Re: 2 days eek

[Guest guest]

Bonnie:

It isn't easy to stay in good spirits all the time, I tried that

and almost took my famlies heads off when I finally blew up..My

counslor told me that it is ok for me to get upset and blow, because

I am angry at this Dragon, and not my family. It is ok to realise

that we forget things, it is ok to have this brain fog.

We all know how you feel. At least here, you can tell how you feel

and not offend anyone, we have all been there, done that..It is a

good feeling to know that there are people here, who even though you

never meet, who you can call friends and be there for support. Try to

keep up your spirits, even though it is hard.

May God bless you,

Sherry lynn

> Well, I have been so tired that I really have not had a chance to

get caught

> up on the posts. I am eager to the point of sickness. It is almost

friday. I

> will start treatment and get my liver biopsy results. It really is

driving me

> crazy. My memory is failing. Monday, I forgot to pack a sandwich

in my

> children's lunches. I work at a pediatricians office and I totally

get lost

> when these mothers are telling me what's wrong with there kids, I

tend to go

> totally blank. I just broke down in tears today. It finally hit me

that I am

> not well and that I am not as capable as I once was and that this

stupid

> thing is going to be with me for the rest of my life! I start

family medical

> leave next week. It is only for the Dr appointments. For those of

you who

> have had this awhile..... how do you keep your spirits up? I find

myself

> getting depressed and emotional over the smallest things. I have

asked my Dr

> to raise my celexa dose and I feel I am on the edge of a breakdown.

I have

> tried so hard to stay upbeat. But working in the medical field the

Dr's

> always look at me as if analyzing my condition. My weekend stay at

the

> hospital did not help either. I have asthma, allergies, Hep c and

now this

> stupid ovary thing? GOOD GRIEF!!

> Well I feel better now. I had to vent, this is the only place I

felt would

> understand. The only real support and understanding I get is from

one of the

> Nurse Practitioners I work with. She just got over a horrible run

with

> lymphoma cancer. Chemo and surgeries and a year later she is just

now getting

> back to work. Well it is late and my eyes are closing as I type.

> Luv

> Bonnie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Bonnie:

It isn't easy to stay in good spirits all the time, I tried that

and almost took my famlies heads off when I finally blew up..My

counslor told me that it is ok for me to get upset and blow, because

I am angry at this Dragon, and not my family. It is ok to realise

that we forget things, it is ok to have this brain fog.

We all know how you feel. At least here, you can tell how you feel

and not offend anyone, we have all been there, done that..It is a

good feeling to know that there are people here, who even though you

never meet, who you can call friends and be there for support. Try to

keep up your spirits, even though it is hard.

May God bless you,

Sherry lynn

> Well, I have been so tired that I really have not had a chance to

get caught

> up on the posts. I am eager to the point of sickness. It is almost

friday. I

> will start treatment and get my liver biopsy results. It really is

driving me

> crazy. My memory is failing. Monday, I forgot to pack a sandwich

in my

> children's lunches. I work at a pediatricians office and I totally

get lost

> when these mothers are telling me what's wrong with there kids, I

tend to go

> totally blank. I just broke down in tears today. It finally hit me

that I am

> not well and that I am not as capable as I once was and that this

stupid

> thing is going to be with me for the rest of my life! I start

family medical

> leave next week. It is only for the Dr appointments. For those of

you who

> have had this awhile..... how do you keep your spirits up? I find

myself

> getting depressed and emotional over the smallest things. I have

asked my Dr

> to raise my celexa dose and I feel I am on the edge of a breakdown.

I have

> tried so hard to stay upbeat. But working in the medical field the

Dr's

> always look at me as if analyzing my condition. My weekend stay at

the

> hospital did not help either. I have asthma, allergies, Hep c and

now this

> stupid ovary thing? GOOD GRIEF!!

> Well I feel better now. I had to vent, this is the only place I

felt would

> understand. The only real support and understanding I get is from

one of the

> Nurse Practitioners I work with. She just got over a horrible run

with

> lymphoma cancer. Chemo and surgeries and a year later she is just

now getting

> back to work. Well it is late and my eyes are closing as I type.

> Luv

> Bonnie

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

I think we have all been in your shoes at one time or another. It is hard to

stay upbeat all the time when you don't feel well and then add stress on top of

it. I became a recluse for quite some time. I still stay to myself quite a

bit. Unless someone is walking in your shoes it is very hard to understand. I

do gardening and yard work to try to relieve the stress. I reflect on allot of

things I have learned since being sick. Like what life is really about and how

to stop and smell the roses. I used to be very hyper and very athletic. Each

year I keep going down hill. I was very independent. Never asked anyone for

help. I find now that I have to stop being so stubborn and ask. You really

learn allot about the people around you and who is really a friend when you get

sick. I figured out that animals give you the most unconditional love there is.

I have 2 dogs and 2 cats. They give me love, laughter (laughter is very

important), I think the biggest healer of all. They know when I am not feeling

well. They lay beside me when I sleep and they are always happy to see me. I

do lots of research, wich keeps me very busy. I date. Have been seeing someone

since March. But even that has become a rocky road. Don't know for sure how

much longer it shall last. Being sick is hard and trying to stay positive all

the time is hard. I also see a counselor so I just won't go crazy. It helps me

vent a put things in perspective. But it just really is not easy all the time.

Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Well, I have been so tired that I really have

not had a chance to get caught

up on the posts. I am eager to the point of sickness. It is almost friday. I

will start treatment and get my liver biopsy results. It really is driving me

crazy. My memory is failing. Monday, I forgot to pack a sandwich in my

children's lunches. I work at a pediatricians office and I totally get lost

when these mothers are telling me what's wrong with there kids, I tend to go

totally blank. I just broke down in tears today. It finally hit me that I am

not well and that I am not as capable as I once was and that this stupid

thing is going to be with me for the rest of my life! I start family medical

leave next week. It is only for the Dr appointments. For those of you who

have had this awhile..... how do you keep your spirits up? I find myself

getting depressed and emotional over the smallest things. I have asked my Dr

to raise my celexa dose and I feel I am on the edge of a breakdown. I have

tried so hard to stay upbeat. But working in the medical field the Dr's

always look at me as if analyzing my condition. My weekend stay at the

hospital did not help either. I have asthma, allergies, Hep c and now this

stupid ovary thing? GOOD GRIEF!!

Well I feel better now. I had to vent, this is the only place I felt would

understand. The only real support and understanding I get is from one of the

Nurse Practitioners I work with. She just got over a horrible run with

lymphoma cancer. Chemo and surgeries and a year later she is just now getting

back to work. Well it is late and my eyes are closing as I type.

Luv

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

I think we have all been in your shoes at one time or another. It is hard to

stay upbeat all the time when you don't feel well and then add stress on top of

it. I became a recluse for quite some time. I still stay to myself quite a

bit. Unless someone is walking in your shoes it is very hard to understand. I

do gardening and yard work to try to relieve the stress. I reflect on allot of

things I have learned since being sick. Like what life is really about and how

to stop and smell the roses. I used to be very hyper and very athletic. Each

year I keep going down hill. I was very independent. Never asked anyone for

help. I find now that I have to stop being so stubborn and ask. You really

learn allot about the people around you and who is really a friend when you get

sick. I figured out that animals give you the most unconditional love there is.

I have 2 dogs and 2 cats. They give me love, laughter (laughter is very

important), I think the biggest healer of all. They know when I am not feeling

well. They lay beside me when I sleep and they are always happy to see me. I

do lots of research, wich keeps me very busy. I date. Have been seeing someone

since March. But even that has become a rocky road. Don't know for sure how

much longer it shall last. Being sick is hard and trying to stay positive all

the time is hard. I also see a counselor so I just won't go crazy. It helps me

vent a put things in perspective. But it just really is not easy all the time.

Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Well, I have been so tired that I really have

not had a chance to get caught

up on the posts. I am eager to the point of sickness. It is almost friday. I

will start treatment and get my liver biopsy results. It really is driving me

crazy. My memory is failing. Monday, I forgot to pack a sandwich in my

children's lunches. I work at a pediatricians office and I totally get lost

when these mothers are telling me what's wrong with there kids, I tend to go

totally blank. I just broke down in tears today. It finally hit me that I am

not well and that I am not as capable as I once was and that this stupid

thing is going to be with me for the rest of my life! I start family medical

leave next week. It is only for the Dr appointments. For those of you who

have had this awhile..... how do you keep your spirits up? I find myself

getting depressed and emotional over the smallest things. I have asked my Dr

to raise my celexa dose and I feel I am on the edge of a breakdown. I have

tried so hard to stay upbeat. But working in the medical field the Dr's

always look at me as if analyzing my condition. My weekend stay at the

hospital did not help either. I have asthma, allergies, Hep c and now this

stupid ovary thing? GOOD GRIEF!!

Well I feel better now. I had to vent, this is the only place I felt would

understand. The only real support and understanding I get is from one of the

Nurse Practitioners I work with. She just got over a horrible run with

lymphoma cancer. Chemo and surgeries and a year later she is just now getting

back to work. Well it is late and my eyes are closing as I type.

Luv

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Thank you Sherry,

I am still anxious but I feel better today. I go to the GI tomorrow at

11:00am. I am so very nervous about howw all this will come out, I am sure I

will leave there crying. But I will probably be a good and much needed cry,

the fear of the unknown will be gone and at least I will have a plan and

something to hold onto.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Thank you Sherry,

I am still anxious but I feel better today. I go to the GI tomorrow at

11:00am. I am so very nervous about howw all this will come out, I am sure I

will leave there crying. But I will probably be a good and much needed cry,

the fear of the unknown will be gone and at least I will have a plan and

something to hold onto.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Dana,

I have tropical fish and watching them swim is very calming, I also do a lot

with the internet, I am redoing my website. It will have all of my poetry and

stuff, an escape and a world that I can create, or erase, I have total

control over it. I have to have control over something even an insignificant

website. I have read a lot about animals and how they help people. My mother

works in retirement facilities as head of finances. They keep animals, like

birds, and cats around, it really boost the spirits of the patients.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Dana,

I have tropical fish and watching them swim is very calming, I also do a lot

with the internet, I am redoing my website. It will have all of my poetry and

stuff, an escape and a world that I can create, or erase, I have total

control over it. I have to have control over something even an insignificant

website. I have read a lot about animals and how they help people. My mother

works in retirement facilities as head of finances. They keep animals, like

birds, and cats around, it really boost the spirits of the patients.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

the Dr has the results but will not tell me them until my appointment

tomorrow. We worked out a treatment plan at my last visit, but I will not

start it until tomorrow after he goes over all of my labs and test results.

He gave ma an overviews last time and tomorrow we get down to the nitty

gritty. He had already decided on the combo. pills and shots. I will soon

find out what treatment is all about.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

the Dr has the results but will not tell me them until my appointment

tomorrow. We worked out a treatment plan at my last visit, but I will not

start it until tomorrow after he goes over all of my labs and test results.

He gave ma an overviews last time and tomorrow we get down to the nitty

gritty. He had already decided on the combo. pills and shots. I will soon

find out what treatment is all about.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

Please don't dispair. You are not alone in the way you are feeling.

We all have endured these feelings. If you aren't on anti-

depressants yet, you should ask your dr about getting on them.

Do I understand you to say you do not have your biopsy results but

are starting treatment anyway? It is possible that you don't need

treatment, so please wait until you get the results before starting.

The memory problems are very frustrating and do not get alot better.

I forget my grocery list, why I went to the Post office, get lost

driving in very familiar areas. At first it drove me nuts, but I am

now much more used to it. I still get very upset when I forget small

things, but I don't let them bother me as much.

You can keep your spirits up by remembering that this is a very slow

moving disease. Very few actually go on to cirrhosis. I have done

treatment 4 times in 3 yrs, different treatments each time. I did

not respond to any of them. I do know that they did help slow down

the progression of my liver disease so I do not feel like it was in

vain.

Hepatitis C can be a real pain in the rear but you don't have to let

it take over your life. Accept it and then try to live your life. It

will always be there, but you don't have to always think about it.

When you find yourself getting depressed about it, go for a walk,

enjoy a beautiful sunset, go watch some kids play in the park. You

will be amazed to see how these little things can lift your spirits.

Start a journal and write down how you are feeling. I put 4

treatment journals on my website and just writing them helped me so

much!

Hang in there Bonnie. You will make it through this and through

treatment. AND it will help ease the progression of the disease

while you are on the treatment.

Good luck to you!

LeighAnn

http://www.geocities.com/1Leighann

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

Please don't dispair. You are not alone in the way you are feeling.

We all have endured these feelings. If you aren't on anti-

depressants yet, you should ask your dr about getting on them.

Do I understand you to say you do not have your biopsy results but

are starting treatment anyway? It is possible that you don't need

treatment, so please wait until you get the results before starting.

The memory problems are very frustrating and do not get alot better.

I forget my grocery list, why I went to the Post office, get lost

driving in very familiar areas. At first it drove me nuts, but I am

now much more used to it. I still get very upset when I forget small

things, but I don't let them bother me as much.

You can keep your spirits up by remembering that this is a very slow

moving disease. Very few actually go on to cirrhosis. I have done

treatment 4 times in 3 yrs, different treatments each time. I did

not respond to any of them. I do know that they did help slow down

the progression of my liver disease so I do not feel like it was in

vain.

Hepatitis C can be a real pain in the rear but you don't have to let

it take over your life. Accept it and then try to live your life. It

will always be there, but you don't have to always think about it.

When you find yourself getting depressed about it, go for a walk,

enjoy a beautiful sunset, go watch some kids play in the park. You

will be amazed to see how these little things can lift your spirits.

Start a journal and write down how you are feeling. I put 4

treatment journals on my website and just writing them helped me so

much!

Hang in there Bonnie. You will make it through this and through

treatment. AND it will help ease the progression of the disease

while you are on the treatment.

Good luck to you!

LeighAnn

http://www.geocities.com/1Leighann

[Guest guest]

Dana,

That is so nice about your mom. Puppies seem to bring out the nurturing in

us. If I ever get a bigger place I would love to get a beagle and a cat. I

had to give my kitty away and I miss her.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Dana,

That is so nice about your mom. Puppies seem to bring out the nurturing in

us. If I ever get a bigger place I would love to get a beagle and a cat. I

had to give my kitty away and I miss her.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

You are right. Fish are very relaxing to watch. And animals are really great.

Sometimes taking care of them all the time gets hard. But all the smiles and

love is worth it. I told my mother for years to get a puppy. She has a

continuous habit of meeting the wrong men. Alcoholics. Then she gets

depressed. She finally got a puppy. And you should hear the difference in her

voice. Even if the puppy does something wrong. She laughs. It was a whole new

mommy when she got my sister, (Coa Coa), Tehee! I am glad you like writing and

poetry. I write some, but my daughter is very good. The Doctors say that is

very healthy too. And yoga for your stetches seems to work for me. Helps

stretch me out and relieve some of the pain. Wish you the best at the Doctor.

Keep us updated. Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Dana,

I have tropical fish and watching them swim is very calming, I also do a lot

with the internet, I am redoing my website. It will have all of my poetry and

stuff, an escape and a world that I can create, or erase, I have total

control over it. I have to have control over something even an insignificant

website. I have read a lot about animals and how they help people. My mother

works in retirement facilities as head of finances. They keep animals, like

birds, and cats around, it really boost the spirits of the patients.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

You are right. Fish are very relaxing to watch. And animals are really great.

Sometimes taking care of them all the time gets hard. But all the smiles and

love is worth it. I told my mother for years to get a puppy. She has a

continuous habit of meeting the wrong men. Alcoholics. Then she gets

depressed. She finally got a puppy. And you should hear the difference in her

voice. Even if the puppy does something wrong. She laughs. It was a whole new

mommy when she got my sister, (Coa Coa), Tehee! I am glad you like writing and

poetry. I write some, but my daughter is very good. The Doctors say that is

very healthy too. And yoga for your stetches seems to work for me. Helps

stretch me out and relieve some of the pain. Wish you the best at the Doctor.

Keep us updated. Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Dana,

I have tropical fish and watching them swim is very calming, I also do a lot

with the internet, I am redoing my website. It will have all of my poetry and

stuff, an escape and a world that I can create, or erase, I have total

control over it. I have to have control over something even an insignificant

website. I have read a lot about animals and how they help people. My mother

works in retirement facilities as head of finances. They keep animals, like

birds, and cats around, it really boost the spirits of the patients.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie, check into a lack of progesterone. NATURAL progesterone. It brought

me out of a 4 year depression. Anti depressant dont do anything except make

me an emotional wreck.

I just spent 30 hours in the hospital. Didnt know if I was having a heart

attack or stroke....chest pains and left side feels numb. Turns out, my

heart and blood vessels are great..............it's the " side effects " .

freaky feelings.....this is some wierd stuff.

Plus. having had to work in all this heat on these drugs.....I was afraid I'd

pushed myself too hard. Yep. Must sleep as much as possible to help the

body heal, and feeling guilty for HEALING is not an option anymore. I have to

go to bed @ 8 pm on a work/school night.....and if I have to take a sleep

aid.....so be it.

The mental " fog " I am told.....is part of the crap floating in our

blood....the war " waste " and another reason we must constantly *flush*

ourselves with water.

Hope this helps......

*Dopey* Emo

[Guest guest]

Bonnie, check into a lack of progesterone. NATURAL progesterone. It brought

me out of a 4 year depression. Anti depressant dont do anything except make

me an emotional wreck.

I just spent 30 hours in the hospital. Didnt know if I was having a heart

attack or stroke....chest pains and left side feels numb. Turns out, my

heart and blood vessels are great..............it's the " side effects " .

freaky feelings.....this is some wierd stuff.

Plus. having had to work in all this heat on these drugs.....I was afraid I'd

pushed myself too hard. Yep. Must sleep as much as possible to help the

body heal, and feeling guilty for HEALING is not an option anymore. I have to

go to bed @ 8 pm on a work/school night.....and if I have to take a sleep

aid.....so be it.

The mental " fog " I am told.....is part of the crap floating in our

blood....the war " waste " and another reason we must constantly *flush*

ourselves with water.

Hope this helps......

*Dopey* Emo

[Guest guest]

They tested me a while ago and it was lack of seratonin that caused my

depression. I tried to deal without meds.... but alas, I must be medicated.

LOL

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

They tested me a while ago and it was lack of seratonin that caused my

depression. I tried to deal without meds.... but alas, I must be medicated.

LOL

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Dana, you should post some pictures of them, I would love to see them. They

are so cute when they are small, little balls of fluff. LOL

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Dana, you should post some pictures of them, I would love to see them. They

are so cute when they are small, little balls of fluff. LOL

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

I got a new puppie yesturday. Half Collie, half Lab. 6 week old male. Now I

have 3 dogs, 2 cats. Tehee! I am a glutant for punishment. I just could not

say no to the puppy. He was so cute. I love animals. Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Dana,

That is so nice about your mom. Puppies seem to bring out the nurturing in

us. If I ever get a bigger place I would love to get a beagle and a cat. I

had to give my kitty away and I miss her.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

Bonnie,

I got a new puppie yesturday. Half Collie, half Lab. 6 week old male. Now I

have 3 dogs, 2 cats. Tehee! I am a glutant for punishment. I just could not

say no to the puppy. He was so cute. I love animals. Dana

bonniestormcloud@... wrote:Dana,

That is so nice about your mom. Puppies seem to bring out the nurturing in

us. If I ever get a bigger place I would love to get a beagle and a cat. I

had to give my kitty away and I miss her.

Bonnie

[Guest guest]

When you get your pictures developed ask for a photo cd, then you can upload

them to your puter.

Bonnie