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Dearest ,

very nicely said and I agree with you on everything you said. I am having a

horrible day actually. Stayed home from work to rest, didn't listen to myself

and worked at home all day. It was hot, I was feeling miserable and VERY

moody.....kind of a " give up " attitude day...something not common for me at all.

I just sort of wanted to " throw in the towel " .....I started the day out okay and

all of the sudden just exploded, yelled and screamed at my boyfriend about

absolutely nothing important and then I apologized. I just wanted to curl up in

a ball today and be left alone to sulk. Where this came from, I don't know, but

now and then..we are certainly entitled to our pain and emotion of feelings. At

times, I think it does us some good to cry and get it all out. I was very angry

with this disease, my weight gain and just down on myself today. I think

because I developed a lot of pictures from my camping trip.... I was able to see

the true " weight gain " of that prednisone..and that's when my attitude changed

very much....the only thing good about prednisone is the chest to come along

with it...I call them my " prednisone puppies " ...lol....so the night is getting

later, and I can go to bed soon and be rid of this day. It was very strange for

me to start out in a wonderful mood and flip flop so quickly, but it truly helps

to have friends here to help us through and definitely listen to others like

J. Fox just come so far and give us faith and hope to live on and just

love life. He is definitely an inspiration and I did watch the show. I met him

on the streets once in Boston in front of my college dorm. He is incredibly

nice. Have a wonderful and pain free night .

Love, Sue #2