Please advise

[Guest guest]

I find myself getting upset again whenever I see someone with obvious

breast implants and I want to know how others handle this or does it

not bother you anymore? I wish I could get over that feeling of envy

when I see someone with boobs and feel like how come she got to keep

her implants and not be ill and I got so sick. How can I ever get

over that feeling? My husbadn always tells me that maybe she is sick

or will be and that after what I went through how can I miss the

implants, but a part of me does, I have pictures of me with my

implants and I looked so good and perfectly healthy and I wonder how

come it couldn't have worked out for me. Blah, I hate feeling that

way, esp at times like when I go to work out and put on those jog

bras and think of how I used to look so good in them and also bathing

suits, I owned like 10 of them and they all looked so good and now I

own one and it is so padded I feel silly in it.

Frustration, and to think that when I was in my 20's before I had my

daughter I never even liked big boobs I thought mine were so perfect

and they were, a nice 34B perky, firm, it is so depressing what

having children and getting older does to our boobs. I never would

have even considered implants back then, now I feel like I just have

these mushy tiny nothings on my chest, it makes me feel like less of

a woman with these breasts sometimes. I think about how Dr Kolb still

has implants and is healthy and wonder sometimes if I was to get the

smooth implants if I would be ok, but I know in my heart I could

never again put a foreign object in my body, even if I didn't get

sick, every day I would worry and freak out, and there is no way I

would go through another surgery like that, still, I wish there was a

way to firm up my boobs somehow.

Well I needed to vent a little I guess, thanks