ya know for all of your anger and some bitterness...

[Guest guest]

I just would like to say, that Y'all have the strongest

personalities, and that is a great thing! I don't know if you are

aware of that or not...but, so many of you do...my friend Tamara,

was a spitfire as some people have described her. I am so very sad

that she is not here with us anymore....she had a terrific

outlook...I loved her bubbly personality,and her great positive zest

for life! SHe made me laugh!

You don't HAVE to be big to be BIGGER than others or BIGGER than

life itself!

I see that, with some of you that I have talked with on these boards

and personally!

Fred, YOu are a riot,and you have a good heart!

, when I saw your photo, I knew that there was something more

to your face...because putting the face with your words in what you

say here ..I see extreme brilliance...and I also see strength(and I

have probably told you that before....) I really admire people just

for being themselves! I see that you being a person(Yeah you are

shorter than I am..but, so what!!!!) You are taller than I am,

anyday,and in many, many ways to me! You know how I can tell? Just

the things that you say...with conviction....and power...I do not

take what you say " lightly " at all...I can literally feel your

presence when you say what you gotta say on these boards! You have a

true, strong sense of yourself...and that is really nice,and very

special...and I don't say that lightly !! I admire people like

that . I once knew a person that I worked with who I also admired

because she was strong and seemed so confident and all that...I even

told her so...(she was an ap) unfortunately she didn't like it when

I told her that I admired her song writing skills...and thought that

she was quite creative! It's highly frustrating for ap's to tell

other ap's that they are terrific..for that matter....too picky, too

touchy ,too " OUCH! I felt her presence a little too well, because

she just wanted me to not talk to her...she was NOT a people person

like you!Rather she was a cacti!!!!

(even though she had this outward creative " cool " side to her!! )

(even my boss was afraid of her!!! Who knew!!) but, what I wanted to

just say is that ...some of you talk about how you'll be seen...by

others and more than likely ,...are you meaning us? the ap's?

Sure we are curious...but, ya know...why the heck not? Why can't we

meet new people no matter who you happen to be,and what you happen

to look like!? I really liked Tamara...and I really miss her!

There isn't another Tamara De Treaux, just like there aren't another

one of you all! I am glad that I have met some wonderful people here

on this board, while trying to find a few people that I knew.....I

more than appreciate this!!!

You all are just human beings...you grew differently, but, so what?!!

There ARE people out in this world that would definitely appreciate

you,and love/like you for you being you!

NO kidding!

Don't ever change, who you are, because I for one, would be

heartbroken...I like you all just the way that you are now!

I care about people alot...and I always look forward in my life to

meeting new and incredibly gifted, funny, hilarious, creative,

intelligent, interesting, smart etc.. people. I would not want it

any other way...because I am drawn to people like that! Just am!

I really just wanted to say what has been in my heart all along..and

I am not making this up, because I do like to find people from all-

walks of life...if you do or don't have a disability..don't matter!

I do seem to be drawn to persons more with disabilites, maybe

because I have some,...as I was when I was a little girl..I.always

liked to help people,and understand others..and try to walk in their

shoes...so that I would " KNOW " something at least of what it's like

to be them...it isn't always a thing that you can do...but, I have

done " blind walks " which for me, was scary!

and I have been " deaf " ( with no hearing, by accident!, when I had

gotten sick several times...the hearing world is way different from

the deaf world STILL!!!) and I have also had asthma brought on by

dust, and a lot of bad stuff where I used to live and constant

infections of bronchitus...and I know how scary it is for a person

with asthma!! It is VERY deadly,as I have worked with ones who have

suffered from that illness! It kills!!

Well, I didn't want to get that " long-winded " but, you get that

picture I think and hope...but, to me...you are just you!

I don't want to bother with the way that even some people with

disabilites see themselves and others..with an ounce of " disgust " ! I

have been there with a now very EX-close friend of mine of Thirty-

five plus years! Just believe me ...it's a long saga of a very

hypocritical person...negative and mean and nasty!!!!Her story is

about " ME, ME, ME!! All I really care about is ME! Everybody around

me has to " pity " me!!! " Not anymore, Thank God!!!

Here's hoping that you know what I am saying to all of you...

(eradbrown)