update

[Guest guest]

Roy--

Keep us posted w/. You both are in my thoughts & prayers.

Laurie

[Guest guest]

Roy--

Keep us posted w/. You both are in my thoughts & prayers.

Laurie

[Guest guest]

what status are you listed as again? Do you still work?

Thanks,

Michele

[Guest guest]

what status are you listed as again? Do you still work?

Thanks,

Michele

[Guest guest]

,

Ed and I will be praying for you. Please have your buddy let us know

when you are in the hospital.

Sorry it took so long to respond, we just got back from a much needed

vacation in Las Vegas.

Gracie and Ed

[Guest guest]

,

Ed and I will be praying for you. Please have your buddy let us know

when you are in the hospital.

Sorry it took so long to respond, we just got back from a much needed

vacation in Las Vegas.

Gracie and Ed

[Guest guest]

,

Ed and I will be praying for you. Please have your buddy let us know

when you are in the hospital.

Sorry it took so long to respond, we just got back from a much needed

vacation in Las Vegas.

Gracie and Ed

[Guest guest]

Hi my name is , I usually don't post that often, but I think I'll be doing

it more often even do I'm very shy. I apply for SS and they denied my benefits,

so I'm going to appeal. Do you believe my doctors said that I could lift weight

up to 50 pounds, that's crazy! If I'm bromine or moping my arms start hurting

allot imagine lifting up all that weight. So I'm really upset. With my health

I'm sore of my legs and really tire. I have appointment with my reumatologist

until December. I don't know if he is going to start me in a new medication.

What I'm starting to have is allot of allergy in may face, and sometimes I feel

like my face is burning. Hopefully it goes away when I wash my face and

lubricated. But sometimes I feel my face so super dry, I don't know if this

happens to any one else, and what do you do about it. Well good to have post

thank you. 

________________________________

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Dear Kirk,

I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one of

my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and nothing

helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any activity at all,

then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those doctors,

and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like that, how

crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give up

since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a boat any

more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San Diego area.

Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a fishing

partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable having

their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But heck if they

think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their husbands right!

See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I have

of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I caught.

It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day again. Keep on

fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those headaches. They are

horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy life and what you can.

~~~~~~

From: Kirk Bonanny

Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

To: stillsdisease

Subject: update

Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

longer than average.

My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

dog.

I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

with.

I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

great amount, but enough.

He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

what some of us do as " Live " .

Later, Kirk.

--

Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

If you are interested in fishing but are limited to what you can do you

may want to search your area for any small bass clubs. I, along with 3

other former members of the club I was a member of for years can no longer

handle the 8 hour tournaments, nor afford the gas for far trips, the price

of hotels etc....

Two years ago we started a small club. We only fish 4 hour tournaments

and they must be located within one half hours' drive from the town of

Wyoming, Pa as that works out to the center of our membership. I usually

never take my boat as I prefer to go as a rider. it would not surprise me

to find out there is a similar type of club in your area. I also

know California is BIG on restricting its' lakes and such to small boats,

many without motors, many can only be fished from shore.

I'm sure if you looked on the net for fishing clubs in your area you will

find a way. Hell, even we had 5 female members when our club was a full

time affair, and 2 still like to attend our small ones when they can. We

capped what the fees can be and everything else we could do to make sure

anyone who wants to fish with us can. the only downside is that in Pa you

must have a tournament permit IF you have at least 10 people fishing. Many

times we are under that amount, so it doesn't affect us most of the time

and the rare instance where we have over 10 we " split " the field so that we

are in essence having 2 tournaments with two different clubs. Not 100%

legal but none of us want to put in the time and wait forever for an answer

from the PA Fish & Boat Commission.

Even if you can not swing a tourney, I'm sure you can find a friend or

two that would be thrilled to take you out with them. i find it strange

that women wouldn't feel comfortable if their husband took you out. My wife

used to fish all of the time with me, and I wouldn't mind her getting back

into it. I have had numerous female partners and even teamed up with two

different ones along the way for some tourneys. Hell, my best friends

youngest/only Sister damn near lived in my boat until she married one of my

friends and now she is almost always with him.

Most of the fishing I do know is from shore OR a rowboat that I have at

my Parents' cottage. It is a smaller lake (50 acres give or take but the

Bass fishing is awesome if you know what to throw and when to throw it.

everyone up there bitches at me as they see all of the PIGS I catch and

they never catch anything of any size. I am honest with them and tell them

what to throw and where but many of them are bait fishermen and I generally

use larger lures exclusively (up there at least) to target the PIGS. Last

night when I took my Son down the Susquehanna River I went to a place where

I could drive right up to near where I was going to fish as I can't lug it

like I used to.....and with my luck I'd walk a long way and than not be

able to make it back!!!!

Get out and fish! I know now that if it wasn't for three things I would

have killed myself years ago. The first has to be my 2 Sons. The second is

that I was already a youth football coach, and I stayed even though I was

on the field with a walker for a year and change and still coach to this

day though this most likely will be my last year...but that isn't related

to my health...more related to my kids being too old and BIG for youth

football now. The third is fishing. granted, I am not driving all over and

spending 18 hours a day doing it anymore, but even an hour makes me happy.

My largest problem is that I can't handle my boat alone anymore (getting it

off/on the trailer... strapping it down etc....I have the same problem with

the rowboat as it weighs over 300 lbs and I have to drag it 25-30 feet to

get it into the lake. Now that my kids are getting older, bigger and

stronger I know I'll finally be able to use my boats. My main boat is a 17'

Aluminum with a Jet outboard (I also have a spare 50 HP prop outboard I

used to switch back and forth depending on the next tourney!!!) that is in

excellent shape. Fortunately for me most of my friends also have big boats

and I'd just as soon jump in one of their than prep mine and tow it.

Find a way...you know you can and TRUST me.....you will be thrilled to

high Heaven that you did once you do so.

Best wishes, Kirk.

> **

>

>

> Dear Kirk,

>

> I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

> describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one

> of my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and

> nothing helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any

> activity at all, then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

>

> I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those

> doctors, and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like

> that, how crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

>

> Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give

> up since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a

> boat any more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San

> Diego area. Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a

> fishing partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable

> having their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But

> heck if they think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their

> husbands right!

>

> See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I

> have of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I

> caught. It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day

> again. Keep on fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those

> headaches. They are horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy

> life and what you can.

>

> ~~~~~~

>

> From: Kirk Bonanny

> Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

> To: stillsdisease

> Subject: update

>

>

> Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

> have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

> years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

> walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

> longer than average.

> My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

> headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

> kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

> couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

> right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

> than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

> my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

> from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

> fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

> no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

> PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

> other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

> last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

> do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

> they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

> dog.

> I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

> from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

> see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

> something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

> don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

> straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

> and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

> Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

> treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

> as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

> give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

> with.

> I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

> arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

>

> Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

> and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

> head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

> in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

> 8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

> smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

> great amount, but enough.

> He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

> as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

> that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

> what some of us do as " Live " .

> Later, Kirk.

> --

> Everything in life sucks except things that should!

>

>

[Guest guest]

If you are interested in fishing but are limited to what you can do you

may want to search your area for any small bass clubs. I, along with 3

other former members of the club I was a member of for years can no longer

handle the 8 hour tournaments, nor afford the gas for far trips, the price

of hotels etc....

Two years ago we started a small club. We only fish 4 hour tournaments

and they must be located within one half hours' drive from the town of

Wyoming, Pa as that works out to the center of our membership. I usually

never take my boat as I prefer to go as a rider. it would not surprise me

to find out there is a similar type of club in your area. I also

know California is BIG on restricting its' lakes and such to small boats,

many without motors, many can only be fished from shore.

I'm sure if you looked on the net for fishing clubs in your area you will

find a way. Hell, even we had 5 female members when our club was a full

time affair, and 2 still like to attend our small ones when they can. We

capped what the fees can be and everything else we could do to make sure

anyone who wants to fish with us can. the only downside is that in Pa you

must have a tournament permit IF you have at least 10 people fishing. Many

times we are under that amount, so it doesn't affect us most of the time

and the rare instance where we have over 10 we " split " the field so that we

are in essence having 2 tournaments with two different clubs. Not 100%

legal but none of us want to put in the time and wait forever for an answer

from the PA Fish & Boat Commission.

Even if you can not swing a tourney, I'm sure you can find a friend or

two that would be thrilled to take you out with them. i find it strange

that women wouldn't feel comfortable if their husband took you out. My wife

used to fish all of the time with me, and I wouldn't mind her getting back

into it. I have had numerous female partners and even teamed up with two

different ones along the way for some tourneys. Hell, my best friends

youngest/only Sister damn near lived in my boat until she married one of my

friends and now she is almost always with him.

Most of the fishing I do know is from shore OR a rowboat that I have at

my Parents' cottage. It is a smaller lake (50 acres give or take but the

Bass fishing is awesome if you know what to throw and when to throw it.

everyone up there bitches at me as they see all of the PIGS I catch and

they never catch anything of any size. I am honest with them and tell them

what to throw and where but many of them are bait fishermen and I generally

use larger lures exclusively (up there at least) to target the PIGS. Last

night when I took my Son down the Susquehanna River I went to a place where

I could drive right up to near where I was going to fish as I can't lug it

like I used to.....and with my luck I'd walk a long way and than not be

able to make it back!!!!

Get out and fish! I know now that if it wasn't for three things I would

have killed myself years ago. The first has to be my 2 Sons. The second is

that I was already a youth football coach, and I stayed even though I was

on the field with a walker for a year and change and still coach to this

day though this most likely will be my last year...but that isn't related

to my health...more related to my kids being too old and BIG for youth

football now. The third is fishing. granted, I am not driving all over and

spending 18 hours a day doing it anymore, but even an hour makes me happy.

My largest problem is that I can't handle my boat alone anymore (getting it

off/on the trailer... strapping it down etc....I have the same problem with

the rowboat as it weighs over 300 lbs and I have to drag it 25-30 feet to

get it into the lake. Now that my kids are getting older, bigger and

stronger I know I'll finally be able to use my boats. My main boat is a 17'

Aluminum with a Jet outboard (I also have a spare 50 HP prop outboard I

used to switch back and forth depending on the next tourney!!!) that is in

excellent shape. Fortunately for me most of my friends also have big boats

and I'd just as soon jump in one of their than prep mine and tow it.

Find a way...you know you can and TRUST me.....you will be thrilled to

high Heaven that you did once you do so.

Best wishes, Kirk.

> **

>

>

> Dear Kirk,

>

> I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

> describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one

> of my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and

> nothing helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any

> activity at all, then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

>

> I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those

> doctors, and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like

> that, how crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

>

> Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give

> up since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a

> boat any more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San

> Diego area. Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a

> fishing partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable

> having their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But

> heck if they think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their

> husbands right!

>

> See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I

> have of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I

> caught. It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day

> again. Keep on fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those

> headaches. They are horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy

> life and what you can.

>

> ~~~~~~

>

> From: Kirk Bonanny

> Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

> To: stillsdisease

> Subject: update

>

>

> Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

> have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

> years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

> walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

> longer than average.

> My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

> headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

> kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

> couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

> right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

> than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

> my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

> from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

> fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

> no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

> PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

> other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

> last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

> do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

> they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

> dog.

> I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

> from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

> see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

> something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

> don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

> straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

> and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

> Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

> treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

> as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

> give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

> with.

> I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

> arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

>

> Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

> and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

> head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

> in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

> 8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

> smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

> great amount, but enough.

> He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

> as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

> that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

> what some of us do as " Live " .

> Later, Kirk.

> --

> Everything in life sucks except things that should!

>

>

[Guest guest]

If you are interested in fishing but are limited to what you can do you

may want to search your area for any small bass clubs. I, along with 3

other former members of the club I was a member of for years can no longer

handle the 8 hour tournaments, nor afford the gas for far trips, the price

of hotels etc....

Two years ago we started a small club. We only fish 4 hour tournaments

and they must be located within one half hours' drive from the town of

Wyoming, Pa as that works out to the center of our membership. I usually

never take my boat as I prefer to go as a rider. it would not surprise me

to find out there is a similar type of club in your area. I also

know California is BIG on restricting its' lakes and such to small boats,

many without motors, many can only be fished from shore.

I'm sure if you looked on the net for fishing clubs in your area you will

find a way. Hell, even we had 5 female members when our club was a full

time affair, and 2 still like to attend our small ones when they can. We

capped what the fees can be and everything else we could do to make sure

anyone who wants to fish with us can. the only downside is that in Pa you

must have a tournament permit IF you have at least 10 people fishing. Many

times we are under that amount, so it doesn't affect us most of the time

and the rare instance where we have over 10 we " split " the field so that we

are in essence having 2 tournaments with two different clubs. Not 100%

legal but none of us want to put in the time and wait forever for an answer

from the PA Fish & Boat Commission.

Even if you can not swing a tourney, I'm sure you can find a friend or

two that would be thrilled to take you out with them. i find it strange

that women wouldn't feel comfortable if their husband took you out. My wife

used to fish all of the time with me, and I wouldn't mind her getting back

into it. I have had numerous female partners and even teamed up with two

different ones along the way for some tourneys. Hell, my best friends

youngest/only Sister damn near lived in my boat until she married one of my

friends and now she is almost always with him.

Most of the fishing I do know is from shore OR a rowboat that I have at

my Parents' cottage. It is a smaller lake (50 acres give or take but the

Bass fishing is awesome if you know what to throw and when to throw it.

everyone up there bitches at me as they see all of the PIGS I catch and

they never catch anything of any size. I am honest with them and tell them

what to throw and where but many of them are bait fishermen and I generally

use larger lures exclusively (up there at least) to target the PIGS. Last

night when I took my Son down the Susquehanna River I went to a place where

I could drive right up to near where I was going to fish as I can't lug it

like I used to.....and with my luck I'd walk a long way and than not be

able to make it back!!!!

Get out and fish! I know now that if it wasn't for three things I would

have killed myself years ago. The first has to be my 2 Sons. The second is

that I was already a youth football coach, and I stayed even though I was

on the field with a walker for a year and change and still coach to this

day though this most likely will be my last year...but that isn't related

to my health...more related to my kids being too old and BIG for youth

football now. The third is fishing. granted, I am not driving all over and

spending 18 hours a day doing it anymore, but even an hour makes me happy.

My largest problem is that I can't handle my boat alone anymore (getting it

off/on the trailer... strapping it down etc....I have the same problem with

the rowboat as it weighs over 300 lbs and I have to drag it 25-30 feet to

get it into the lake. Now that my kids are getting older, bigger and

stronger I know I'll finally be able to use my boats. My main boat is a 17'

Aluminum with a Jet outboard (I also have a spare 50 HP prop outboard I

used to switch back and forth depending on the next tourney!!!) that is in

excellent shape. Fortunately for me most of my friends also have big boats

and I'd just as soon jump in one of their than prep mine and tow it.

Find a way...you know you can and TRUST me.....you will be thrilled to

high Heaven that you did once you do so.

Best wishes, Kirk.

> **

>

>

> Dear Kirk,

>

> I can say that I share your pain as far as headaches go. I cannot begin to

> describe the overall whole body experience I encounter with the pain of one

> of my headaches. I’ve don everything I can think of to avoid them, and

> nothing helps aside from staying in bed continually, and not having any

> activity at all, then maybe I don’t get them as often. What a life though.

>

> I can’t say how I would have handled what you went through with those

> doctors, and if I’d even be out of a mental hospital after an ordeal like

> that, how crazy! So sorry to hear about that.

>

> Please make sure you keep on fishin’. That is one thing I’ve had to give

> up since my illness that is my passion and love is to fish. Don’t own a

> boat any more after the divorce. Don’t have that many places to go in San

> Diego area. Can’t do much in the form of physical activity. Don’t have a

> fishing partner. I’m female and none of my couples friends feel comfortable

> having their husband go out fishing with me, which is understandable. But

> heck if they think it bad, they should get up and go fishing with their

> husbands right!

>

> See the fishing pictures on Facebook and dream of the days and memories I

> have of fishing. Will soon scan a picture of me in Alaska holding my fish I

> caught. It was so beneficial to my well being to fish. Perhaps some day

> again. Keep on fishing Kirk. I will pray for you to get rid of those

> headaches. They are horrible. But keep pushing through the pain to enjoy

> life and what you can.

>

> ~~~~~~

>

> From: Kirk Bonanny

> Sent: Tuesday, May 01, 2012 10:10 PM

> To: stillsdisease

> Subject: update

>

>

> Howdy...I've been living in hell again for the past few weeks. I had to

> have my morphine pump implant replaced as the battery was dying after 7

> years. I can't complain about that as it allowed me to stand up without a

> walker and all of that good stuff and my battery actually lasted 2 years

> longer than average.

> My problem started 3 days prior to the surgery as one of my F******

> headaches from hell decided to start up. Well, long story short it jest

> kept ratcheting up day by day after the surgery to the point where I

> couldn't in good conscience take anymore pills. Than the teeth in the upper

> right part of my mouth started to literally all feel abscessed all at once,

> than my right ear started to cause me unbelievable pain. I had to call in

> my Dentist after hours yet my teeth (although they are all broken/shattered

> from the roids and the headaches...not to count my younger years with fist

> fights/wrestling etc.) so I tried to call my PCP as I felt I could take it

> no more and I had to go to the ER/resort. Well, my luck has not changed, my

> PCP was not on call and the answering service would not do anything for me

> other than to tell me to take tylenol and go to the ER. I swore after the

> last time I had to go to the ER without a Dr calling ahead that I'd never

> do it again. Once they see my medication list and morphine pump implant

> they automatically label me a drug seeker and treat me worse than an abused

> dog.

> I have had it. Today is the first day the headache has dropped at all,

> from a 10 to maybe a 9, and that may be generous. I was able to get into

> see my PCP today and he is going to see if there is a way he can have

> something inserted into my records for the ER exclusively so that they

> don't ever do what they always do to me again. I layed in agony for 12

> straight days. I had to force myself just to get up to go to the bathroom

> and stuff like that. Te pain was indescribable.

> Anyone know of a way to nail these " Holier Than Though " ER people who

> treat many of us like shit??? I literally can not go without my Dr calling

> as I know that I will KILL at least one of those SOBs the next time they

> give me the " ATTITUDE " they love to show people they don't want to deal

> with.

> I swear a they have a requirement that you have to be a miserable

> arrogant a**HOLE to work in an ER.

>

> Just venting. My PCP wanted to know how I was able to stay out of the ER

> and I was honest..I doubled my HYDROMORPHONE dose, placed ice packs on my

> head and repeatedly smashed my head off of one of the 8x8 wooden supports

> in my basement. I really am glad I had the original bars removed and the

> 8x8s installed so that my regulation billiard table ( 9' x 4.5' ) as

> smashing my head as hard as I can off of those actually helps. Not by a

> great amount, but enough.

> He begged me to never do that again and never tell anyone in the ER that

> as they'd stick me in the wacko-ward! What a life we get to live! I guess

> that has to be looked at through rose colored glasses to be able to call

> what some of us do as " Live " .

> Later, Kirk.

> --

> Everything in life sucks except things that should!

>

>

[Guest guest]

I've known for close to 10 years that my luck really and truly sucks,

but it is getting worse....I think. Back in April I had to have my morphine

pump implant replaced as after 7 years it was at the end of its' life. The

surgery went very well at the time, but a hair over a week later I was back

in with a viscous headache. Not much new there, but this was in May, a time

when the headaches usually start to diminish until the cold weather

returns...which after spending countless amounts of money and driving all

over the Eastern seaboard the best diagnosis anyone could come up with is

" New Daily Persistent Headache " which was diagnosed by Dr. Wm Young (great

DR!) but no one has a solution for them other than incredibly strong

narcotic type of meds that I have no choice to use as little as possible if

I want to be in control of my life and mind, which I do.

This summer we had planned our 1st major vacation since we married 16

1/2 years ago. We were taking the kids to burg,Va. to go to Busch

Gardens, Water Park USA, Historic downtown burg etc.....Roughly 3

weeks prior to the vacation I bumped the area where the morphine pump

implant was and felt horrendous pain. I lifted my shirt and almost shit

myself as it was as red as an apple, swollen and hot. I immediately

contacted my Neuro Surgeon who saw me the next day. They drew a lot of

blood and put me on Keflex. Nothing showed up in my blood work or on the

cultures. They wanted to rip it out at that point but I convinced them to

let me take my family on vacation..so they gave me another few weeks worth

of Keflex and written orders in case anything happened while I was away.

I wasn't able to enjoy much of the vacation, but the wife and kids had a

blast, which was good enough for me. Than roughly 10-12 days ago I knew I

was in trouble as it was starting to get ugly again. I had an appointment

and was to be admitted and have it removed but I never mad it that far as I

wound up with fevers, chills, a blinding headache and in my

absolutely least favorite place to be, which is the ER!! I've come close to

slugging a couple of assholes that work there and love to look at my

med list and assume I am a druggie, which is about one of the worst thins

I've ever been accused of yet have never, ever been nor do I plan to be. I

had enough friends that I grew up with go down that road enough to know

that one would have to be as dense as hell to even think of trying any of

that shit.

The first day+ was absolute HELL on earth, again but luckily my neuro

surgeon was working this past weekend and it was removed on Sunday. It is

frightening how good death looks like when you're in that kind of agony.

After 2 days I started to feel somewhat human again, but they had yet to

break the headache. One thing that caught me off guard was severe diarrhea

and of course when they did a culture they found C-Dif. OUTSTANDING!

I know I need to lose a bunch of weight but this isn't how I had

envisioned beginning it. Once they found that out I was placed in isolation

which compounded matters as when my back would start to kill me I'd walk

the halls for a few minutes at a time (well, what I call walking at

least.... cane and all..which still beats the walker I had to use for 16

months earlier in this disease.

Now I've gone 8 days with a total of about 14-16 hours of sleep as I

can't get comfortable as my back and neck kill me when I lie down. To

make matters worse they found the cause of the infection, which was a staff

infection.....more damn meds! The worst part is that they have to wait at

least 2.5 months before they can implant another due to the increased risk

of infection.

So much for me getting to enjoy my summer, which is what I look forward

to each and every year as it is the only time of year when I feel halfway

decent. I'll still coach football, but won't be able to be as hands on as I

like to be which is going to kill me.

Oh well. Just thought I'd give this update/rant. I also figured out that

I should never, ever gamble due o this shit luck I have.

Kirk.,

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Everything in life sucks except things that should!

[Guest guest]

Hello Harry,

Good to see you again. I just wanted to share that I know someone that uses

Nusynta after years of taking too my Norco without adequate relief. They say

it works much better for them and his doctor says it's much better for his

liver. I just wanted to share that and say thank you for the suggestion.

Good day,

RE: update

Hello Kirk,

Has anyone offered you Nucynta? I have seen some literature on it as an

alternative pain medication.

Sometimes the opioid can initiate headaches.

Harry S.

[Guest guest]

Hello Harry,

Good to see you again. I just wanted to share that I know someone that uses

Nusynta after years of taking too my Norco without adequate relief. They say

it works much better for them and his doctor says it's much better for his

liver. I just wanted to share that and say thank you for the suggestion.

Good day,

RE: update

Hello Kirk,

Has anyone offered you Nucynta? I have seen some literature on it as an

alternative pain medication.

Sometimes the opioid can initiate headaches.

Harry S.

[Guest guest]

Hello Harry,

Good to see you again. I just wanted to share that I know someone that uses

Nusynta after years of taking too my Norco without adequate relief. They say

it works much better for them and his doctor says it's much better for his

liver. I just wanted to share that and say thank you for the suggestion.

Good day,

RE: update

Hello Kirk,

Has anyone offered you Nucynta? I have seen some literature on it as an

alternative pain medication.

Sometimes the opioid can initiate headaches.

Harry S.

[Guest guest]

Hi Kirk,

I wanted to share with you and others that Harry has been with us quite a while

now and holds the position as Medical Advisor on the Board of Directors for the

International Still’s Disease Foundation. If anyone has questions about

medical issues he can point you in the right direction for answers.

I also want to say that I have been given the same information about Nucynta

being easier on the Liver and more positive than some other opiates in several

ways.

I hope the infection at the site of your pump heals quickly so that you can get

back to less pain.

Wishing you a good weekend all,

From: Kirk Bonanny

.. I've had a morphine pump implant for

close to 8 years, which they just had to remove due to a staff infection.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Kirk,

I wanted to share with you and others that Harry has been with us quite a while

now and holds the position as Medical Advisor on the Board of Directors for the

International Still’s Disease Foundation. If anyone has questions about

medical issues he can point you in the right direction for answers.

I also want to say that I have been given the same information about Nucynta

being easier on the Liver and more positive than some other opiates in several

ways.

I hope the infection at the site of your pump heals quickly so that you can get

back to less pain.

Wishing you a good weekend all,

From: Kirk Bonanny

.. I've had a morphine pump implant for

close to 8 years, which they just had to remove due to a staff infection.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Kirk,

I wanted to share with you and others that Harry has been with us quite a while

now and holds the position as Medical Advisor on the Board of Directors for the

International Still’s Disease Foundation. If anyone has questions about

medical issues he can point you in the right direction for answers.

I also want to say that I have been given the same information about Nucynta

being easier on the Liver and more positive than some other opiates in several

ways.

I hope the infection at the site of your pump heals quickly so that you can get

back to less pain.

Wishing you a good weekend all,

From: Kirk Bonanny

.. I've had a morphine pump implant for

close to 8 years, which they just had to remove due to a staff infection.

>

[Guest guest]

i never knew this, but I find it to be fantastic! Kirk.

> **

>

>

> Hi Kirk,

>

> I wanted to share with you and others that Harry has been with us quite a

> while now and holds the position as Medical Advisor on the Board of

> Directors for the International Still’s Disease Foundation. If anyone has

> questions about medical issues he can point you in the right direction for

> answers.

>

> I also want to say that I have been given the same information about

> Nucynta being easier on the Liver and more positive than some other opiates

> in several ways.

>

> I hope the infection at the site of your pump heals quickly so that you

> can get back to less pain.

>

> Wishing you a good weekend all,

>

> From: Kirk Bonanny

> . I've had a morphine pump implant for

> close to 8 years, which they just had to remove due to a staff infection.

>

> >

>

>