <sophiasolorio@...> wrote:

>

> > Tony, why did you suffer the breakdowns if i may

> > ask? I also live in Texas are you still in Texas?

> I

> > have been on 10mg of Lex since Oct of 2005 when i

> > was put in the hospital with chest pains. I lost

> my

> > only son(18yrs old) in an automobile accident in

> Dec

> > of 2003 and i still can't believe it.....Sophie

> >

> > Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> > (Audrey wrote):

> > " wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> > what

> > you do for a living but it should be in

> > pharmacology "

> >

> > I WAS thinking of becoming , not a pharmacologist,

> > but a

> > psychotherapist. in my youth !!! (I just turned

> 49).

> >

> > And although intelligent, (I scored in the top 1

> > percentile in the

> > National 1975 ACT scores !).... by the time i

> > reached college age my

> > main interests were . pot, and music!!!

> >

> > My last job was a 13 year stint as a bike

> messenger

> > in downtown

> > Chicago. (You can IMAGINE the winters I went

> through

> > !!!)

> >

> > In Spring 2003, my FIRST nervous breakdown was

> > reaching it's peak !

> >

> > Due to sleep deprivation and heavy drinking I

> began

> > to have " close

> > calls " on my bike....but just in general my first

> > breakdown made me

> > dysfunctional !!!

> >

> > So I officially ended my bike messenger " career "

> on

> > 5-27-'03. (And my

> > messenger number WAS 527) Didn't do it on purpose

> ,

> > I swear

> >

> > (And my FIRST day as a bike messenger ?

> >

> > 9-11-'89 !!!

> >

> > Hell ...around that time (of my first breakdown) I

> > was SO

> > dysfunctional....

> > I would do things like try and pay bills.......

> >

> > .....so I'd get out my checkbook and and credit

> card

> > bill......then

> > just stare at them for 30 minutes, give up, and

> then

> > drink a half

> > gallon or so of Carlo Rossi wine !!! (More

> sometimes

> > !)

> >

> > So my brother picked me up in Chicago and drove me

> > to my parent's

> > property in El Indio Texas, where luckily, they

> had

> > a vacant trailer

> > I could move in to.

> >

> > At first I was put on Effexor and what else, I

> can't

> > remember . (am

> > currently suffering from bad memory gaps).

> >

> > Eventually, the Effexor just stopped working.

> >

> > Why ? I don't know !

> >

> > It was too bad , cuz those 5 months or so on

> Effexor

> > were the first

> > time EVER, that I lived a depression-free life and

> I

> > was in HEAVEN !!!

> >

> > Little did I know a SECOND breakdown, MUCH WORSE

> > than the first would

> > eventually hit me around March '04 and last 3

> months

> > !!!

> >

> > Currently, thank God, I am doing very

> well....except

> > for the memory

> > problems, (which are driving me crazy !!!)

> >

> > And it doesn't help that on the Italian (my mom's)

> > side of the family

> > there are three cases of HEAVY Dementia and

> > Alzheimers !!!

> >

> > Well I've rambled long enough......

> >

> > (Audrey wrote): " I hope all goes well for you

> kid. "

> >

> > THANKS for calling me a " kid " . (A 49 year old kid

> > !!!)

> >

> > YOU MADE MY DAY !!

> >

> > p.s. My interest in music may still pay off.

> >

> > A film-music library has acquired three songs I

> > composed. I'd be

> > happy to send you or anyone else my " song promo

> > e-mail " but my

> > producer is totally re-habbing her studio....so

> the

> > server they are

> > on is offline...for a month or so !!!

> >

> >

>

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> >

> > >

> > > wow Tony, I read your other emails. I don't know

> > what

> > > you do for a living but it should be in

> > pharmacology

> > > or even in a hospital or some place where you

> can

> > go

> > > over meds. with people who take multiple ones

> and

> > > don't know how to check things out before they

> > take

> > > them and/or mix them up.

> > > I hope all goes well for you kid.

> > > ak

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

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> > Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com.

> Check

> > it out.

> >

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> > removed]

> >

> >

>

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> Stay in the know. Pulse on the new .com. Check

> it out.

>

> [Non-text portions of this message have been

> removed]

>

>

[Guest guest]

wow. I know the loss of pets. One I had to put down

because of her age and illness and the other two I had

to give up because of my living situation. I thank God

that you made it through. You have a lot of strength

in you Tony. It's an inspiration to me. We all have

our stories and they're not pretty but in the end,

when we seem to be on a more even level, we can help

others get thru their hard times. That's a very

rewarding time for us.

ak

--- Tony Dominguez <tm0418222@...> wrote:

> First i want you (Sophia) and all other " board-ers "

> to know that my

> access to the internet is sporadic , so if it takes

> a while to respond

> to your posts, i apologize.

>

> It also doesn't help that i find the way this board

> is formatted,

> confusing.

>

> (I might even MISS your post entirely !)

>

> My email is tm0418222@... if anyone wants to

> contact me directly.

>

> Sophia....I can't IMAGINE what you went

> through,losing your son !!!

>

> It's like a lot of things, for example my second

> nervous breakdown.

>

> Other people can IMAGINE what I went through. but

> never REALLY know

> the three months of pure hell I experienced.

>

> Only I know that.

>

> In fact SINCE then, I've decided , (sort of a joke),

> that if anyone

> ever asked me if I BELIEVED IN HELL

> (?)...........I'd say..........

>

> " OF COURSE !!!....I LIVED THERE FOR THREE MONTHS,

> ONCE !!! "

>

> (BTW, I believe in a LOVING GOD, so to me, the

> concept of HELL is

> LUDICROUS !!!)

>

> My FIRST breakdown in Chicago happened after the

> last of my three cats

> died (after 17 and a half years of companionship.)

>

> Being a loner , most of my life, of course. my cats,

> (I adopted my

> first in '83)..... were an invaluable source of

> companionship.

>

> When the last one died (June 2002) the sky fell on

> my head and the

> earth swallowed me up.

>

> I just could NOT let go of the grief and eventually

> turned from a

> weekend drinker into a full time drinker. This made

> my OCD symptoms

> become INTENSE !!!

>

> For example, I became utturly convinced that I had

> cancer and obsessed

> about it night and day.

>

> I also was convinced I had contracted HIV on TWO

> occassions, through

> cracks in my hands, (by shaking hands with two

> particular people)

> (cracks caused by obsessive handwashing .)

>

> (Obsessive handwashing, btw.....A CLASSIC OCD

> SYMPTOM !!!)

>

> In fact AIDS had been an obsession since '84 when I

> got a false

> positive result from an AIDS test !!!

>

> The heavy drinking, sleep deprivation, the tortuous

> nonstop

> obsessions,they all just BROKE ME APART in time, and

> after some close

> calls (accidents) working as a bike messenger , I

> finally quit and

> moved down to a trailer on a piece of land my

> parents own.

>

> Where do I live Sophia ?

>

> Ever hear of Eagle Pass ?

>

> I live about 20 miles southeast in a tiny spot

> called El Indio.

>

> This post is getting long, so long story

> short...........

>

> My SECOND breakdown happened after moving down here

> to Texas, and was

> brought on by an obsession that I had become an

> Identity Theft Victim.

>

> After my first breakdown, I imagined NOTHING cold be

> worse.

>

> But surprise ,surprise !!!

>

> My second breakdon WAS worse !!!

>

> MUCH WORSE !!!

>

> In fact when I had an evaluation done at University

> Hospital in S.A.

> a psychiatrist there , after hearing the symptoms

> experienced during

> my SECOND breakdown, said I DEFINITELY SHOULD HAVE

> BEEN HOSPITALIZED !!!

>

> Weirdly enuff all through my second breakdown, I

> never once thought of

> turning back to booze for comfort !!!

>

> So I take that as a sign that I am NOT an

> alcoholic...........even

> though I turned to heavy drinking in grieving my

> cat's death, and

> came very close to liver failure

> !!!...................tony.

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