Yea, well, MORE about me ... VERY LONG POST

[Guest guest]

Hey everyone

Sorry!! I have not been so apparent on the boards ... I have been

receiving " digests " and keeping up with things, just not able to post

that way (its not convenient at all) and I have had to put my bandster

lifestyle & obsession on hold ...

See, when I married, I inherited a teenager. Daughter. We just had

high school graduation Friday night and I feel like I SHOULD HAVE BEEN

THE ONE GOING DOWN THERE TO GET WHATEVER THAT THING IS THEY HAND

THEM... it has NOT been easy. My husband travels, and the Real Mom is

a pathetic self-serving man-chasing gold-digger about 10 hours away

(and the teen wants nothing to do with her), so this has been QUITE a

challenge. There was a reason I chose to never have kids and how I got

to " ENJOY " the teenage part of raising one is the biggest irony on the

planet, if you ask me.

So that has kept me busy, distracted, not focusing on myself, and

especially not trying to fulfill my wants and needs.

Then add that the aforementioned birth Mom who hates every cell of my

being, especially the fat ones since she is thin (must be all that bed

jumping), found my Obesity Help profile and discovered all my secrets/

weaknesses. So we go from her attacking me physically and verbally in

a Red Lobster 2 years ago ( " You Fat Ass F & %*$ing Bitch ... blah blah

blah " while taking swings IN PUBLIC!!!) to messages on our home

machine and e-mails trashing me for my decision to get a band, needing

the help, being a fat ass loser, etc. etc.

And, one more thing. And this is really the biggie, I know everyone

has the life stresses and issues like I have been through, but, I have

been OVERFILLED since November of '04, which, not so coincidentally,

is exactly when I stopped losing weight, I have only maintained about

a 40-pound loss since then (and overall). The dude that did it raised

his prices, doubled them and then some, and of course I am self-pay

and unable to fathom forking over $1,300 for a fill, not to mention an

UNFILL. While in the back of my mind I knew I was overfilled (how many

PB's does it take to convince a person???) when Dr. A. watched me

swallow and showed my husband that this was indeed the fact, we all

knew it to be true. Yes, Dr. A. took some out. He made an adjustment.

A much needed one.

What's weird is, with an overfill, you eat, you find ways to eat, you

PB, and then eat again when you can, but there's no bandster rules

being followed. I found ice cream went down, milkshakes, and stayed

there. Really bad choices, but anything to not be running to the

bathroom to throw up. And the sick fat dummy inside of me reasoned

that all that PB'ing must mean I was losing weight, I even joked with

Debi that it was like " legalized bulimia " or something. What is it

about fat that makes intelligence fly out the window?? Really stupid.

It was great seeing Dr. A. and meeting Nina's Mom. We had no trouble

getting around, getting there, and even enjoyed a family vacation in

San Diego, we just got back in the wee hours this morning. My

aforementioned stepdaughter and I missed a connecting flight in Denver

because we are so time zone challenged, but they got us on another

flight a few hours later and we got in at 2:30 am.

I hope no one thinks I regret my band, or my decision for Dr. A. or

anything like that. Nothing is perfect, and I have had some derailing

events happen that are making this more of a challenge, but only in

that it means it is taking me longer to lose the weight. I have said

in the past, and I will say again, that even the 40 pounds off so that

I can wear all my clothes and play tennis again and walk without

worrying when my feet will give out have ALL made it worth while. I

could be done right now (but I'm not, rest assured!) and would call it

a success, because I can remember the misery I was in a year ago this

time.

Instead of wallowing in fat self pity and being unable to barely

function, today, I am getting ready to go run errands with my husband

and then go by and watch one of my 3 tennis league teams play, (I am

not on the lineup because I knew I would be recovering from the family

vacation).

Bottom line, the QUALITY of life is back. Thank you, Dr. A. And,

here's to the next 40, now that I am properly filled and ready to

attack this again.

Karyn

252/212/172

8-12-04/2 fills, 1 unfill

[Guest guest]

Karyn ,

So glad you got adjusted to the correct restriction. This should make the difference and help you stick to the solid healthy food. Happy to "see" you here!

Sorry to hear aobut the EX sounds terrible.

Nina

Karyn <Karyn.@...> wrote:

Hey everyoneSorry!! I have not been so apparent on the boards ... I have beenreceiving "digests" and keeping up with things, just not able to postthat way (its not convenient at all) and I have had to put my bandsterlifestyle & obsession on hold ...See, when I married, I inherited a teenager. Daughter. We just hadhigh school graduation Friday night and I feel like I SHOULD HAVE BEENTHE ONE GOING DOWN THERE TO GET WHATEVER THAT THING IS THEY HANDTHEM... it has NOT been easy. My husband travels, and the Real Mom isa pathetic self-serving man-chasing gold-digger about 10 hours away(and the teen wants nothing to do with her), so this has been QUITE achallenge. There was a reason I chose to never have kids and how I gotto "ENJOY" the teenage part of raising one is the biggest irony on theplanet, if you ask me.So

that has kept me busy, distracted, not focusing on myself, andespecially not trying to fulfill my wants and needs. Then add that the aforementioned birth Mom who hates every cell of mybeing, especially the fat ones since she is thin (must be all that bedjumping), found my Obesity Help profile and discovered all my secrets/weaknesses. So we go from her attacking me physically and verbally ina Red Lobster 2 years ago ("You Fat Ass F & %*$ing Bitch ... blah blahblah" while taking swings IN PUBLIC!!!) to messages on our homemachine and e-mails trashing me for my decision to get a band, needingthe help, being a fat ass loser, etc. etc.And, one more thing. And this is really the biggie, I know everyonehas the life stresses and issues like I have been through, but, I havebeen OVERFILLED since November of '04, which, not so coincidentally,is exactly when I stopped losing weight, I have only maintained abouta 40-pound loss

since then (and overall). The dude that did it raisedhis prices, doubled them and then some, and of course I am self-payand unable to fathom forking over $1,300 for a fill, not to mention anUNFILL. While in the back of my mind I knew I was overfilled (how manyPB's does it take to convince a person???) when Dr. A. watched meswallow and showed my husband that this was indeed the fact, we allknew it to be true. Yes, Dr. A. took some out. He made an adjustment.A much needed one.What's weird is, with an overfill, you eat, you find ways to eat, youPB, and then eat again when you can, but there's no bandster rulesbeing followed. I found ice cream went down, milkshakes, and stayedthere. Really bad choices, but anything to not be running to thebathroom to throw up. And the sick fat dummy inside of me reasonedthat all that PB'ing must mean I was losing weight, I even joked withDebi that it was like "legalized bulimia" or something.

What is itabout fat that makes intelligence fly out the window?? Really stupid.It was great seeing Dr. A. and meeting Nina's Mom. We had no troublegetting around, getting there, and even enjoyed a family vacation inSan Diego, we just got back in the wee hours this morning. Myaforementioned stepdaughter and I missed a connecting flight in Denverbecause we are so time zone challenged, but they got us on anotherflight a few hours later and we got in at 2:30 am.I hope no one thinks I regret my band, or my decision for Dr. A. oranything like that. Nothing is perfect, and I have had some derailingevents happen that are making this more of a challenge, but only inthat it means it is taking me longer to lose the weight. I have saidin the past, and I will say again, that even the 40 pounds off so thatI can wear all my clothes and play tennis again and walk withoutworrying when my feet will give out have ALL made it worth while.

Icould be done right now (but I'm not, rest assured!) and would call ita success, because I can remember the misery I was in a year ago thistime. Instead of wallowing in fat self pity and being unable to barelyfunction, today, I am getting ready to go run errands with my husbandand then go by and watch one of my 3 tennis league teams play, (I amnot on the lineup because I knew I would be recovering from the familyvacation). Bottom line, the QUALITY of life is back. Thank you, Dr. A. And,here's to the next 40, now that I am properly filled and ready toattack this again.Karyn252/212/1728-12-04/2 fills, 1 unfill

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[Guest guest]

Karyn,

it is so great to hear from you again, and to know you have at least kept the weight off, but can someone explain to me why if you are overfilled, you can't lose weight. I don't understand at all.

Tracie in Texas Re: Yea, well, MORE about me ... VERY LONG POST

Karyn ,

So glad you got adjusted to the correct restriction. This should make the difference and help you stick to the solid healthy food. Happy to "see" you here!

Sorry to hear aobut the EX sounds terrible.

Nina

Karyn <Karyn.@...> wrote:

Hey everyoneSorry!! I have not been so apparent on the boards ... I have beenreceiving "digests" and keeping up with things, just not able to postthat way (its not convenient at all) and I have had to put my bandsterlifestyle & obsession on hold ...See, when I married, I inherited a teenager. Daughter. We just hadhigh school graduation Friday night and I feel like I SHOULD HAVE BEENTHE ONE GOING DOWN THERE TO GET WHATEVER THAT THING IS THEY HANDTHEM... it has NOT been easy. My husband travels, and the Real Mom isa pathetic self-serving man-chasing gold-digger about 10 hours away(and the teen wants nothing to do with her), so this has been QUITE achallenge. There was a reason I chose to never have kids and how I gotto "ENJOY" the teenage part of raising one is the biggest irony on theplanet, if you ask me.So that has kept me busy, distracted, not focusing on myself, andespecially not trying to fulfill my wants and needs. Then add that the aforementioned birth Mom who hates every cell of mybeing, especially the fat ones since she is thin (must be all that bedjumping), found my Obesity Help profile and discovered all my secrets/weaknesses. So we go from her attacking me physically and verbally ina Red Lobster 2 years ago ("You Fat Ass F & %*$ing Bitch ... blah blahblah" while taking swings IN PUBLIC!!!) to messages on our homemachine and e-mails trashing me for my decision to get a band, needingthe help, being a fat ass loser, etc. etc.And, one more thing. And this is really the biggie, I know everyonehas the life stresses and issues like I have been through, but, I havebeen OVERFILLED since November of '04, which, not so coincidentally,is exactly when I stopped losing weight, I have only maintained abouta 40-pound loss since then (and overall). The dude that did it raisedhis prices, doubled them and then some, and of course I am self-payand unable to fathom forking over $1,300 for a fill, not to mention anUNFILL. While in the back of my mind I knew I was overfilled (how manyPB's does it take to convince a person???) when Dr. A. watched meswallow and showed my husband that this was indeed the fact, we allknew it to be true. Yes, Dr. A. took some out. He made an adjustment.A much needed one.What's weird is, with an overfill, you eat, you find ways to eat, youPB, and then eat again when you can, but there's no bandster rulesbeing followed. I found ice cream went down, milkshakes, and stayedthere. Really bad choices, but anything to not be running to thebathroom to throw up. And the sick fat dummy inside of me reasonedthat all that PB'ing must mean I was losing weight, I even joked withDebi that it was like "legalized bulimia" or something. What is itabout fat that makes intelligence fly out the window?? Really stupid.It was great seeing Dr. A. and meeting Nina's Mom. We had no troublegetting around, getting there, and even enjoyed a family vacation inSan Diego, we just got back in the wee hours this morning. Myaforementioned stepdaughter and I missed a connecting flight in Denverbecause we are so time zone challenged, but they got us on anotherflight a few hours later and we got in at 2:30 am.I hope no one thinks I regret my band, or my decision for Dr. A. oranything like that. Nothing is perfect, and I have had some derailingevents happen that are making this more of a challenge, but only inthat it means it is taking me longer to lose the weight. I have saidin the past, and I will say again, that even the 40 pounds off so thatI can wear all my clothes and play tennis again and walk withoutworrying when my feet will give out have ALL made it worth while. Icould be done right now (but I'm not, rest assured!) and would call ita success, because I can remember the misery I was in a year ago thistime. Instead of wallowing in fat self pity and being unable to barelyfunction, today, I am getting ready to go run errands with my husbandand then go by and watch one of my 3 tennis league teams play, (I amnot on the lineup because I knew I would be recovering from the familyvacation). Bottom line, the QUALITY of life is back. Thank you, Dr. A. And,here's to the next 40, now that I am properly filled and ready toattack this again.Karyn252/212/1728-12-04/2 fills, 1 unfill

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