Dawn

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CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did I already know this? I forget!! UGH!!!

You must be sooooooooo psyched!

Let me know when you're ready to plan the wedding! I just got through mine, and have a great DJ to recommend if interested!

Dawn

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I'll bet!

Just reporting in

Happy Monday everyone!!

I just figured I would report in and tell you about a few things going on

with me, again!

Thursday, I went to the surgeon for my 3 month checkup. According to their

scales, I have lost 60 pounds in 12 weeks! Amazing! I never thought that

would happen to me.

Then this weekend, I decided to try to paint my toe nails. I usually have

to cross my legs from ankel to knee to do this, but this time, I just pulled

my knee up to my chest and painted away!! I am becoming more flexible!

This should be fun in other situations!! (hehehe)

I will be moving to my new townhouse on March 3rd. Me and the X are still

living together but we are civil and getting along allright. And yesterday

I met someone new!! he seems like a really nice guy, and although I am far

from ready to be starting anything right now, we decided that we would go

out and just get to know eachother. This whole weekend when I went out, I

was being hit on by men!! WHAT AN EXPERIENCE!!!! That has never happened

to ME?? I don't know, but I do seem to like the attention. haha

Well, just wanted to update you all. Hope everyone is doing well

Talk to you all soon

R.

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Thank you maura...you too!!!

D

dawn

dawn,

thank you for sharing that with us.

you're super!

maura

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Dawn is a wonderful gift in herself

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Dawn,

I wanted to say that your letter moved me greatly. I have been

overweight since childhood and it has been the cause of a lot of heartache.

If you have about a day or so, maybe I will tell you about it LOL. Anyway, I

wanted you guy's opinion on something. For about a month or so, for no reason

at all, I think of how I was at my worst point, right before the operation. I

don't share this normally but today I will. I was at 500 pounds which

needless to say was my worst. I am deeply ashamed of that fact. When I say I

couldn't do anything, I really mean anything. I could not help around the

house. I could only sweatpants that I only had two of and two shirts because

they were the only thing that fit me. This was my outfit everyday. That's why

when you suggested I speak at the meetings, it scares me although once I get

rolling, I'm usually ok. The initial thought of it kills me. Of course I feel

a lot better, but when I think of those days and how useless I was, an

amazing wave of sadness surrounds me and I am on the verge of losing it and

crying. In fact, sometimes I do. It happened to me today. Out of the blue, I

was laying in bed and I started thinking about it and I lost it. One day,

while I was driving home from work, I was thinking about what to wear the

next day and it hit then. It doesn't last long and it's hard to describe the

sadness but it certainly is overwhelming. Plus, I don't think it's a case of

feeling sorry for myself either. I'm confused as to whether or not it's just

sadness or tears of joy, if you know what I mean. It's been kind of bugging

me and I thought maybe you could share your ideas with me. Thanks, you guys

are wonderful

Don

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Andee,

Nice to hear from you.

Beth

3-21-2000 Dr Reines

On Sat, 3 Feb 2001 07:55:48 -0500 (EST) artzychick@... writes:

> Dawn,

> OMG ! ! ! ! What you wrote really hit home. I felt like that my

> whole

> life too! I still find myself trying to convince my head that " I'm

> really not that big " . It seems like for the past few years it has

> gotten really bad, I was to the point that I didn't even see myself

> in

> the mirror anymore. And then sometime in late December, I really

> saw

> myself in my mothers full length mirror. I was horrified, discusted

> and

> ashamed that I had done this to myself. I decided then that I HAD

> to do

> something. I don't know how I came across wls all I know is that I

> did.

> I started researching, made the decision that this was right for me

> and

> I was on my way. So here I am a lurker to this group -usually-

> mostly

> because I feel like I can't contribute much yet. I am PrePre-op

> Meaning

> that my pcp said that she would give me the referral on my next

> visit

> February 12th -if my blood pressure was down and my pulse has slowed

> some. I have (on my own) called Lahey and asked them to put me on

> the

> schedule. So, I am waiting to hear back from them -they had said

> that

> it would be sometime in May most likely. I want to go to the next

> meeting where ever that my be. (Can you just go to any meeting at

> any

> center or do you have to be in a program already?)

> Wow, I guess that I should post more often maybe then I wouldn't

> be

> trying to write a novel in one sitting.

> Anyway, Dawn and all of you thank you for sharing so much of

> yourselves with others. I know that from making my decision to have

> wls

> and reading all of the e-mails from all of you, I feel like I am

> already

> placed on the path to happiness and self love (acceptance and

> understanding too)

>

> ***Andee ()

>

>

>

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Hi Don,

Thanks so much for this honest and touching post. It sounds to me

like what you're experiencing is grief. I think it's very healthy and

appropriate - nothing to be scared about. You are finally strong

enough to feel the pain of the past. I believe we are only presented

with what we can handle at any given point in time and it sounds to

me like some part of you thinks you have enough inner strength to

feel the immense sadness and loss of your 'past' life. This is

absolutely NOT feeling sorry for yourself - this is feeling your true

feelings so you can move past them. Someone once said that the only

way out was through - you're moving through. The good news is that

you don't have to do it alone. The shear fact that you felt

comfortable enough to share it here means that you also believe you

don't need to face it alone. I'm sending a big {{{{{{{hug}}}}}}} of

support to you. Congratulations on having compassion for yourself,

you deserve it!!!

Anita

> Dawn,

> I wanted to say that your letter moved me greatly. I have

been

> overweight since childhood and it has been the cause of a lot of

heartache.

> If you have about a day or so, maybe I will tell you about it LOL.

Anyway, I

> wanted you guy's opinion on something. For about a month or so, for

no reason

> at all, I think of how I was at my worst point, right before the

operation. I

> don't share this normally but today I will. I was at 500 pounds

which

> needless to say was my worst. I am deeply ashamed of that fact.

When I say I

> couldn't do anything, I really mean anything. I could not help

around the

> house. I could only sweatpants that I only had two of and two

shirts because

> they were the only thing that fit me. This was my outfit everyday.

That's why

> when you suggested I speak at the meetings, it scares me although

once I get

> rolling, I'm usually ok. The initial thought of it kills me. Of

course I feel

> a lot better, but when I think of those days and how useless I was,

an

> amazing wave of sadness surrounds me and I am on the verge of

losing it and

> crying. In fact, sometimes I do. It happened to me today. Out of

the blue, I

> was laying in bed and I started thinking about it and I lost it.

One day,

> while I was driving home from work, I was thinking about what to

wear the

> next day and it hit then. It doesn't last long and it's hard to

describe the

> sadness but it certainly is overwhelming. Plus, I don't think it's

a case of

> feeling sorry for myself either. I'm confused as to whether or not

it's just

> sadness or tears of joy, if you know what I mean. It's been kind of

bugging

> me and I thought maybe you could share your ideas with me. Thanks,

you guys

> are wonderful

>

> Don

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Thank you for your kind words Anita. I guess the only thing that makes me

wonder is why would I mourn such a thing? It seems to me that I would be

overjoyed that I'm not like that anymore, which I am. I mentioned to my

shrink that my mother died at a very young age from obesity (49) back in 1978

and at that time, this was not available. She had a very miserable life in a

lot of ways because of her size as we all know. She was an awful lot of fun

to be around and was generous to a fault. I think it's either manifesting

itself now because I couldn't do anything about it back then or its' maybe

just a quilt trip for being a burden to everyone. It's truly a puzzler to me.

Don

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Dawn...Wow...I am sooo happy for you...you are an

inspiration to us pre-oppers...always and with a smile...sherri:)

=====

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Don,

That is touching. I suppose it could be a little of both. Maybe you

are morning the lose of the old you but with great joy welcoming in the

new you. When I hit my 1oo lb. mark I cryed. for one, because I was so

happy it was gone and in a way it did make me sad, maybe because I wish I

hadn't been there in the first place. I think it's good that you,me,we

are feeling the emotions now and not eatting them down, Like at least I

know I did. It's all a part of healing, For me it's seems to be, If I

don't let myself feel in feeling I don't learn where to put it. You are

doing great and I'm glad I know you.

Pam

On Sat, 3 Feb 2001 17:04:13 EST Dondj@... writes:

> Dawn,

> I wanted to say that your letter moved me greatly. I have

> been

> overweight since childhood and it has been the cause of a lot of

> heartache.

> If you have about a day or so, maybe I will tell you about it LOL.

> Anyway, I

> wanted you guy's opinion on something. For about a month or so, for

> no reason

> at all, I think of how I was at my worst point, right before the

> operation. I

> don't share this normally but today I will. I was at 500 pounds

> which

> needless to say was my worst. I am deeply ashamed of that fact. When

> I say I

> couldn't do anything, I really mean anything. I could not help

> around the

> house. I could only sweatpants that I only had two of and two shirts

> because

> they were the only thing that fit me. This was my outfit everyday.

> That's why

> when you suggested I speak at the meetings, it scares me although

> once I get

> rolling, I'm usually ok. The initial thought of it kills me. Of

> course I feel

> a lot better, but when I think of those days and how useless I was,

> an

> amazing wave of sadness surrounds me and I am on the verge of losing

> it and

> crying. In fact, sometimes I do. It happened to me today. Out of the

> blue, I

> was laying in bed and I started thinking about it and I lost it. One

> day,

> while I was driving home from work, I was thinking about what to

> wear the

> next day and it hit then. It doesn't last long and it's hard to

> describe the

> sadness but it certainly is overwhelming. Plus, I don't think it's a

> case of

> feeling sorry for myself either. I'm confused as to whether or not

> it's just

> sadness or tears of joy, if you know what I mean. It's been kind of

> bugging

> me and I thought maybe you could share your ideas with me. Thanks,

> you guys

> are wonderful

>

> Don

>

>