Been a very long while ........

[Guest guest]

ow! What a year! If there was a way to do over

this wone would be my choice.<br><br>I've not paid any

attention to the club ... sorry .... been caught up in

life's little dramas and lost sight of quite

abit.<br><br>From being diagnosed, losing a dear (best) friend to

cancer, leaving a marriage of 11 years, re-learning to

living alone, and having to go to work every day I some

how got a bit twisted around.<br><br>I was a

non-responder as of September ... decided to take the last few

months of the year and just take in being active with

HCV. My thoughts are to take the month of January and

look into what options are really available and move

in that direction. I realize that I need to dedicate

myself to being aware and pro active in saving my life

.... the AMA/CDC and our goverment are not going to do

it for me. Freightening for a <br>procrastenator

..... <br><br>I have 99% decided not to continue with

AMA reccomendations, I'll maintain a relationship

with my doctor for the lab work and a wall to bounce

shit of, and treatment of related " treatable "

conditions brought on by a dying liver. <br><br>The thought

of completely changing my life and how i've lived is

excillarating and nerve racking ... I'm scared I won't know

enough or have the tenacity to keep up.<br><br>I don't

want to go down a whimp! I truely want to live a

vibrant and fullfilling life ....<br><br>So, be it here,

other sites, ALF support groups ... etc ...... I hope

to find companionship, integrity and the will to

overcome the seemingly imposible ....<br><br>in spirit

....in defiance .....<br> Mitch