Update on my situation

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Hi everyone,

Good news for a change. I took my driving test and passed with 14/15 score. I

now have a letter from DMV saying that I've been evaluated and they've found

that NO ACTION needs to be taken concerning my driver's license. So even WITH

my morphine pump, DMV has okayed me to drive!!!

Of course in the same day's mail was a huge envelope of paper from SSDI saying

that they were re-evaluating me for the 10th time. I hate the fact that my

doctors have been bothered by Children's services, my lawyer, and now the docs

will have to fill out all the SSDI paperwork again. I'm terrified that SSDI

will give me grief about not working. As I'm typing this, my knees are killing

me. I went to the first Parents in Conflict class with my ex--an hour each way

and a 2 hour class! The good news is that I made it, the bad news is that I

could barely sit through it.

And I'm caught in the bind that DCFS wants to drug test me and so I'm afraid to

take pain meds for my pain. Ridiculous. The latest crap is that they keep

insisting that I take their regular drug test. I WILL FAIL. There is no

question about that because I have a MORPHINE PUMP. DCFS needs to get a clue.

And despite the fact that the Judge specifically said that DCFS needs to test me

and make sure that my meds are within the levels ordered by my doctors, the

Minute Order (which is jotted down by the clerk while the Judge makes a ruling)

got it WRONG. It says " Mother shall undergo drug and alcohol tests. Mother to

remain on all prescribed medication. " But the idiot clerk LEFT OUT that the

testing needed to be done DIFFERENTLY because I will be positive in the regular

test EVERY SINGLE TIME. Oh, DCFS is going to bother my doctors one more to find

out the " levels " of medication I should be on. Except most of my pain meds are

PRN. How do you measure levels for PRN? I guess they'll just measure the

highest amount before toxicity? And this info can't be gotten in a one time

urine test.

I'm caught in the middle here. My other problem is that my lab work has looked

pretty good for the last 6 months. As you all know, that doesn't mean I'm okay

and painfree by any means. But there's nothing MEASURABLE for SSDI. Add to

this that my rheumy is pretty new to me; I've been seeing him for less than a

year. He gave me a hard time when I asked him to fill out the form for DMV

saying I was coherent and could drive. So I have no idea what he'll say. I

know I can't work.

All of this stress is just killing me. Between the pain and the stress, I

hardly want to get out of bed for fear of the next thing that will clobber

me....

Thanks you all for listening to me vent....