Re: wildlife

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:45:21 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

psita@... writes:

We have very large high windows which go

up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

on a daily basis. Terry

Dear Tery,

What was your doctor thinking of? Oxyconton is a horror story. I'm so happy

you beat that problem, as if HepC wasn't enough. May God bless you further

and we will pray for you, too.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:45:21 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

psita@... writes:

We have very large high windows which go

up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

on a daily basis. Terry

Dear Tery,

What was your doctor thinking of? Oxyconton is a horror story. I'm so happy

you beat that problem, as if HepC wasn't enough. May God bless you further

and we will pray for you, too.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:45:21 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

psita@... writes:

We have very large high windows which go

up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

on a daily basis. Terry

Dear Tery,

What was your doctor thinking of? Oxyconton is a horror story. I'm so happy

you beat that problem, as if HepC wasn't enough. May God bless you further

and we will pray for you, too.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:45:21 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

psita@... writes:

We have very large high windows which go

up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

on a daily basis. Terry

Dear Tery,

What was your doctor thinking of? Oxyconton is a horror story. I'm so happy

you beat that problem, as if HepC wasn't enough. May God bless you further

and we will pray for you, too.

Anne

[Guest guest]

Hey Terry!

I took oxy for migraines that the treatment gave me. But I didn't take it much.

I had awful withdrawal symptoms from the treatment when I finished. I'll never

do THAT again!

Glad you are getting better.

Alley

[Guest guest]

Hey Terry!

I took oxy for migraines that the treatment gave me. But I didn't take it much.

I had awful withdrawal symptoms from the treatment when I finished. I'll never

do THAT again!

Glad you are getting better.

Alley

[Guest guest]

Terry,

I'm so sorry to hear about the awful headaches...have you tried accupuncture for

them? So many people seem to have serious problems with headaches. Are you in

treatment now?

There is no animal as beautiful as a thoroughbred in my opinion and it must be a

delight to be able to look out your window and watch them. I'm so envious of

people whose lifestyles are conducive to sharing their lives with animals.

I know Folsom...my husband and I worked with thoroughbred race horses for 13

years and wintered in New Orleans often. We trained Lee Matherne's horses (from

Houma) for several years before his heart attack and death. He had a wonderful

spread down in Houma and we always enjoyed going out to his farm. There was a

horrible battle between his widow and his brother after his death and I don't

know what happened to ranch. One morning several weeks after his death we came

to the barn at the Fairgrounds and his brother (can't remember his name) had

spirited all the horses away. We got out of there before it got any uglier.

Prior to training for Matherne, we worked with Jere , Robideaux and

Dorignac...names I'm sure you are familiar with. Course that was many many years

ago...and I read not long ago that Jere had also crossed over from a heart

attack.

The new Fairgrounds is gorgeous. There used to be the most wonderful old tree in

the infield...not far from Black Gold's grave. It was a twisting, winding tree

and for years I'd sit in the infield trying to draw it...obviously I have no

talents when it comes to drawing.

Please take care of yourself and let us hear from you more often. And remember

that we are always here when you need support or just someone to listen.

Blessings

Tatezi

wildlife

We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and wildlife and

animals are everywhere. When I am sick, I miss my flower gardens the most, in

particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you take care of them. My

doctor had me on oxycontin for severe headaches and because of the side effects,

I had to get off of it. We have very large high windows which go up about

twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my salvation to be able to watch

the horses and other animals, my dog included, each day. Terry

[Guest guest]

Terry,

I'm so sorry to hear about the awful headaches...have you tried accupuncture for

them? So many people seem to have serious problems with headaches. Are you in

treatment now?

There is no animal as beautiful as a thoroughbred in my opinion and it must be a

delight to be able to look out your window and watch them. I'm so envious of

people whose lifestyles are conducive to sharing their lives with animals.

I know Folsom...my husband and I worked with thoroughbred race horses for 13

years and wintered in New Orleans often. We trained Lee Matherne's horses (from

Houma) for several years before his heart attack and death. He had a wonderful

spread down in Houma and we always enjoyed going out to his farm. There was a

horrible battle between his widow and his brother after his death and I don't

know what happened to ranch. One morning several weeks after his death we came

to the barn at the Fairgrounds and his brother (can't remember his name) had

spirited all the horses away. We got out of there before it got any uglier.

Prior to training for Matherne, we worked with Jere , Robideaux and

Dorignac...names I'm sure you are familiar with. Course that was many many years

ago...and I read not long ago that Jere had also crossed over from a heart

attack.

The new Fairgrounds is gorgeous. There used to be the most wonderful old tree in

the infield...not far from Black Gold's grave. It was a twisting, winding tree

and for years I'd sit in the infield trying to draw it...obviously I have no

talents when it comes to drawing.

Please take care of yourself and let us hear from you more often. And remember

that we are always here when you need support or just someone to listen.

Blessings

Tatezi

wildlife

We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and wildlife and

animals are everywhere. When I am sick, I miss my flower gardens the most, in

particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you take care of them. My

doctor had me on oxycontin for severe headaches and because of the side effects,

I had to get off of it. We have very large high windows which go up about

twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my salvation to be able to watch

the horses and other animals, my dog included, each day. Terry

[Guest guest]

Hi Terry. I'm so sorry you're having a rough go of it, and I'm glad you

paid a visit and wrote your note. To lose your son? Oh my. Gentle hugs to

you. I can't imagine that -- you've really got a lot on your plate, and my

heart and prayers go out to you.

I gave up on roses, too. They were just too much work (but they are

beautiful) .

I am so glad you wrote your note. I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun. But opiate addiction? Geez! I've got a friend

who was just placed on Oxycontin (actually I know several people who have

been placed on it, and they are not doing good after having been on this drug

and

now addicted).

I am (or was) a recovering alcoholic / addict for 20 some odd years when my

shrink prescribed Valium in 1999. We both thought I " could handle it " . I

definitely needed something for anxiety and panic attacks, and antidepressants

(three years trying them) did not work for me. They only made me weird

feeling. Well...the Valium indeed worked, but it created chain reaction that

ultimately made me crave alcohol, and it only took two months on Valium and I

was

off the wagon after 20 yrs of not drinking. I've been strung out before on

opiates (back in the 70's - recreational drugs), and I could not imagine having

a Rx for them today and hope I never have pain to the degree that I need

opiates to control the pain.

My heart goes out to you and all of those suffering from pain, benzo

addiction, opiate addiction, and/or benzo / opiate addiction on top of no

anxiety /

pain management because the drug looses its effectiveness (very quickly so). I

had two good friends who were being Rxed Percocet / Oxycontin long term for

pain management who ultimately (after being on these drugs for YEARS)

overdosed and died. They didn't have pain associated with Hep C . One was a

combat

vet who had severe back pain (he had been critically wounded in Nam and had

purple heart), he had been on Percocet forever and ever. He was a loner, kept

to himself, caused no one any trouble, was unbelievably talented and

creative. No one knew the extent of his addiction to these Percocets, but

(after he

died) we learned that he was taking upwards of 25 per day and was also

crushing and snorting them, and ........well, he is no longer with us. My

friend on

Oxycontin wasn't really in pain (at least that's what I think), but he got a

Rx for them, and he is also no longer with us. I've got a friend now whose

STUPID doctor (no... negligent doctor I will call him), prescribed him (an

admitted alcoholic who had just relapsed after 17 yrs of sobriety and had

suffered a severe burn and wanted to stop drinking), Ativan AND Percocet. The

stupid doctor said " are you ready to quit drinking " , and then he prescribed

Ativan

to help him quit drinking. He is now not only strung out on Ativan but he

is strung out on the Percocet that he is STILL being prescribed (4 months post

healed burn). To boot, he is still drinking, too. This doctor has

infuriated me. This friend, who is also a Vietnam Vet, had NEVER done

" drugs "

recreationally. He was an alcoholic, indeed, but he did not indulge in any

other

mind altering substances. But now? He's 54 yrs old and is eating Ativan and

Percocets daily (and is still drinking). We're all very concerned about him

and are afraid he's going to overdose. I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what this

doc

is doing (Rx'ing hand-over-fist Ativan and Percocet) is blatently negligent

in doing so with this particular patient. Oh... it makes me furious. I

don't practice nursing anymore (I'm on disability), but I'm still licensed, and

I feel like calling the medical board on this da** doctor.

Thanks for letting me " vent " . You stay strong, Terry. Hugs to you.

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:40:02 AM Eastern Standard Time,

psita@... writes:

> Hello all,

> Haven't written in awhile. I have been real sick. Have

> enjoyed so much the conversations about your animals and wildlife.

> We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and

> wildlife and animals are everywhere. Only the squirrels are pests,

> because they eat through the feed bags and make a real mess. It is

> beautiful here today, and when I am sick, I miss my flower gardens

> the most, in particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you

> take care of them. My doctor had me on oxycontin for severe

> headaches and because of the side effects, I had to get off of it.

> Tried weaning slowly, and that didn't work, so my doc said stop all

> meds. It was the worst time I have been through since losing my

> son. Horrible withdrawals. The drug should be outlawed except for

> terminal cases. It has been two weeks and I am still weak and not

> able to leave the house. We have very large high windows which go

> up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

> salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

> included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

> getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

> in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

> Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

> on a daily basis. Terry

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Terry. I'm so sorry you're having a rough go of it, and I'm glad you

paid a visit and wrote your note. To lose your son? Oh my. Gentle hugs to

you. I can't imagine that -- you've really got a lot on your plate, and my

heart and prayers go out to you.

I gave up on roses, too. They were just too much work (but they are

beautiful) .

I am so glad you wrote your note. I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun. But opiate addiction? Geez! I've got a friend

who was just placed on Oxycontin (actually I know several people who have

been placed on it, and they are not doing good after having been on this drug

and

now addicted).

I am (or was) a recovering alcoholic / addict for 20 some odd years when my

shrink prescribed Valium in 1999. We both thought I " could handle it " . I

definitely needed something for anxiety and panic attacks, and antidepressants

(three years trying them) did not work for me. They only made me weird

feeling. Well...the Valium indeed worked, but it created chain reaction that

ultimately made me crave alcohol, and it only took two months on Valium and I

was

off the wagon after 20 yrs of not drinking. I've been strung out before on

opiates (back in the 70's - recreational drugs), and I could not imagine having

a Rx for them today and hope I never have pain to the degree that I need

opiates to control the pain.

My heart goes out to you and all of those suffering from pain, benzo

addiction, opiate addiction, and/or benzo / opiate addiction on top of no

anxiety /

pain management because the drug looses its effectiveness (very quickly so). I

had two good friends who were being Rxed Percocet / Oxycontin long term for

pain management who ultimately (after being on these drugs for YEARS)

overdosed and died. They didn't have pain associated with Hep C . One was a

combat

vet who had severe back pain (he had been critically wounded in Nam and had

purple heart), he had been on Percocet forever and ever. He was a loner, kept

to himself, caused no one any trouble, was unbelievably talented and

creative. No one knew the extent of his addiction to these Percocets, but

(after he

died) we learned that he was taking upwards of 25 per day and was also

crushing and snorting them, and ........well, he is no longer with us. My

friend on

Oxycontin wasn't really in pain (at least that's what I think), but he got a

Rx for them, and he is also no longer with us. I've got a friend now whose

STUPID doctor (no... negligent doctor I will call him), prescribed him (an

admitted alcoholic who had just relapsed after 17 yrs of sobriety and had

suffered a severe burn and wanted to stop drinking), Ativan AND Percocet. The

stupid doctor said " are you ready to quit drinking " , and then he prescribed

Ativan

to help him quit drinking. He is now not only strung out on Ativan but he

is strung out on the Percocet that he is STILL being prescribed (4 months post

healed burn). To boot, he is still drinking, too. This doctor has

infuriated me. This friend, who is also a Vietnam Vet, had NEVER done

" drugs "

recreationally. He was an alcoholic, indeed, but he did not indulge in any

other

mind altering substances. But now? He's 54 yrs old and is eating Ativan and

Percocets daily (and is still drinking). We're all very concerned about him

and are afraid he's going to overdose. I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what this

doc

is doing (Rx'ing hand-over-fist Ativan and Percocet) is blatently negligent

in doing so with this particular patient. Oh... it makes me furious. I

don't practice nursing anymore (I'm on disability), but I'm still licensed, and

I feel like calling the medical board on this da** doctor.

Thanks for letting me " vent " . You stay strong, Terry. Hugs to you.

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:40:02 AM Eastern Standard Time,

psita@... writes:

> Hello all,

> Haven't written in awhile. I have been real sick. Have

> enjoyed so much the conversations about your animals and wildlife.

> We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and

> wildlife and animals are everywhere. Only the squirrels are pests,

> because they eat through the feed bags and make a real mess. It is

> beautiful here today, and when I am sick, I miss my flower gardens

> the most, in particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you

> take care of them. My doctor had me on oxycontin for severe

> headaches and because of the side effects, I had to get off of it.

> Tried weaning slowly, and that didn't work, so my doc said stop all

> meds. It was the worst time I have been through since losing my

> son. Horrible withdrawals. The drug should be outlawed except for

> terminal cases. It has been two weeks and I am still weak and not

> able to leave the house. We have very large high windows which go

> up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

> salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

> included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

> getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

> in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

> Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

> on a daily basis. Terry

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Terry. I'm so sorry you're having a rough go of it, and I'm glad you

paid a visit and wrote your note. To lose your son? Oh my. Gentle hugs to

you. I can't imagine that -- you've really got a lot on your plate, and my

heart and prayers go out to you.

I gave up on roses, too. They were just too much work (but they are

beautiful) .

I am so glad you wrote your note. I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun. But opiate addiction? Geez! I've got a friend

who was just placed on Oxycontin (actually I know several people who have

been placed on it, and they are not doing good after having been on this drug

and

now addicted).

I am (or was) a recovering alcoholic / addict for 20 some odd years when my

shrink prescribed Valium in 1999. We both thought I " could handle it " . I

definitely needed something for anxiety and panic attacks, and antidepressants

(three years trying them) did not work for me. They only made me weird

feeling. Well...the Valium indeed worked, but it created chain reaction that

ultimately made me crave alcohol, and it only took two months on Valium and I

was

off the wagon after 20 yrs of not drinking. I've been strung out before on

opiates (back in the 70's - recreational drugs), and I could not imagine having

a Rx for them today and hope I never have pain to the degree that I need

opiates to control the pain.

My heart goes out to you and all of those suffering from pain, benzo

addiction, opiate addiction, and/or benzo / opiate addiction on top of no

anxiety /

pain management because the drug looses its effectiveness (very quickly so). I

had two good friends who were being Rxed Percocet / Oxycontin long term for

pain management who ultimately (after being on these drugs for YEARS)

overdosed and died. They didn't have pain associated with Hep C . One was a

combat

vet who had severe back pain (he had been critically wounded in Nam and had

purple heart), he had been on Percocet forever and ever. He was a loner, kept

to himself, caused no one any trouble, was unbelievably talented and

creative. No one knew the extent of his addiction to these Percocets, but

(after he

died) we learned that he was taking upwards of 25 per day and was also

crushing and snorting them, and ........well, he is no longer with us. My

friend on

Oxycontin wasn't really in pain (at least that's what I think), but he got a

Rx for them, and he is also no longer with us. I've got a friend now whose

STUPID doctor (no... negligent doctor I will call him), prescribed him (an

admitted alcoholic who had just relapsed after 17 yrs of sobriety and had

suffered a severe burn and wanted to stop drinking), Ativan AND Percocet. The

stupid doctor said " are you ready to quit drinking " , and then he prescribed

Ativan

to help him quit drinking. He is now not only strung out on Ativan but he

is strung out on the Percocet that he is STILL being prescribed (4 months post

healed burn). To boot, he is still drinking, too. This doctor has

infuriated me. This friend, who is also a Vietnam Vet, had NEVER done

" drugs "

recreationally. He was an alcoholic, indeed, but he did not indulge in any

other

mind altering substances. But now? He's 54 yrs old and is eating Ativan and

Percocets daily (and is still drinking). We're all very concerned about him

and are afraid he's going to overdose. I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what this

doc

is doing (Rx'ing hand-over-fist Ativan and Percocet) is blatently negligent

in doing so with this particular patient. Oh... it makes me furious. I

don't practice nursing anymore (I'm on disability), but I'm still licensed, and

I feel like calling the medical board on this da** doctor.

Thanks for letting me " vent " . You stay strong, Terry. Hugs to you.

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:40:02 AM Eastern Standard Time,

psita@... writes:

> Hello all,

> Haven't written in awhile. I have been real sick. Have

> enjoyed so much the conversations about your animals and wildlife.

> We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and

> wildlife and animals are everywhere. Only the squirrels are pests,

> because they eat through the feed bags and make a real mess. It is

> beautiful here today, and when I am sick, I miss my flower gardens

> the most, in particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you

> take care of them. My doctor had me on oxycontin for severe

> headaches and because of the side effects, I had to get off of it.

> Tried weaning slowly, and that didn't work, so my doc said stop all

> meds. It was the worst time I have been through since losing my

> son. Horrible withdrawals. The drug should be outlawed except for

> terminal cases. It has been two weeks and I am still weak and not

> able to leave the house. We have very large high windows which go

> up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

> salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

> included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

> getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

> in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

> Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

> on a daily basis. Terry

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Terry. I'm so sorry you're having a rough go of it, and I'm glad you

paid a visit and wrote your note. To lose your son? Oh my. Gentle hugs to

you. I can't imagine that -- you've really got a lot on your plate, and my

heart and prayers go out to you.

I gave up on roses, too. They were just too much work (but they are

beautiful) .

I am so glad you wrote your note. I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun. But opiate addiction? Geez! I've got a friend

who was just placed on Oxycontin (actually I know several people who have

been placed on it, and they are not doing good after having been on this drug

and

now addicted).

I am (or was) a recovering alcoholic / addict for 20 some odd years when my

shrink prescribed Valium in 1999. We both thought I " could handle it " . I

definitely needed something for anxiety and panic attacks, and antidepressants

(three years trying them) did not work for me. They only made me weird

feeling. Well...the Valium indeed worked, but it created chain reaction that

ultimately made me crave alcohol, and it only took two months on Valium and I

was

off the wagon after 20 yrs of not drinking. I've been strung out before on

opiates (back in the 70's - recreational drugs), and I could not imagine having

a Rx for them today and hope I never have pain to the degree that I need

opiates to control the pain.

My heart goes out to you and all of those suffering from pain, benzo

addiction, opiate addiction, and/or benzo / opiate addiction on top of no

anxiety /

pain management because the drug looses its effectiveness (very quickly so). I

had two good friends who were being Rxed Percocet / Oxycontin long term for

pain management who ultimately (after being on these drugs for YEARS)

overdosed and died. They didn't have pain associated with Hep C . One was a

combat

vet who had severe back pain (he had been critically wounded in Nam and had

purple heart), he had been on Percocet forever and ever. He was a loner, kept

to himself, caused no one any trouble, was unbelievably talented and

creative. No one knew the extent of his addiction to these Percocets, but

(after he

died) we learned that he was taking upwards of 25 per day and was also

crushing and snorting them, and ........well, he is no longer with us. My

friend on

Oxycontin wasn't really in pain (at least that's what I think), but he got a

Rx for them, and he is also no longer with us. I've got a friend now whose

STUPID doctor (no... negligent doctor I will call him), prescribed him (an

admitted alcoholic who had just relapsed after 17 yrs of sobriety and had

suffered a severe burn and wanted to stop drinking), Ativan AND Percocet. The

stupid doctor said " are you ready to quit drinking " , and then he prescribed

Ativan

to help him quit drinking. He is now not only strung out on Ativan but he

is strung out on the Percocet that he is STILL being prescribed (4 months post

healed burn). To boot, he is still drinking, too. This doctor has

infuriated me. This friend, who is also a Vietnam Vet, had NEVER done

" drugs "

recreationally. He was an alcoholic, indeed, but he did not indulge in any

other

mind altering substances. But now? He's 54 yrs old and is eating Ativan and

Percocets daily (and is still drinking). We're all very concerned about him

and are afraid he's going to overdose. I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what this

doc

is doing (Rx'ing hand-over-fist Ativan and Percocet) is blatently negligent

in doing so with this particular patient. Oh... it makes me furious. I

don't practice nursing anymore (I'm on disability), but I'm still licensed, and

I feel like calling the medical board on this da** doctor.

Thanks for letting me " vent " . You stay strong, Terry. Hugs to you.

In a message dated 5/6/2004 10:40:02 AM Eastern Standard Time,

psita@... writes:

> Hello all,

> Haven't written in awhile. I have been real sick. Have

> enjoyed so much the conversations about your animals and wildlife.

> We live in Folsom, Louisiana. We breed thoroughbred horses, and

> wildlife and animals are everywhere. Only the squirrels are pests,

> because they eat through the feed bags and make a real mess. It is

> beautiful here today, and when I am sick, I miss my flower gardens

> the most, in particular the roses, which don't bloom well unless you

> take care of them. My doctor had me on oxycontin for severe

> headaches and because of the side effects, I had to get off of it.

> Tried weaning slowly, and that didn't work, so my doc said stop all

> meds. It was the worst time I have been through since losing my

> son. Horrible withdrawals. The drug should be outlawed except for

> terminal cases. It has been two weeks and I am still weak and not

> able to leave the house. We have very large high windows which go

> up about twenty feet or more in the den, and it has been my

> salvation to be able to watch the horses and other animals, my dog

> included each day. I am still abnormally cold but am finally

> getting better and will never put another physically addicting drug

> in my mouth. If this helps one person, it is worth writing about.

> Thank God for my strong faith and a good family. I pray for you all

> on a daily basis. Terry

>

>

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/7/2004 9:35:23 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what

this doc

Dear ,

Better idea. Write the licensing board. That will at least get him

investigated. Just a thought. Some doctors just don't know enough about the

drugs

they prescribe to write the scripts they do; others are just unethical as all

get out. Either way, and come uppance seems to be in order, here, before this

guy kills somebody else.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/7/2004 9:35:23 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what

this doc

Dear ,

Better idea. Write the licensing board. That will at least get him

investigated. Just a thought. Some doctors just don't know enough about the

drugs

they prescribe to write the scripts they do; others are just unethical as all

get out. Either way, and come uppance seems to be in order, here, before this

guy kills somebody else.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/7/2004 9:35:23 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what

this doc

Dear ,

Better idea. Write the licensing board. That will at least get him

investigated. Just a thought. Some doctors just don't know enough about the

drugs

they prescribe to write the scripts they do; others are just unethical as all

get out. Either way, and come uppance seems to be in order, here, before this

guy kills somebody else.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/7/2004 9:35:23 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

I've thought about calling his

doctor and asking " what in the HE** are you doing? " . I'm an RN, and what

this doc

Dear ,

Better idea. Write the licensing board. That will at least get him

investigated. Just a thought. Some doctors just don't know enough about the

drugs

they prescribe to write the scripts they do; others are just unethical as all

get out. Either way, and come uppance seems to be in order, here, before this

guy kills somebody else.

Anne

[Guest guest]

Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint pain

and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left him it

was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact and now oxy.

It must be an awful drug.

I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to send

you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your life.

Tatezi

I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun.

[Guest guest]

Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint pain

and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left him it

was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact and now oxy.

It must be an awful drug.

I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to send

you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your life.

Tatezi

I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun.

[Guest guest]

Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint pain

and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left him it

was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact and now oxy.

It must be an awful drug.

I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to send

you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your life.

Tatezi

I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun.

[Guest guest]

Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint pain

and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left him it

was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact and now oxy.

It must be an awful drug.

I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to send

you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your life.

Tatezi

I have recently become addicted again (to

Valium), and I was a recovering alcoholic / drug addict, and now ? ? I do

not know if I can stop them, but......... I do know that I can -- I just know

it's not going to be fun.

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Tatezi. I was well strung-out in the 70's (was doing the narcotic

thing and heroin and every other single drug and alcohoI I could pump into my

system); I got clean in 82; went on to " become someone " - lol - and now ?

Well..... I'm " someone " alright. Sometimes I feel like I'm just someone who

used to be a nurse who was diagnosed Hep C and who freaked out over it and over

the thoughts of treatment and who tried the treatment and had to come off, and

so........ what did I do? Instead of holding myself together and coping the

right way, I did the stupidest da** thing I could have ever done -- I started

using (no.... abusing) again. It started with a Rx of Valium about 5

months ago, and I KNEW better (knew I should not take those things to cope),

but

for some reason -- I just did it, and well........ yeah.... I did it,

alright.

When I got clean in the 80s, I had to do a 360 to get that way (clean) and

to live with my " addictive personality disorder " and not let it kill me.

When I put it down, I put ALL of it down -- totally, and life was a lot better

--

not at first, but life DID become good without using.

Thank you for asking for the courage and strength for me. I need them both.

There is a power much greater than me, and I'm asking, too, for that courage

and strength for me and for all who are suffering. I am in no physical pain,

and so I have not attempted yet to get any opiates, but I know that " using "

(even if it's only Valium, Ativan, Xanax, etc.), for an addict / alcoholic will

eventually create that pain (in my addictive head) and that I'll be seeking

the next " relief " . It just works that way, and so...... thank you again for

the good vibes and wishes. I've rationalized long enough this time and have

blamed Hep C long enough. It's time I give myself some credit again, and

the way to feel worthy of that credit is to STOP using and get straight again --

totally.

I'm going to go deliver the hanging fern I bought for my mom to her house now

and wish her a great mother's day. And then I guess I'm going to finish

planting my petunias (it's not too hot yet). I hope to hear from my son

today. He's 22, it was just me and him (I was single mom), and remarkably --

he

never " got into drugs " . But then again, I was a " sober " mom for all those

years he " grew up " . He knows I used to be a drug addict / drunk / wild child

/ etc., but he also knows " mom got sober " before he ever remembered her as an

addict / drunk. I do not want him to see me as one now. He just got back

from a 9 month tour in Afghanistan a few days ago and is scheduled to come home

this week.

You all have a great Mom's Day. And to all suffering from whatever it is

you're suffering, do pray to whatever and whoever you pray to -- for others and

for yourselves. I used to do that, and it worked.

In a message dated 5/7/2004 10:40:56 PM Eastern Standard Time,

tatezi@... writes:

> Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint

> pain and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left

> him it was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact and

> now oxy. It must be an awful drug.

>

> I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to

> send you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your

> life.

>

> Tatezi

>

>

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/9/2004 10:27:41 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

You all have a great Mom's Day. And to all suffering from whatever it is

you're suffering, do pray to whatever and whoever you pray to -- for others

and

for yourselves. I used to do that, and it worked.

Dear ,

Then do it again. Prayer still works. My husband, who doesn't usually read

any of this, because he feels that it is eavesdropping, joins me in saluting

your son and wishing you a Happy Mother's Day.

Anne

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 5/9/2004 10:27:41 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

jtwagers7@... writes:

You all have a great Mom's Day. And to all suffering from whatever it is

you're suffering, do pray to whatever and whoever you pray to -- for others

and

for yourselves. I used to do that, and it worked.

Dear ,

Then do it again. Prayer still works. My husband, who doesn't usually read

any of this, because he feels that it is eavesdropping, joins me in saluting

your son and wishing you a Happy Mother's Day.

Anne

[Guest guest]

HI.I love valium,alcohol,heroin,cocaine but I also love my cat,my friends,the

sunshine,the snow,the people in the street,my garden,life with it.s ups and

downs,waking up in the morning and to feel good only need a cup of black coffee

and to make it perfect someone laying nxt to me when I wake up,all those things

I love and a lot more and I can have all of it that.s why I stay

away,completely, from the other things which give you a shortcut to a artificial

happiness lasting at long as the dope or your money last.That.s the

bottomline,you know it, I know it.It.s up to you which way to go.Well....I allow

myself a occasional drink sometimes. Choose life.Willem.

Re: wildlife

Thanks, Tatezi. I was well strung-out in the 70's (was doing the narcotic

thing and heroin and every other single drug and alcohoI I could pump into my

system); I got clean in 82; went on to " become someone " - lol - and now ?

Well..... I'm " someone " alright. Sometimes I feel like I'm just someone who

used to be a nurse who was diagnosed Hep C and who freaked out over it and

over

the thoughts of treatment and who tried the treatment and had to come off, and

so........ what did I do? Instead of holding myself together and coping the

right way, I did the stupidest da** thing I could have ever done -- I started

using (no.... abusing) again. It started with a Rx of Valium about 5

months ago, and I KNEW better (knew I should not take those things to cope),

but

for some reason -- I just did it, and well........ yeah.... I did it,

alright.

When I got clean in the 80s, I had to do a 360 to get that way (clean) and

to live with my " addictive personality disorder " and not let it kill me.

When I put it down, I put ALL of it down -- totally, and life was a lot better

--

not at first, but life DID become good without using.

Thank you for asking for the courage and strength for me. I need them both.

There is a power much greater than me, and I'm asking, too, for that courage

and strength for me and for all who are suffering. I am in no physical pain,

and so I have not attempted yet to get any opiates, but I know that " using "

(even if it's only Valium, Ativan, Xanax, etc.), for an addict / alcoholic

will

eventually create that pain (in my addictive head) and that I'll be seeking

the next " relief " . It just works that way, and so...... thank you again for

the good vibes and wishes. I've rationalized long enough this time and have

blamed Hep C long enough. It's time I give myself some credit again, and

the way to feel worthy of that credit is to STOP using and get straight again

--

totally.

I'm going to go deliver the hanging fern I bought for my mom to her house now

and wish her a great mother's day. And then I guess I'm going to finish

planting my petunias (it's not too hot yet). I hope to hear from my son

today. He's 22, it was just me and him (I was single mom), and remarkably --

he

never " got into drugs " . But then again, I was a " sober " mom for all those

years he " grew up " . He knows I used to be a drug addict / drunk / wild

child

/ etc., but he also knows " mom got sober " before he ever remembered her as an

addict / drunk. I do not want him to see me as one now. He just got back

from a 9 month tour in Afghanistan a few days ago and is scheduled to come

home

this week.

You all have a great Mom's Day. And to all suffering from whatever it is

you're suffering, do pray to whatever and whoever you pray to -- for others

and

for yourselves. I used to do that, and it worked.

In a message dated 5/7/2004 10:40:56 PM Eastern Standard Time,

tatezi@... writes:

> Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint

> pain and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left

> him it was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact

and

> now oxy. It must be an awful drug.

>

> I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to

> send you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your

> life.

>

> Tatezi

>

>

[Guest guest]

HI.I love valium,alcohol,heroin,cocaine but I also love my cat,my friends,the

sunshine,the snow,the people in the street,my garden,life with it.s ups and

downs,waking up in the morning and to feel good only need a cup of black coffee

and to make it perfect someone laying nxt to me when I wake up,all those things

I love and a lot more and I can have all of it that.s why I stay

away,completely, from the other things which give you a shortcut to a artificial

happiness lasting at long as the dope or your money last.That.s the

bottomline,you know it, I know it.It.s up to you which way to go.Well....I allow

myself a occasional drink sometimes. Choose life.Willem.

Re: wildlife

Thanks, Tatezi. I was well strung-out in the 70's (was doing the narcotic

thing and heroin and every other single drug and alcohoI I could pump into my

system); I got clean in 82; went on to " become someone " - lol - and now ?

Well..... I'm " someone " alright. Sometimes I feel like I'm just someone who

used to be a nurse who was diagnosed Hep C and who freaked out over it and

over

the thoughts of treatment and who tried the treatment and had to come off, and

so........ what did I do? Instead of holding myself together and coping the

right way, I did the stupidest da** thing I could have ever done -- I started

using (no.... abusing) again. It started with a Rx of Valium about 5

months ago, and I KNEW better (knew I should not take those things to cope),

but

for some reason -- I just did it, and well........ yeah.... I did it,

alright.

When I got clean in the 80s, I had to do a 360 to get that way (clean) and

to live with my " addictive personality disorder " and not let it kill me.

When I put it down, I put ALL of it down -- totally, and life was a lot better

--

not at first, but life DID become good without using.

Thank you for asking for the courage and strength for me. I need them both.

There is a power much greater than me, and I'm asking, too, for that courage

and strength for me and for all who are suffering. I am in no physical pain,

and so I have not attempted yet to get any opiates, but I know that " using "

(even if it's only Valium, Ativan, Xanax, etc.), for an addict / alcoholic

will

eventually create that pain (in my addictive head) and that I'll be seeking

the next " relief " . It just works that way, and so...... thank you again for

the good vibes and wishes. I've rationalized long enough this time and have

blamed Hep C long enough. It's time I give myself some credit again, and

the way to feel worthy of that credit is to STOP using and get straight again

--

totally.

I'm going to go deliver the hanging fern I bought for my mom to her house now

and wish her a great mother's day. And then I guess I'm going to finish

planting my petunias (it's not too hot yet). I hope to hear from my son

today. He's 22, it was just me and him (I was single mom), and remarkably --

he

never " got into drugs " . But then again, I was a " sober " mom for all those

years he " grew up " . He knows I used to be a drug addict / drunk / wild

child

/ etc., but he also knows " mom got sober " before he ever remembered her as an

addict / drunk. I do not want him to see me as one now. He just got back

from a 9 month tour in Afghanistan a few days ago and is scheduled to come

home

this week.

You all have a great Mom's Day. And to all suffering from whatever it is

you're suffering, do pray to whatever and whoever you pray to -- for others

and

for yourselves. I used to do that, and it worked.

In a message dated 5/7/2004 10:40:56 PM Eastern Standard Time,

tatezi@... writes:

> Wow, ....you have some horror stories. My ex was put on oxy for joint

> pain and is now addicted. But he has an addictive personality...when I left

> him it was heroin...then heroin and vodka...then some years of no contact

and

> now oxy. It must be an awful drug.

>

> I will light a candle on my altar of healing and ask the Great Spirit to

> send you the courage and strengh you will need to take back control of your

> life.

>

> Tatezi

>

>