[One_EFT Healing Highrise] My painful crawling, tapping today

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Hello Everyone,

I'm very new at this & have read the EFT & " Thriving Now " archives somewhat.

But I'm having problems phrasing statements that I believe will work & make

sense to me. So I'm hoping someone will help me formulate a couple (or more)

proper workable statements as I cannot afford a coach right now.

I have two main chronic pain health problems I'd like to work on. And

they're interlinked, tho medically one wouldn't think they're related. So I,

more or less, have to tap for both of them at the same time. Or I think I do

but am confused so need some help creating the tapping statements.

One problem is ongoing 40 years of chronic spine/back pain from congenital

spinal scoliosis & many accidents that keeps my back muscles in constant

spasm & pain. Despite all the various & sundry treatments I've had or given

myself such as: chiropractic, osteopathic, orthopedic, physical therapy,

massage therapy, hospital & office traction tables, hatha yoga, Feldenkrais

movements, doctor prescribed back/spine exercises & podiatrist-custom-made

shoe inserts plus one neurosurgery (to move a nerve imbedded in scar tissue)

I've had over the years.

Yet now, aging at 69, I have severe degenerative spinal/disc disease

including severe spondylosis, severe osteoarthritis & severe osteopenia

(borderline osteoporosis) & it's getting worse, not better. So that I can

hardly do at-home exercises for myself anymore but have to take potent Rx

pain medication (Oxycontin) to stay up, walking a bit & functioning as best

I can since I live alone & have to take of myself, 3 bedroom home & yards by

myself.

What's more, about two years ago, I stopped doing any at-home back exercises

or hatha yoga as I just haven't got the self-discipline anymore & they cause

me more pain from the acid reflux while lying on my back doing them & too

much pain/soreness after doing them. And, after being totally incapacitated

& off my feet for a year in 2004, I got out of the habit of doing them. Then

the GERD began in earnest so it became impossible to do them lying on my

back with the burning chest & throat ongoing causing more esophageal erosion

damage.

And now I've got too many doctor bills to pay off & filed for bankruptcy

last summer so cannot afford to go to anymore treatments for either problem

(or other health issues) until I get the prior bills paid off first. I

dislike going to doctors anyway since so many of them don't know how to

diagnose many of my health problems or treat them, other than prescribing

pain medication or some other Rx drugs I don't wish to take because of too

many bad side effects & probable long term worse health problems.

However, the pain medication I'm still taking to be able to walk & function,

is destroying my digestive organs so that I now have GERD/acid

reflux/heartburn disease badly. It rarely bothers me in the daytime when I'm

standing or sitting. Or if/when I can control my diet, sticking to strictly

eating only free-range meats & organic low carb vegetables & veg. juices,

drinking water & a few herbal teas sweetened with stevia & that's all.

But I haven't even got the self-discipline to stay on that kind of super

restricted, very boring, tasteless diet. And right now all my foods have to

be pureed or baby foods since I am now toothless until I can get my dentures

in a couple of months. I have so few things left I can enjoy in life besides

food, tv & the computer, that I don't want to further deprive myself with so

many food restrictions. Or quitting smoking, another bad habit that's

recommended to quit for GERD sufferers, that I'm not willing to give up

because that's another one of the few things I have left in life I enjoy

that feels familiar & comforting.

I'm feeling so deprived & chronically depressed/anxious already from my

husband's death in 2001 along with loss of " our " home, familiar life-long

hometown community, all my old friends & family. Due to having to sell " our "

home & move far away against my wishes, to a lonely, much lower-income,

financially depressed area. Now living a friendless, familyless existence in

my elder disabled, sicker elder years.

The acid reflux problem is so bad I cannot sleep lying down, even for a few

minutes lying on my back to do spinal exercises . Or even sitting almost

straight up since my esophagus, throat, sinuses & even my ears, sometimes,

start to painfully burn after about l/2 hour of trying to go to sleep.

I have to (try to) sleep propped up on a bed wedge under the head-end of my

foam mattress with added big pillows behind my back, two more under my arms

& two special pillows for my neck..... plus two big pillows under my knees

for my back problem.... & with the bed-head raised 30 " off the floor which

inclines the bed radically downward...... & with a hot water bottle on my

castor-oil laden stomach & chest (a la Edgar Cayce). I can go to sleep

(after doing relaxation/contemplation techniques with meditation music

playing all night) that way for a few hours until the burning pain wakens

me.

Then I have to slide down off the bed into a standing position & sit down

totally upright in a chair for an hour or more until the acid goes back down

into my stomach & the burning pain subsides so I can go back to bed (or into

my living room recliner) & try to get some more sleep & rest. Most days I

have to take a 2-5 hour nap in my recliner as well as I become exhausted,

incoherent & nearly comatose in the late afternoon.

However sleeping in this position causes more pain in my low back & mostly

in my tail bone plus muscle spasms in the lower colon area on the inside of

my body. So that today it was hurting me so badly I couldn't stand up

straight & ended up crawling (carefully & super slowly) on hands & knees

into the bedroom to get a Rx pain pill (from my bedside table & water to

swallow it with from the bathroom) which I hoped would make the pain go away

enough so I could stand up & walk better after swallowing the pill & staying

down on the floor (still on all fours) until the pain went away enough so I

could stand up & walk reasonably well again.

Tho I haven't had to crawl on the floor for years, I have an idea what

caused today's extremely painful crawling episode. I added another pillow at

my back in bed last night so that I was sitting even more straight up to see

if that would lessen the burning more (which it didn't). So that the colon

area inside somehow went into spasm & so did the middle back muscles for

some strange reason, in addition to the usual spasms I have in my low back &

upper buttocks ongoing.

While I was still on the floor after getting the pain pill before crawling

into the bathroom for the water, I decided to try doing some tapping of all

the accupressure points I could remember to see if that would relieve the

pain & allow me to stand up & walk sooner. The statements I started saying

at first for a couple of rounds of tapping were: " I affirm I am walking

pain-free, comfortably & easily " . Or something like that tho I don't quite

remember exactly how I worded it.

After about 3 rounds of tapping, repeating these statements & tapping, I

still couldn't stand up so crawled into the bathroom to try to get some

water to swallow the pain pill & try to raise myself up to the sink holding

onto the bathroom sink cabinet, which I managed to do. Tho it was still

painful & I was bent over somewhat forward at the waist, unable to stand

straight up. I was able to get the water to swallow the pill tho, before

sinking back down to the floor.

Then I realized I hadn't added " I love & accept myself " to the statements.

So, still on the bathroom floor, I tapped more & changed the statement to

" Even tho I'm in pain, I still love & accept myself " for a couple of rounds.

Then more wording changes to " Even tho I'm in pain, I can stand & walk & I

completely love & accept myself " .

After a few more rounds, still in pain, but able to raise myself up & stand

better, I began to walk a little better. So, still bracing myself against

furniture or walls, I slowly inched my way into the living room & slowly,

carefully lowered myself into the recliner. Then I sat there, still tapping

& repeating the statements " Even tho I'm in pain, I can walk & still totally

love & accept myself " .

So that after several rounds, I dediced to test standing up & walking again,

which was still painful, but nearly so much so. Then I decided to test the

tapping/statements while walking around slowly, still bent over somewhat, to

see if I could feel the pain lessening in the colon & entire mid to low back

as I contined to do the tapping/statements. As I did so, the pain lessened

more & more until I could walk faster more & more until I was standing

straight up. But the colon spasm/pain was still there.

Finally I decided to stop the tapping/statements but went to sit in my

office chair with a heating pad on my mid-back which was hurting the most.

By then, the pain medication had started to work so I was feeling much

better but not totally pain-free in my mid & lower back or colon.

After a while of sitting with the heating pad, no longer doing the

tapping/statements, the colon spasm disappeared. However, still sitting here

now typing this after this episode just happened, my mid & low back are

still hurting. Not nearly as bad as long as I'm sitting but way moreso when

I try to stand & walk.

Tho I can stand/walk okay much better & normally now. Standing & walking

with chronic backpain is " normal " for me except if I've taken pain

medication. But I never can stand up in one place for more than 5 minutes,

whether or not I've taken any pain pill.

Since the tapping seems to be working somewhat, what I need is a statement

or two (or more) to stop the acid reflux burning when I want to lie down

flat in my bed (but can't). So that I won't get any after-pain in my back

from trying to sleep in that awkward nearly sitting straight up position.

And so that I can lie down on my back & do a few spinal/back muscle

strengthening/stretching exercises every day.

In fact, I need a statement to totally stop & cure the GERD/acid

reflux/heartburn disease altogether so I can cease taking the new PPI

" Prevacid " medication my doctor prescribed for me. Which, she said, will

take two months to stop the burning that is causing esophogeal erosion that

could become Barrett's Disease (permanently scarred & dysfunctional

esophagus) or cancer.

However the Prevacid has side effects risks that I read about online. They

are lowered immune function that, in the elderly, could cause pneumonia &

other serious illnesses. And, my doctor said, as long as I need to continue

to take the pain-relief Rx drug, I also have to continue to take the

Prevacid or another similar PPI medication which I don't want to have to do

for whatever is left of my life. So will someone please help me formulate

some " correct " tapping statements for these related issues?

TIA,

Caroline