Re: To K2 from Jen Z.

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Hi Jen Z.,

Thank you so much, your letter was most encouraging. I guess one of

my problems is the time factor. If I was able to spend a lot of

time going to drs, I would be able to get to the bottom of this

faster. But I start to feel like I'm becoming a " professional

patient " and then I back off because I don't want to get dragged into

the medical systems, and then too I don't have a lot of free time to

keep going to appointments. I am also " shy " when it comes to

speaking verbally either in person or by phone, so I tend to write

letters to the doctors, and then they misunderstand and it gets all

discombobulated. It's a problem I need to face and overcome, just

pick up the phone and talk to them, but I so detest talking by phone

or face-to-face (can't you tell ha ha).

As for the working and type-A personality, one of the reasons I want

to get dx'd is so I can " explain " to the people around me at work

what I'm going through. I work for my boyfriend, and I'm the vp of

the company, so everyone has issues with me being sick -- like they

are in denial " K2 can't be sick, it's just not right! " . We've all

known each other for over 20 years, so we're like a family. But

people expect me to be the same person I've always been, and I'm

physically incapable of doing it anymore, and they are in total

denial when I try to explain. If I hear " you're getting older " one

more time, I think I will scream. This has NOTHING to do with age!

So, it would be nice (I know this sounds weird) it would be nice to

have a diagnosis so I could say, " See? I'm not making this up! " So

far, that isn't happening. My boyfriend is very understanding, but

he too is a type-A and he only has to much tolerance for taking it

easy before he gets tired of it and inadvertently puts pressure on

me. It stinks, but it's my life and " it is what it is " what a

phrase that is, but it fits.

Thank you for your help, I appreciate it so much!

K2

>

> Welcome to the group. You sound a lot like me in some ways. Like

> your " happy go lucky " personality, I'm USUALLY a cheerful and

upbeat

> person.