Weight loss emotions

[Guest guest]

With all the discussion about Carney , I faced some of my own demons. I

know people are trying to state that they are glad they chose the MGB and hope

that if there is a regain that it will stay under so many pounds. I find this

all very disconcerting. I feel like I have followed the rules like everyone

else and but have only lost 85 to 90 lbs. In some ways I feel like a failure.

I am so envious of people that weigh the same as me and get down to their goal

weight (135 to 145). I can beat myself up over this. What did I do wrong? I

also know that I don't want to count every little bite I eat in hopes to lose a

pound. It was one of the reasons I chose surgery. I did not want my weight to

have that much control of me. I think this is something that will always

manifest itself in me. I pray that one day the need for perfection will pass.

Or maybe some miracle will happen 21 months after surgery.

On the flip side, I have no regrets about having this surgery. I am healthier

than I have been in years! The only medications I take are vitamins. I go to

the gym and enjoy it. I play and not worry about someone looking at me and

thinking " what is that fat women thinking? " I don't worry about invading

peoples personal space with my fat hanging everywhere. Life is good and I am

thankful!

Thanks for letting me say my peace, I am sure others have felt this way also.

Adrienne

10/15/03

Dr. Dasher and Dr. R

Highpoint

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[Guest guest]

Your story is very similar to mine. It took a revision to get me to where I

needed to go but that was ONE of the reasons I chose the MGB. I am now -220

pounds and it WAS worth the wait...but it is a long, lonely battle when you

are one of the few that don't lose like everyone else. Hang in there, do

what you can to maximize your weight loss and know in the end there are

options...although it looks like you only have a few more pounds to go,

maybe NOT enough to justify a revision.

_____

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Behalf Of Adrienne Lee

Sent: Sunday, July 24, 2005 4:33 PM

Subject: Weight loss emotions

With all the discussion about Carney , I faced some of my own demons.

I know people are trying to state that they are glad they chose the MGB and

hope that if there is a regain that it will stay under so many pounds. I

find this all very disconcerting. I feel like I have followed the rules

like everyone else and but have only lost 85 to 90 lbs. In some ways I feel

like a failure. I am so envious of people that weigh the same as me and get

down to their goal weight (135 to 145). I can beat myself up over this.

What did I do wrong? I also know that I don't want to count every little

bite I eat in hopes to lose a pound. It was one of the reasons I chose

surgery. I did not want my weight to have that much control of me. I think

this is something that will always manifest itself in me. I pray that one

day the need for perfection will pass. Or maybe some miracle will happen 21

months after surgery.!

On the flip side, I have no regrets about having this surgery. I am

healthier than I have been in years! The only medications I take are

vitamins. I go to the gym and enjoy it. I play and not worry about someone

looking at me and thinking " what is that fat women thinking? " I don't worry

about invading peoples personal space with my fat hanging everywhere. Life

is good and I am thankful!

Thanks for letting me say my peace, I am sure others have felt this way

also.

Adrienne

10/15/03

Dr. Dasher and Dr. R

Highpoint

266/174-182

[Guest guest]

Adrienne, you look great. I would say you are a totally normal weight right

now. Sometimes we are harder on ourselves than we are on anybody else. I

struggle with it too, and found the more I tried to " diet " those last few

perceived pounds, the more I wanted to eat more! Let's win the lottery and get

plastic surgery! ha ha. barb dudley.