Re: hopeless?

September 15, 2006

Hi ,

You are young enough to have a good and productive rest of your life,

and old enough to learn not give a f what your mom thinks of you or

wants from you. Even if you are still receiving support from your

parents or even living with them. So they're making your life

miserable. What does killing yourself prove? That they had total

control over your life? That they were so successful at making your

life miserable that you decided to end it all? Wouldn't it make more

sense to stay alive, work through the struggles, and succeed? It

would prove to everyone that they don't have power over you.

It's not easy to change your life when you're depressed. I'm not

saying it's easy. But there are a bazillion programs out there for

people who are suffering from mental illness, and half a bazillion

programs for people who suffer from mental illness and addiction. You

could actually hook up with one of these programs and they could guide

you through the maze of services available. They could help you find

therapeutic groups, social groups, job training, jobs, a place to

live. In short, they could help you find a way to mold your life so

that you're not dependent on your parents, who seem to be the source

of most of your frustration. Who knows, you might even meet a nice

girl at one of the social groups.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Yes, this

crap has been going on in your life for years. But those years are

nothing compared to the entire lifetime of possibilities you'd be

denying yourself.

If you are suicidal I encourage you to call a hotline or check

yourself into the nearest hospital. Not only is it helpful to talk to

a live voice, and helpful to have a place to stabilize, but either of

those services should have lists of other resources for you, like the

ones I mentioned above.

***The national hotline I found for Australia is called Lifeline and

their number is 131 114. Their website is http://www.lifeline.org.au/

Check them out.

Things do get better.

Jen

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> Your right, but theyre too few are far between. No ones gets to see

me inside because they cant get past the fat appearance. Tomorrow Im

thinking of killing myself. I really dont give an f anymore. My mother

given me a life of misery, why the f should I hang around for her.

September 17, 2006

Well good for you for making the decision to live another day. See?

It is doable. Just take it a day at a time. No need to borrow

trouble, you've got enough to deal with day to day.

Since suicide is very present in your mind I strongly encourage you to

check yourself into a hospital. It's a safe space to come off the

drugs and stabilize with the right combo of meds and treatment. Then

it might be easier to decide what you want your next steps to be.

, you're the only person who can decide what to do. I can

suggest all the resources in the world, but when all's said and done

You are the one in control of your life. And I think that you've

already made the decision to live, that's why you reached out online.

And I think it's great that you're reaching out for help and support

online. It's a huge step toward widening your support network. But

none of us can go it alone- we all need people " in real life " who can

help us. So who have you decided " in real life " can help you? Your

doctor? The hotline? A hospital? Someone else? Any of these

places/people can open up doors of opportunity for you. All you have

to do is ask for the help.

Your life can be better, but it can only get better if you're still

living.

Jen

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> i did not do it. woke up yesterday morning and felt ok, at least at

first. No, I managed to get some more good pot but I cant regulate my

smoking so it will be gone about Firiday, when I think Ill be in a

state to do it.

September 19, 2006

, Please listen to Jen and call the help line

that she gave you. It's at the bottom of this reply

email. Please take back the power you gave up when you

started and continued to take pot. Since you were able

to get the good pot then you have the strength,

courage, ability and know how to get the help you

need. Pot is just a substance that warps the mind. You

are a person that can make a difference in the lives

of many people who need your help to get off of the

stuff themselves. Think of those days when you wake up

feeling ok. Wouldn't you like to see a lot more of

those days and days that feel even better? Isn't

giving up the drugs worth it to feel good everyday and

know you feel good because of what you've done for

yourself and your body? There are so many people out

there that want to help you regain the power you gave

up. Please seek them out and take advantage of their

help. It will be well worth the fight to get off of

the drugs and on to life.

ak

--- <rroobbeerrtt@...> wrote:

> i did not do it. woke up yesterday morning and felt