Howdy!!!

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Hey Everyone,

Geesh, it's been a very long time since I've posted on here. I am

still alive and well. I don't know my weight as I refuse to weigh

myself anymore, but last was around 145 and I am holding at a size

7/8 so life is good there. As for me, well I am dating again...lord,

what a nightmare this can be. I really found someone I REALLY LIKE,

and let me tell you, he is a sweetheart but has been so bruised by

his ex wife and well he has a son that is a total nightmare to deal

with...he is 17, and is one step away from going to a group

home..yea, it's pretty bad. Anywho, the guy works as a paramedic/swat

medic/ urban rescue in SSFranscico, plus does some work on the side

as a paramedic for AMR...which leaves very little time as you can

tell for us. So, I am trying to be patient, as we both really like

each other but I sometimes wonder, if I was smart in not getting

married. I mean I've met some really beat up guys out there, and you

know we focus on the women but let me tell ya, there's alot of guys

hurting as well. So, wish me luck, say a prayer that I do find

someone that will treasure me for who I am. Here's the deal folks,

I've yet to tell him about the surgery. He has cooked dinner for me

once, and knows I don't eat certain foods and I don't eat alot, he's

hinted at what I've had done but I really just am not open to it

right now, I mean I want him to know me for me now, then open the

past. I guess what I am fearing is that once he finds out HOW BIG I

was, he'll up and bolt...I mean come on 370lbs is very hefty!!!

Anywho, that's where I am at...I am meeting someone tonite that I've

met on Match.com, but this guy knows I am dating the other guy...I've

been honest, I mean heck, I've been alone most of my life due to

obesity, so I want to relive what I didn't do as a teen and that's go

out on dates and have some fun...plain and simple. Well, before this

turns into a novel, again please say a prayer and wish me

luck...believe me I can use it!!!

Good Luck to all of you going for the sugery, it's the best thing

that I've done in my life besides getting my education. Dr. Aceves

and the team is wonderful they are GODSEND, I pray for their success

in changing lives everyday!!! I hope to come for a visit sometime in

November just to get a break from the cold here, if not I'll be there

in December as my school district gives us...not 2 wks off but 3!!!

WOOO HOOO, so Mexico here I come!!! I'm thinking of Cabo Wabo, but

will make a slight detour to Mexicali.

Take CAre!!! Good Luck to the Newbies!!!! NEVER SAY NEVER, AND

HAPPINESS IS OBTAINABLE!!!!

Kelli