Would you like some cheese with that whine?

[Guest guest]

One of my favorite cheeses is muenster... yummy with apples and grapes

too....

anyways, well, I'm emailing just to whine because I'm miserable. I can't

sleep tonight and I'm STILL sick with what started out as a cold. I'm mad

cause I got the flu shot too and when my mom was sick a few weeks ago, I

didn't get it. However, she got sick again (never happens) and somehow, I

got it!

I havent had a sore throat AT ALL since I was age 7 when I got my tonsils

out. I know that sounds odd but seriously, I had repeated tonsillitis like

12 times and when I got them out, never again did I get strep, tonsillitis,

a sore throat or anything until last week!!!! I had a brief sore throat last

week and it went away along with the swollen glands. I was feeling extremely

tired and fatigued and didn't have much of an appetite for no known reasons.

I thought I was getting ready for a flare. Than suddenly, i felt fine. Two

days after that, I woke up, hardly able to talk, coughing, and congested.

It has been a week now and my throat is very very unhappy and sore but its

deep down inside like it's more irritated from the dry cough i started out

with. I havent had ANY fevers but been getting chills a lot, some night

sweats and Omg, the wheezing issues. My lungs have been whistling to me! I

haven't heard sounds like that coming from me in ages. It's to the point

where I have taken to sleeping with my upper body slight elevated because I

can't stand to lay flat or else the noises are worse.

I keep wondering if the case of Pericarditis I ws dealing with is making

this pain worse. My ribs are aching nad getting chest pains and while the

congestion is GONE.... still no fever, my throat is angry... although it

loves nice cool or even warm stuff.... however, you cant constantly drink

stuff really, can ya.... .Not unless you're a fountain.... and you know

what... guafeniacin .. that stuff in cough syrup.... I find that Im sick of

smelling it ...hmmmm.... well on the other end of the fountain! What's up

with that?? I'm not EVEN taking musinex because while the stuff works GREAT,

the smell fo it just makes me want to Hurl!

I'm really worried that I have Bronchitis. It seems that ANYTIME I get sick

with a upper resp, it Turns into Bronchitis.... it's Not fair... (no one

ever told me life is fair but still). I'm about 90% sure that I have it

given the sound of my now un-dry cough and whats coming with it.... just

that it hurts to cough .. not just my ribs, throat, and lungs... but my

bladder isnt happy either. The joys of getting OLD.... at 31.... it seems I

might as well be 61 at this point.

What buggers me out of all of this is why does good ole arthur have to join

in on the party. And it always seems to be the most random joints that don't

usually hurt that seem to perk up and say " Hey, I'm here... thought you

should know at the most inconvenient time ever.... "

On the positive side, I found some amazing cough drops made with brown rice

sugar so no fake sugar in them and they actually taste good. Kinda

impressed.

I have a therapy appointment today that Im missing yet again..... havent

seen her in ages now due to missed appointments on both of our parts.

thinking I should just give up on that and be crazy cause it's fun like that

anyways. :) After all, I do have a Happy Bunny sticker on my

powerchair/scooter head rest that says " cute but psycho " hehehe

I made a gift for my friend . Ikea makes these mirrors with a big

wooden panel around them that can be painted/decorated, etc so I painted it

purple, her faovrite color (mine too) and put some purple glitter on it and

than added a few glow in the dark kitty cats in different positions around

it. I have had this package of glow in the dark kitties for ages and couldnt

figure out WHERE I was going to put them but finally I came up with a place.

My mom really likes it and I'm glad since shes picky so makes me feel its a

worthy gift. (Mom's have WAY to much power). I'm bummed because Im sick and

can't go see . The good news is that she is out of the ICU, off her

surgical vent thing, still on PCA for pain control stuff. Her visitors are

still limited overall as her parents dont want her to get any cooties. Her

blood sugars have been rather out of control due to the steriods but

apparently she is much more alert, happy and doing well. She is still having

some jaundice because, they think one of the tubes going to her liver or

something might have been sutured too tight..... BLAH.... so they have to

investigate this issue some more but she still looks way LESS yellow than

she was according to those who have been able to see her. Anyways, I had

planned to leave her gift with the nurses station to give to her but now I'm

just staying home and hopefully I will bne able to give it to her myself.

I was supposed to be having my echo doppler study thing this friday but I

have to cancel Again due to this issue.

Okay so now i can step off my soap box.

Sure theree are WAY WORSE problems in the world than me being sick but Im

just tired.. very very tired and fatigued and not happy. My last year and a

half in college was spent fighting bronchtiis in 3 different episodes that

lasted several months each time. I spent more time sick than not sick. =( So

every time I get whwat might be and I'm sure is.... I start feeling extra

paranoid.

I guess what makes me worry more is that I have such a aNUMPTY of a doctor

as well so I dont even have someone I can really trust to treat me

effectively. I'm sure he would blow me off as per usual and so I dont see

the point of making a trip over to see him for nothing or for antibiotics

that I might not need or whatever....

Okay I said I was done.. now I am....

I think the whine glass broke....

Issadora

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" How exactly does one become a butterfly? You must want to fly so badly that

you are willing to give up being a caterpillar. "

- Trina us