A cry for help/support/friendship

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Hi... I have posted my story here before and I did get replies,

thanks to you all, but I feel that I need to have a couple of people

in my situation to chat with right now... I have the best gf in the

world, she is everything I have ever wanted and sex is the only thing

we have EVER fought about but when we do it gets pretty serious. Our

relationship is perfect in every other way. Thanks to

antidepressants Ill probably have to say goodbye to that relationship

too. My previous one had the same problem, thanks to my good friend

Celexa. Both my ex and current gf have been on Celexa and the pill

and so the idea of having sex with me was/is as exciting to them as

scratching their head. Ive been on Effexor so I want sex but feel

pretty numb down there so when my gf DOES give it to me, she gets

discouraged cause i cant orgasm. Its a vicious circle, and I dont

know what to do. Everytime I look at her I want to cry because she is

the best thing that has ever happened to me and every day this is

hurting our relationship. Im always feeling this heavy emptiness,

bitterness, sadness, frustration, anger towards the medical industry,

hopelessness inside of me, and it is not fair for her cause she is

wonderful and we do everything for each other. To top it all off

she<s been druged and raped twice in the past and doesnt remember

much from it, and she has vaginism (painful involontary contractions

in her vagina that prevents any penetration). So I do not have a

clue where to start... her hormones and brain are fucked from the

pill and celexa, and I dont feel much. I want to file a lawsuit

against all those fuckers who put us in this mess! But Im way too

shy for that... I dont want to lose my gf and this whole thing is

tearing me apart... please if anyone understands what Im going

through message me on chikawah@..., psychopomp33@... or

here. I think the worse part is the psychological pain related to

all this. I feel like Im going insane. I feel that if I talk to a

psychologist about this they are not going to take me seriously and

they are gonna think that my problem is not physical but

psychological, or that Im straight or that she is straight or some

shit like that that we<ve been told already. I feel like no one will

take me seriously. I feel alone in this situation but then I see you

guys and it brings me some comfort, as well as pain and anger because

I wouldnt want to see anyone else with this pain. Im sorry if I

annoyed any of you with this post, just needed to vent. Thank you...

good luck to all of you