What the heck is wrong with me?

[Guest guest]

I am 2 weeks out of THR and I feel lousy, both phsyically and

emotionally. I am in such pain I want to scream. I am beginning to feel

that I made a wrong choice because at least before I was in pain but al

least I didn't have the restrictions I have now. I feel lonely and

isolated. You see, I was always the one who helped everyone else. When

my MIL had cancer, Iwas the one who brought her to chemo and when my

mother was sick, I was the one who helped her out. Now, all I do is sit

and look at the walls. Now a new thing has popped up. The fingers on my

left hand are numb and no matter what I do I can't get sensations into

them. What the heck is that about? It seems like every day is one of

frustration and pain. What do I do about it? I am ready to cry. I am

sorry if this is boring everyone but I have nobody else. Everyone I try

to talk to says it's going to be OK. Just relax. Enjoy the time off.

Think of it as a vacation. Believe me, This is no vacation! Margaret