OK bare with me ladies

[Guest guest]

I apologize to the group for my post and if I upset anyone. I had a

much better day today and I guess I just have to be patient. Ok, no

my breasts don['t look that bad Jackie, but I don't look like I did

with implants and people do need to be prepared for this! I guess I

had allot of unrealistic expectations, and NO Patty, you never led me

to think this would be easy. I know my mind plays tricks on me big

time, because if I stop and think back or read some of my journals or

my posts in July I was allot sicker than I am now. Though I do get

some really bad days. I went out on Monday night and had a decaf

cappucino, I don't know if that had anything to do with my feeling so

crappy Tuesday, or if it was the depression or what. I do know that

today I felt allot better though of course not perfect. I will try

not to get so impatient and I realize that I will have problems for

awhile. Sorry you guys for my ranting and raving, this has been such

a hard thing.

Ok so Jackie my breasts are perky, and the scars aren't bad, but I

had allot of stretch marks on top of my breasts (I am a small person

not much fat) 5'4 " tall 120 pounds, so of course now I can see all

the stretch marks and this is more upsetting to me than the actual

shape or even size of my breasts...but amazingly enough I got this

water bra and it looks good, I wore it today and I can actually even

make a bit of cleavage, so all is not bad...like I said the stretch

marks bug me more than anything else...but they seem to run in my

family. Blah...I am an emotional wreck right now, but happy that at

least today my head felt really clear and almost normal....and yes

Dr.Feng said it would be a long hall anywhere from 6 weeks to a year

to see the symptoms fade, and I have seen improvement...I just

thought that I would be lucky and some miracle would occur and I

would be different and that as soon as the implants were gone I would

feel great HA! ok not very realistic of me, and then I must admit

too, I do miss the dam things. I can't deny it. But I also know when

I am fully recovered I won't care that much. The other thing I think

that depresses me is my obsession with boobs..everywhere I go I am

looking at boobs, I never used to be like this, now I am a freak

(lol) and tv gets me pretty depressed too, when it seems like they

all have implants or at least they appear to ! AH crazy